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A small smile was etched on my face as I lowered my phone from my ear, just finishing my call with my mother.

I had told her everything and she had told me everything, both sharing our parts of the story. She had told me she was proud, causing me to relax.

I wasn't excited about all the shit I had to do to stay here, but I was more than willing to do it if that meant me being on this camp until the very last day.

It was comfortable knowing that people knew though. I thought things would be unbelievably harder if I let this secret out, but I was wrong. It was kind of like a relief, and it was all thanks to Luke.

Never would I ever have thought that Luke Hemmings would be the one to make me feel comfortable with myself, but people can surprise you, I guess.

I sighed and stretched my still slightly aching shoulder before walking back inside the school, making my way towards my dorm. I smirked slightly when remembering Luke's previous words and imagined his hot lips on my skin, immediately making me walk faster to reach our room.

I walked up to the closed door and opened it, stopping in the doorway when seeing it was empty. I rolled my eyes, knowing I had to wait until Luke was done hanging out with Calum, and walked inside to toe off my shoes.

I lazily walked over to my bed, laid down on it, and brought my phone back up to look through it in the wait for Luke to come back. It was starting to get late in the evening now and I felt myself getting more and more tired each minute that passed by.

This whole day had started out like hell and ended up pretty fucking amazing, but it had taken a toll on me and I was exhausted. I should go to sleep because I had to get up really damn early in the morning to go to the hospital, but for some reason, I didn't want to fall asleep before at least touching Luke.

I breathed out heavily as I placed my head back on my pillow, sending a quick text to Michael before throwing my phone away to the end of my bed and relaxed into the mattress.

As I turned my head and nuzzled into my pillow with a tired expression, I frowned when hearing some noise from the bathroom.

"Luke?" I called out as I sat up on my bed with a confused frown on my face. It took a few seconds before I got an answer.

"Um, yeah" Luke called back, making me furrow my eyebrows at his slightly anxious and hurried answer.

"You okay?" I asked but didn't hear any answer, just water running from the sink, "Luke?"

After a few seconds, Luke exited the bathroom and ran a hand through his flat hair as he nodded in acknowledgement towards me. I was still furrowing my eyebrows in confusion when seeing Luke quickly make his way over to his bed and laid down.

"Why didn't you tell me you were here?" I asked and Luke shrugged carelessly.

"Why should I? You know I live here" he mumbled into his pillow. The dry tone in his voice made me frown.

"Yeah I know," I spoke and scoffed quietly, "I just thought you were at Calum's since you seemed to hide away in the bathroom"

"I wasn't hiding away in the bathroom," Luke scoffed, "I just didn't call out for you. I don't need to greet you every time you enter the room. I'm not your fucking housewife"

I raised my eyebrows at Luke's harsh words and chuckled right after, having no idea where all this was coming from. "What's up with you? Did something happen with Calum?" I asked and immediately saw Luke tense up before he turned his head to look at me.

"No, why would you think that?" he asked and let his eyes roam my face instead of focusing on my eyes.

"Because you're acting weird. When we met before you were normal" I spoke and shrugged, watching Luke purse his lips and furrow his eyebrows before speaking again.

"I'm still 'normal'," he snorted and turned his head away from me again, "I'm just saying that it's not like I'm excited to see you. I see you every fucking day"

"Rude," I laughed but shut my mouth when noticing Luke was actually serious, "Seriously, what's up with you?"

"Nothing, can't I just be a bit quiet without you asking a lot of questions?"

"Yes," I answered and looked at him with questioning eyes, "But you're being a bitch about it"

"Excuse me?" Luke asked and turned to look at me again.

"Nothing," I mumbled, "But you're mad about something and it seems like it must be Calum who made you mad because before you were all positive"

"He didn't make me mad" Luke mumbled.

"Then did I do something?" I asked and raised an eyebrow before my face fell in realization, "You don't won't me to stay here, do you? You want me to go home"

"What?" Luke asked and sat up in his bed, "No, fuck no. I'm happy you're staying here"

"Then why are you so being so.. dry?" I asked.

Luke sighed and leaned his elbows against his thighs and ran a hand through his hair again, "Nothing, it's nothing. I've just been thinking about a few stuff, but it's cool. Don't worry about it"

I looked at him and pursed my lips before nodding my head. "Okay" I mumbled and looked down at my lap before standing up from my bed, "I'm gone brush my teeth. I have to get up really fucking early tomorrow so I think I'm gonna go to sleep"

"Why are you getting up early?" Luke asked and fully looked at me, making me see the slightly red edges he got in his eyes.

"Um," I started, too focused on his slightly bloodshot eyes to answer his question, "I have a doctors appointment. They're gonna check me and my meds to get me new prescriptions. I have to talk to a psychologist as well"

Luke frowned and licked his lips, "Why?"

"So they know what I have is real and so they can give me more meds. Like you know, I'm running out of it"

"When do you leave tomorrow?"

"Around 7 am I think" I spoke and shrugged, watching Luke nod his head before I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth. I lazily did so, looking at myself in the mirror with tired eyes. I soon saw Luke behind me, slowly entering the bathroom as well.

I spat out the toothpaste in my mouth and turned off the tap before turning around to face Luke. I breathed out quietly when seeing his eyes again, inspecting the contrast between the blue in the middle and the faint red by the sides.

"Have you been crying?" I asked Luke straight out, causing him to frown slightly.

"What?" he asked and bit his lip before speaking quietly, "No"

"Are you drunk or high?" I asked again and Luke frowned deeper and shook his head.

"No! What the hell" Luke spoke and gave me a weird look.

"Then why are your eyes red?" I asked and Luke frowned before looking into the mirror, inspecting his own eyes while biting his lips.

"I don't know" he mumbled and ran his hands over his eyes quickly before stepping out of the bathroom. I furrowed my eyebrows and pursed my lips before following him.

"Luke, what the hell happened to you? I was only gone like 40 minutes" I asked as I watched him take off his shirt and fall back down on his bed.

"Nothing," he groaned as he buried his face into his pillow, "Drop it, please"

"Fine" I sighed and undressed myself so I was only in my boxers, before crawling down in my bed as well.

Silence spread around us and I wanted to corner Luke into telling me what was wrong because there was obviously something wrong with him. When I last left him he was glad to hear about my news and more than ready to suck me off. Now he has traces of tears on his cheeks and looks like he's had the whole world dropped on him.

"I am happy you are staying though. Really" Luke spoke up after a while. The room was dark, only the dusty light on the desk lighting up the room very badly, but I could still see Luke in his bed clearly.

"Okay" I mumbled and bit the inside of my cheek.

"I just wanted you to know that that's not what this is about," Luke spoke and moved around in his bed before speaking again, "It nice to have you here. It's comfortable"

"Okay" I spoke again, causing Luke to sigh lightly.

After a while of rustling from Luke's side of the room, I soon could hear him slide out of his bed and walk over to mine. I glanced up and frowned up at him in confusion before he bit his lip and slid down under my cover to lie down beside me.

I chuckled lowly and looked at him with raised eyebrows, "What are you doing?"

Luke shrugged before leaning closer to me, breathing against my lips, "I'm a man of my words" he whispered before leaning even closer, brushing his lips against my own.

I closed the gap between us and pressed my lips against his softly, feeling like there was no need for any drastic movements. Luke hummed into the kiss and brought his hands up to my hair, tangling his fingers into my hair, making me part my lips.

Luke wasted no time before letting his tongue trace my bottom lip and enter my mouth. I let his tongue explore my mouth, letting Luke take control over the whole situation, before moving my tongue with his.

I breathed out heavily as Luke deepened the kiss even more, moving his body closer to mine to then hook his leg over both mine, soon straddling me. His hands tugged harder in my hair and I could almost feel the desperation, making me slowly lean back and pursed my lips when seeing Luke's bloodshot eyes again.

"I don't know" I mumbled, making Luke sigh and lean his forehead against mine.

"Don't make me beg" he whispered. I licked my lips in thought as I brought my hands to his waist, holding his body against me as he was still half straddling me and half lying on top of me.

"You're weird today, and it's confusing me" I whispered out, making Luke laugh hopelessly.

"What the fuck is with everyone wanting to talk feelings and shit. I'm fine, okay? I don't need to talk and share everything," Luke spoke and looked down at me with obviously frustrated eyes, "I just want to feel good right now. I'm not asking for much, I'll even do all the work if that's what it takes"

I looked at him for a bit, studying his face and his expressions, having no idea what he was thinking or feeling, before I nodded my head and squeezed his hip.

"Fine, okay" I breathed out.

"Thank you" Luke mumbled out before sitting up on my lap, undressing himself of his sweats and boxers. I watched him with intense eyes, not even trying to hide it, as Luke undressed me as well.

I lifted my hips to help him get my boxers off, both of us hissing at the contact our members got when Luke had thrown the clothes to the floor and moved around in my lap.

He grabbed one of my hands and tugged me up so I was in a sitting position as well, almost in eye level with Luke. He looked at me with dark blue eyes before he brought my fingers up to his lips and taking one finger at the time in his mouth, covering them with saliva.

"Fuck," I breathed out a bucked my up a bit, making Luke moan as I brushed against his exposed dick.

After covering my fingers up, Luke never once let his eyes glance away from my own as he brought my hand to his hole. I didn't need Luke to guide me for this, so I slowly entered one finger, enjoying the way Luke lowered himself down on it and moved by himself.

As Luke had control over the situation, I added another finger before working my mouth over the skin of his neck and shoulders, feeling his throat vibrating as he moaned hotly.

"I need-" Luke breathed out but stopped right in the middle of the sentence. He moved away from my fingers and pushed my hand away as he spat in his hands and coated my hard member, lubing it up, while looking me straight in the eyes.

His eyes were different today, and I didn't understand why.

Without any words, Luke curled his arms around my neck and moved around in my lap until he slowly lowered himself down on my member, causing both of us to let out throaty moans.

His arms around me tightened, making my chest press against his, as my hands found their way on his hips again, squeezing the skin and bones harshly as Luke started moving up and down.

Luke breathed heavily as he ran one hand through my hair slowly, tugging whenever pleasure took over, and placed his forehead against mine.

Our noses bumped together numerous of times as Luke moved up and down my lap, but I didn't mind because the hot breath he breathed against my lips made the pleasure even stronger.

"You feel so good" I breathed out and let a moan pass through my gritted teeth before I dropped my hands down from Luke's hips to his ass, squeezing each asscheek and helped him moved up and down, guiding his pace.

Luke moaned before nodding his head, tugging at my hair to make my head fall back, before kissing me messily. Needy almost.

The neediness- and almost desperation -Luke was showing signs of was something I couldn't keep up with. I was confused as to why he was like this, since I've never really seen him like this, but didn't complain because the pleasure was all I could care about right now.

I parted my lips and caught Luke's bottom lip between them, getting it between my teeth and bit down, not too hard but not too gentle, making Luke moan and tug at my hair once again.

I growled as Luke stopped moving up and down, only staying in my lap with my length fully inside of him. The trapped feeling and unbearable heat made me pant uncontrollably and buck my hips up to get some friction again.

Luke let out a strangled moan, throwing his head back, and inviting me to work my tongue and lips against his pale skin again.

One of the hands Luke had in my hair moved down to between us, gripping his length and moving it as he moved himself up and down. For more friction, I kept thrusting my hips up to meet Luke's movements, causing us both to turn into panting messes.

"I- I'm-" Luke stuttered through pants but cut himself off by roughly placing his lips on mine. The kiss was wet and messy, tongue moving in no rhythm at all and noses bumped into each other so harshly, it felt like it would cause bruises.

It was okay though, because Luke came just seconds after, making his release shoot up on both our stomachs and chests. The moans of euphoria he let out during his orgasm went straight into my mouth, making me swallow them as I still moved my tongue with his.

With a few more thrusts and Luke moaning into my ear as he had his head rested on my shoulder, I came as well, filling Luke up with a throaty moan. Luke gasped at the feeling, biting down on my shoulder, before everything grew completely still and calm.

No words were exchanged as Luke slowly got off my lap and breathed hard before walking off to the bathroom, coming back with paper towels to cleans ourselves up.

I was still seated in my bed, my back resting against the wall, as I breathed heavily and ran a hand through my sweaty hair.

Luke came back from the bathroom again and got dressed in his boxers before going back to his own bed, making me furrow my eyebrows slightly.

"You're not sleeping here? We always do that now" I spoke and looked at Luke as he glanced between me and his bed.

"What are we doing?" Luke asked suddenly and turned to fully look at me with a pained expression.

"What?" I asked in confusion.

"I mean this," he spoke and pointed between us, "What are we doing?"

"What what are you talking about?"

Luke sighed and bit his lip before talking, "I mean, before when we hated each other this was just plain sex and no other interaction. But now we don't hate each other, so it's not just sex anymore"

"It isn't?" I asked and watched Luke frown while shaking his head.

"No it isn't"

"Okay, so I guess it's friends and sex then?" I spoke and shrugged my shoulders.

"Meaning?" Luke asked and crossed his arms over his naked chest, making his arms flex a bit.

"Meaning that we are friends who have sex; friends with benefits" I said and shrugged again.

"But it won't lead to anything, right?" Luke asked and I furrowed my eyebrows at his question.

"Well no, it's just sex. Temporary fun" I answered.

"And what happens when the camp is over?" Luke asked again and I grew more and more confused by his following questions within the topic.

I tugged the corners of my lips down a bit in thought before speaking again, "We go home, or to whatever country or city soccer takes us, and live our normal lives, I guess"

"So this is over when the camp is over" Luke stated and pointed between us again.

"Well, that's been the plan all along, right?" I asked and raised an eyebrow over at Luke.

Luke pursed his lips and nodded his head before walking over to my bed, laid down and tugged the cover up to his chin.

"Right" he answered and even though I may have heard - what sounded like - slight disappointment, I ignored it and laid down beside him, carefully wrapping my arms around him and tugged him close to my chest.

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i don't want to lose interest in this story because i love it and it's not many chapters left now, but i am. help me

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