Cringe smut ahead! ⚠️

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|Jungkook's perspective|

      "What did you just said?" Taehyung asks me, while glancing at me with big eyes, and I try to not stutter again.

    Yeah, I'm embarrassed, but I really want this. I really want him in all the ways. I love him. Damn, I love him more than I could imagine before.

    I love the way he can make me smile, the way he talks with me— his deep yet low voice. The way his boxy smile appears every time when he smiles, and his heart eyes. The way he holds my hand and the way he supports me even if he doesn't need to. The way he loves more when I don't love myself, showing me a hundred reasons why I should to.

     "I... I want to feel your love more than usual. I want to make love with you." I answer, cheeks redder, eyes glancing at the floor.

    How I was even able to say this? Maybe this is just in my imagination? All this moment—

    Taehyung lifts my chin with two fingers, then looks at me intently. I feel how he already try to undress me under his look.

     "Love, you are sure? We can wait, y'know? I treasure you, so I treasure your body too. You don't have to feel pressure somehow, because I want to show you how is to be loved, but when you feel truly ready." he tells me, voice soft yet deep; making me to shiver subtle.

     I catch some drops of courage, then glance at him in my turn. His eyes search for any response to my face, but I learned that sometimes, a action worth more than a word. So I lean my head then I connect my lips with his own, smiling a little in the kiss, knowing that I suprised him a few seconds. We break the kiss when the oxygen become kinda hard to find, then he rests his forehead, on mine.

      "I'm ready, Tae. You showed me how is to be happy, you showed me how it feels to love the life, so I'm ready. I'm ready to be truly yours, and to call you truly mine." I let my thoughts to escape from my mind, then he smiles.

     He kiss my forehead, then gets up from the bed, just to look at me more intense. I gulp, feeling shy all of sudden. What the fuck Jungkook? You just asked him to have sex with you, and now you feel shy just because he looks at you a little more... intense?

     "It's your first time, my love?" he asks and I nod, a little embarrassed— not because I didn't had sex before, but because I'm about to.

      "Ye- Yeah." I manage to say then he attacks my lips again, catching me on guard at the beginning, then I try to answer him, with the same intense passion as his own.
 
      "Can I... Can I take your clothes off, my love?" he asks after, and I nod, while I feel my cheeks even redder than before.

     My first time. My first time giving my body to someone. I'm glad is Taehyung though. The boy who saved me from all my demons, the boy who made me to love myself a little more.

       "Ye... Yes, you can." I give him the permission, then I see his big smile, making me to smile at my turn.

     And I know. I will not regret doing this.

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|Taehyung's perspective|

    "If you want me to stop, you have to tell me, honey, do you understand?" I ask him, then I lift his sweatshirt, while he nods, his cheeks redder than my T-shirt.

     I look at him intently, trying to make this moment as memorable as I can. Because is my first time making love with a boy. And is the boy that I love the most. It's my first time doing love, and not sex.

      "I... I have a few scars, it's ugly." he whispers and I frown immediately.

    Yeah, I can see his scars on his white chest, and on his arms. But it's not ugly. It shows how strong he is, it shows that he had to struggle, trying to not step further than this.

      I start to kiss his chest, in every place where a scar is. Then I move to his hands, to his wrist and I look at him. He has already his eyes close, and I guess he enjoys the moment.

     "It's beautiful." I whisper then he opens his eyes, smiling a little. "It's so damn beautiful, my love. You are so damn beautiful." I continue to praise him, while I take my T-shirt off, at my turn.

    I catch him looking at me in the same way I looked at him. With the same hunger. With the same love. And this thing make me happy. To know that he really wants to, that he is not just feeling pressure or something like that. 

      "I-"

      "Can you take your pants off, my love?" I cut his reply, noticing that he doesn't know what to say.

       "O... Okay." he stutters then I get up, taking my pants off at my turn, then searching for something certain in my nightstand— the lube and a condom.

     I look at him, trying to make a photo in my mind. He is ethereal.

     "You would feel more comfortable if I will close the light?" I ask him, hoping that he will say 'no' because God, I want to see all of his expression clear. 

      "N... No, it's- it's fine." he stutters again and I smile, then I come closer to him.

    I start to kiss his thighs, not looking at his scars. It make my heart to ache. To know that he made this to himself, while I was leaving without any worry, fooling around. I should have been helping him.

     "Can I?" I ask him, touching after his boxers, trying to be as obvious as I can.

    He nods hesitantly, then lifts his hips up, giving me the freedom to pull his boxers off. I can swear he is like a tomato right now.

      "You... You don't ta- take then off?" he manages to ask me while I giggle.

   He is so cute when he is nervous.

      "Of course." I reply then I take my own boxers out, focusing after on this beautiful boy in front of me.

     Maybe it should be awkward. It's my first time doing this with a guy. But is not. At least for me, I don't have any idea what Jungkook thinks.

     "You are pretty." I say then I touch his porcelain chest, while he gulps hardly. "You are gorgeous." I repeat after, then I kiss his forehead. "Let me treasure you, can I?" I ask and he smiles, nodding without any hesitation now.

     "Yeah... You- you can." he answers, then I kiss his back, trying to distract him for what is next.

    I pressure after four fingers in the lub, then I grab his right hand in my left hand, and then slip my first finger into his ass. He shudders slightly and I squeeze his hand a little harder, trying to calm him down.

     "Relax, love." I whisper then I introduce another finger in his hole, while he arches his back.

      "Fu- fuck." his cute swear makes me to giggle a little, then I kiss again his back.

      "How it feels?" I ask then I introduce a third finger, while he starts to breath hardly.

      "It's weird and a little... uncomfortable, but... it feels good? I- I don't know exactly." he answers and I kiss his forehead, trying to distract him, while I introduce the last finger, then I see his expression; probably a painful one.

      "I love you, Jungkook. I love you so much!" I confess to him, and he seems suprised, then smiles at me a little, trying to be as relax as he can.

     I put after my condom on my cock with the hand that I had Jungkook's right one, while he looks amazed.

     "That... That thing will fit?" he manages to ask, while I roll my eyes, then I take out— carefully— all of the fingers out from his hole.

     "It's not a thing, and I will make to fit." I reply then I squeeze his hand again, while he close his eyes. "Focus here, Jungkook. I swear everything will be better in a few seconds, ok?"
  
      "I- I trust you." he reply breathless, while his simple sentence make my heart to smile.

    He trust me.

     I put after my cock in his hole, trying to not be so agresive. He close his eyes, and I can tell it's hurt.

      "It's gonna be okay, love. The pain will disappear very soon." I say and he nods hesitantly. "Fuck, you are so tight!" I say after, searching for his spot.

     After I find it, I start to push myself inside of him, then I smirk when I hear his moans. I guess the pain became pleasure already.

      "Ah- Ta- Tae!"

      "Keep calling my name, bunny. I like to hear you." I reply then I keep pushing my all cock inside of his ass, while he keeps his eyes close. "You are so gorgeous, love." I say after and he looks at me, cheeks more than just red.

      "You... You already said that." he says and I smile.

      "I just pointed out a fact." I say then I push one more time inside of him, after I take my cock out.

     Jungkook then sits on the bed while breathing hard, and I sit down next to him. I then pull him to my chest and play with his soft hair.

     "I love you, Tae." I hear his warm and tired voice, then I smile.

       "I love you, Jungkook. More than you can imagine." I reply at my turn then I kiss again his forehead.

      "I'm... I'm happy. Truly happy." he says and I pull him even closer to my chest, then then I put the blanket over him.

       "I will make sure to keep you happy in the future, too." I say to my turn, and he smiles.

     This is how it feels to be truly happy.

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       Not me after I wrote a 1.5 words+ smut, trying to not cringe a lot of myself:)

      I already told you, I'm sucks at smut, but I think it's better than my first and my second one, right?:)

     I love u guy and see u at the next oneeee

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