l u k e

It was 2:37 am and the whole motel was asleep, leaving it deadly quiet. Except in the weakly lit up shower in the very far corner of the restrooms far away in the hall.

Rustling sound were heard, just as heavy breathing, when Ashton pushed me up against the tiled wall, looking at me with his raged-filled eyes.

I ran my tongue over my bottom lip and cocked one eyebrow up in impatience as I waited for him to get undressed. My shorts and boxers were already on the floor and my whole body was exposed and cold as it was pressed against the wall.

Ashton looked me up and down before stepping closer and placing his lips on my neck, finding my sweet spot only after a few seconds. I took a sharp intake of air before gritting my teeth to keep my mouth shut.

"You're such a fucking needy slut aren't you? Who needs me to get you off in the middle of the night" Ashton breathed into my neck. I rolled my eyes.

"I'd rather have it done now than do this in the middle of the day and have anyone catching us" I mumbled back and Ashton scoffed.

He kissed my neck harder, not leaving any visible marks, and moved his hands from my chest down to my stomach and then gripped my waist.

He caressed my skin and his touches made me frustrated. There was only so much I could take in the middle of the night.

"Don't touch me" I said and brushed Ashton's hands off of me.

"Oh okay Barbie," he said and held his hands by his side, looking at me with a raised eyebrow, "And how am I supposed to fuck you without touching you?"

I gritted my teeth and glared at him, not coping with his judgement and raw sarcasm right now. "Just let your dick do the work. I don't need any hands"

Ashton raised both his eyebrows up and scoffed. "Wow, okay" he said before hooking his hands behind his back and leaning in to kiss my neck again.

"How am I supposed to fuck you against the wall like this?" Ashton asked again after a while, still holding his hands behind his back, "Please tell me since this was your idea"

I rolled my eyes and bit the inside of my lip before looking Ashton up and down. "Looks like I'll have to take care of it" I shrugged and walked up to Ashton.

He furrowed his eyebrows at me and I smirked as I pulled him down on the floor, lying him down on the dry tiled shower floor. I straddled his legs and started to undress him of his shorts.

"Oh, you're gonna ride me on this?" he asked and knocked on the hard floor with his knuckles, "Do you want me to break my back?"

"Couldn't care less honestly" I mumbled and looked at his hands before taking them in mine and hooked them over his head. Ashton rolled his eyes but didn't fight it. "Now shut up"

Ashton pressed his lips together tightly and I scoffed before taking his clothes off fully and threw them to the side.

"Did you bring the stuff?" I asked and Ashton nodded.

"In my pocket" He mumbled and I reached to search through the pockets of his shorts, soon pulling out a small bottle of lube and a condom.

"Told you it would be necessary" he said and smirked up at me. I rolled my eyes and ignored him as I released his hands for only a few seconds to pour some lube on my fingers.

I hooked one hand around Ashton's wrists again and held on tightly as I steered my other hand behind me, gritting my teeth together tightly as I entered one finger inside of me.

Even though my eyes were closed, I could feel Ashton's burning gaze on my body as I moved my finger in and out of myself. I let out strangled sounds as I added another finger, stretching myself out.

"Are you done yet or what?" Ashton asked impatiently but the slight aroused shake in his voice made me smirk smugly.

"Maybe" I spoke before moaning hotly and added another finger. I locked my eyes with Ashton and let him know just what pleasure I felt right now while he was still completely untouched.

"Come on" he groaned out and rolled his eyes, trying to sound more frustrated than desperate. I smirked again.

"Beg for it" I whispered out and bit my lip sensually as I pulled my fingers out, leaving myself empty. It probably failed  the sexy lip bite though as the smirk on my lips broke free.

"I'm not gonna beg for it when it was you who dragged me in the middle of the night" Ashton spoke and glared.

"I didn't 'drag' you here, I just brought up a suggestion" I said, shrugging and licked my lips before moving my body up so I was straddling him correctly.

"Okay, so get it on with it" Ashton said and I rolled my eyes before rolling on a condom and lubing Ashton's member up, making sure to move my hand up and down his rock hard member slow and teasingly.

"Luke" Ashton said sternly and I scoffed before moving my hand away and lowering myself down onto Ashton's member. I bit my lip harshly too keep any noises down, but the way Ashton breathed out shakily made me let out a moan myself.

I was sat down on his hips and breathed heavily as I got used to the feeling. Ashton wasn't having that though and started to move his his up, making me whine.

"Fuck you" I breathed out and shut my eyes closed tightly.

"Well, I'm fucking waiting for you to do it" Ashton spoke, his voice sounding strangled as he tried to get some friction.

I didn't have the care to argue back with him before I started to move myself up and down. Both of us immediately let out throaty moans and it made the air around us even hotter.

"Fuck" Ashton moaned out and I smirked because I did make him feel good, he was just too much of an thick headed asshole to admit it. But I knew.

**

Drops of sweat ran down my forehead as my feet moved fast on the treadmill. Stickers were placed on my chest with wires stuck to them and a machine in front of me. The machine was counting up all kinds of numbers in the rhythm of my heartbeats.

"Okay Luke, we'll level up once more and you'll run that for a minute, then we're done. You're doing terrific" the man who was seated by a computer screen said. The screen was showing waves of colors, counting the rhythm of my heartbeats and breaths.

I did as told and as the treadmill moved faster, my legs did as well. My eyes were locked on the blinking red light in front of me, keeping me more focused on that than how exhausted I really was.

"Ten seconds" they spoke and I breathed in and out heavily and moved my achingly exhausted legs until the the man said I was done.

I jumped off the treadmill and placed my feet on the sides, watching the treadmill below me slow down it's pace.

"Really good Luke, everything looks amazing. You'll get all you results in paper later today or tomorrow" he spoke and took off all the stickers from my chest.

I nodded my head, almost too exhausted to speak, and shook the man's hand before walking out, seeing Emil being the next one to enter the room.

"How'd it go?" coach asked as I walked out to the hallway. I nodded and gave him a small grin.

"Good. Really good" I said and coach gave me a pat on my shoulder.

"Perfect," he grinned, "Now I know you're tired, so just go in to the gym and drink and stretch. Then you're free to shower and sleep before dinner. You have a few hours to relax"

"Okay" I said and nodded before entering the gym, seeing all the guys who were already done with the test sit on the floor lazily.

"So?" Calum asked as I walked closer to him. I just gave him a grin and he smiled before give me a brotherly handshake.

"I'm just gonna go grab a drink" I said and Calum nodded before lying down on the floor again, spreading himself out like a starfish.

I chuckled and walked with tired legs toward the door to the left, leading you to some kind of 'kitchen' belonging to the gym. As I entered, my eyes immediately were placed on the body further into the room that was trying to open a bottle of some kind of energy drink.

"You need help?" I chuckled mockingly as I walked closer to Ashton. He raised his head and looked at me and I almost frowned at the way his eyes were so wide.

"No," Ashton scoffed and kept trying to open his bottle. It seemed like he didn't get any grip on the lid because fingers moved and turned, but the lid never let go of the bottle, "For fuck sakes" he swore.

"You really are just talk, huh? You say you're so strong, but seeing you now as you can't even open the lid of a small bottle is embarrassing" I said and raised one eyebrow up.

"Fuck off Luke, okay?" he snapped and I scoffed before walking over to get myself something to drink.

"Fucking shit" Ashton mumbled before letting out a frustrated groan, throwing the bottle down on the floor, making it burst open and the liquid splash all over.

"Dude, calm down" I said and frowned as I looked at Ashton.

"Don't fucking tell me what to do" he seethed as he turned and glared at me. His eyes still weird and I didn't know what to think about it.

"Have you taken your meds?" I asked in a hushed voice even though we were the only ones in the room. Ashton excessively rolled his eyes.

"Yes I've taken my meds. Just because I don't want your fucking help nor want you to talk to me doesn't mean that I haven't-"

Ashton didn't speak any further as he screamed out in pain. The scream wasn't loud enough for the people outside the room to hear, but it was painful and it immediately made me frown.

Ashton threw his hands up to his head and held onto his hair harshly as he bent forward to crouch down on the floor. I looked at him with big eyes, quite scared of what was happening.

"Are you oka-" I was cut off by Ashton letting out yet another strangled scream, pressing the palms of his hands violently against his head.

"Get Michael" Ashton breathed out.

"Can't, he hasn't done the test yet" I said and looked at him with wide eyes.

"Shit, Ash" I asked and couched down to look at him, "What's happening?"

Ashton only shook his head as he whined and mumbled something under his breath.

"I need to tell coach" I mumbled to myself in a slight panicky voice before standing up. I didn't get far because Ashton reached one hand out and grabbed my wrist, pulling me back forcefully.

"Don't tell anyone" Ashton said through gritted teeth and then grimaced in pain as he tugged at his hair and gripped my wrist even tighter.

"Why the fuck should I not tell anyone? You can't even stand or talk properly because of the pain"

"I can do both those things, stop acting like I'm a fucking pathetic- Ah!" he cut himself of with another scream and I rolled my eyes at his desperate try.

"I'm going," I said and tried to move away but Ashton still didn't release me.

"Luke, I'm fucking begging you no to. You'll ruin my future and any chances I have in this sport if you go and fucking tell on me like a damn 6th grader"

"Ruin your chances?" I rolled my eyes again, "So then what? You're just gonna sit here with this pain?"

Ashton didn't answer so I chuckled humorlessly, snatched my hand away and started walking towards the door I last entered through. "Fine, suit yourself, idiot"

"You can't just fucking leave me here" Ashton spoke and I just scoffed.

"Well, I am"

"You're a fucking-"

"What? What am I, Ash? A fucking asshole for not taking care of you?" I asked and scoffed right after, "Why the fuck would I when you treat me like fucking shit"

It looked like Ashton was about to say something snarky back but then his face scrunched up as the pain seemed to appear again.

"Fuck," Ashton swore and whined slightly as he fisted his hands in his hair again, "I'm sorry, okay? Is that what you wanna hear?"

"No, I don't want to hear anything. I just know you're a fucking asshole and you don't mean anything nice you say to me, so I won't fucking listen" I seethed.

Ashton sat quietly with his hands in his hair and his eyes shut. He opened them and looked up at me. The glossy surface showing on the hazel-green colored orbs made his usual harsh eyes look so vulnerable.

"It really fucking hurts" Ashton said, his voice weak.

"So what?" I asked and looked down at him while shaking my head, "You want my compassion? Because you're not getting it"

I wasn't harsh. I had hated Ashton for a really fucking long time and he has always treated me like shit. I haven't treated him any better, but none of us owed it to help each other out. That was just your own decision if you wanted it or not.

"Just help me" Ashton whispered out and the sincerity in his voice along with shakiness of the pain made me know he was desperate for some affection.

I sighed before walking up to Ashton and pulled him up from the floor, holding onto him so he didn't fall back on the floor. With gritted teeth I pulled his arm over my shoulders and walked him over to the big freezer in the corner of the room.

I opened it and pulled out a small bag of ice, not caring about the fact that this was for the gym and motel. I gave the bag to Ashton and he looked at me with confused eyes.

"I haven't gotten a fucking bump on my head, it hurts on the inside" he said and I clenched my jaw.

"I'm not a fucking doctor, okay? Take the bag and place it on your head or find someone else to help you" I said, obviously real tired of his shit.

"Fine" he mumbled and took the bag, holding it around his forehead as he placed his free hand on the freezer to hold himself up.

"What was that?" I asked and Ashton turned to look at me with furrowed eyebrows, "The headache I mean"

"Stuff" he said and shrugged his shoulders.

"Stuff?" I asked and raised one eyebrow up.

"Yeah, stuff. Don't ask about it and don't talk about it. Just forget it ever happened, okay?" Ashton said in a harsh voice. I only rolled my eyes.

"Have you always been such an ungrateful bitch?" I asked and Ashton glared at me with one eye as the other was hiding behind the ice-bag.

"Fuck off, you don't know anything, Barbie"

I shook my hand and breathed out a frustrated laugh before turning around and walked over to the door.

"Fine," I said and gritted my teeth in anger before reaching for the handle and ripped the door open. I turned to look at Ashton with burning eyes and my jaw clenched. "I never though I could ever hate you more than I already did, but that was proven wrong today"

Before I exited the room I breathed out heavily and spoke in a monotone voice, "You're welcome for the help, by the way"

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