|Jungkook's perspective|

      "A date?" I ask Taehyung with my cheeks redder than ever, while he smiles.

      "A date." he assures me then ruffles my hair.

      "What? I—"

      "Wait for me after classes." he intervenes then ran away, without giving me a chance to reply.

     I bite my lower lip again and again, feeling anxious as fuck. He wants to go on a date with me?

     After we hugged last night, I excused myself that I'm tired and I want to sleep. Because everything was way too much for my heart.

    This morning I thought I will pass out when he prepared the breakfast, and when he hugged me without telling me this in advance. I mean... If he keep doing this kind of things, I will probably give up and ran away on Jimin's room. Because hell, I'm not used at all. I like his actions ( most of them) but are too spontaneous.

      I don't know really certain what are we at the moment. Before we was roommates, we was friends. But after what we talked yesterday, I don't have any idea what we are. If he wants to go out with me on a date, this means we are more than friends, this is clear enough even for me. But I'm still confused about what he means from now on, to me. Or what I mean to him.

      And how I should to behave at the moment. I was weird as hell even before to talk about what we feel, and now, I feel even more weird.

     "Jungkook! You are still with us?" I hear a voice, then I see Jimin's hyung to my right.

     I was with my head in then clouds so bad, that I didn't even noticed that I'm still in the schoolyard. I didn't moved even a little bit.

      I smile then I look at Namjoon and Jin hyung. Both of them have their hands clasped together and I have to admit for a the thousand time - they look extremely good together.

      My smile suddenly drops when another thought hits me.

     If everything will be ok between me and Taehyung, I will have to come out with my sexuality? I will have to tell everyone that I don't like girls? I will have to admit that I'm gay and I like another boy?

     Just this idea scare the shit out of me. Because I can not hide the fear from the past. I can't pretend to be okay with this thing( the idea of coming out); at least not until I will kill my demons from the past. If I will be able to kill them.

    "Yeah, sorry... I was just thinking about  the  camp that will be in two days." I lie, then all of us start to go in the university.

    "Oh, I almost forgot! Tomorrow we have to grab a drink together." Jimin hyung tells us, while I glance at him.

     "Why?" I ask and he just shruggle.

      "Not a very special reason. Just to forget about some bad things that happened to us in the past few days." he reply then smiles at me, but I can tell something happened with him.

    But he is right. Maybe a drink can help me to put my thoughts in the order.

|Taehyung's perspective|

    "Why you are looking so creepy at me?" Jungkook asks me his tiny and cute tone, then I laugh subtly.

     "Sorry, not my fault. You are beautiful." I answer and he gulps instantly then takes a sip from his drink, while his cheeks become redder.

    I still can't get it how somehow can be so freaking cute. I guess some of people are really gifted.

     I'm really glad I had the guts to tell him yesterday what I truly feel towards him. I could swear he will slap me, but he didn't. He hugged me and told me "I'd like you to be the one to help me find myself. " And hell! It was a moment that I never had before with anyone else. It was somehow more warm than most of the moments that I had with him.

     So I asked him this morning on a date. But I was smart enough to not wait for his answer (I wasn't sure if I could hear a positive reply) and I ran to my class.

    But I'm glad he waited for me, how I told him to do.

     "Taehyung." he calls my name and I turn my glance at his doll's black eyes.

     "Yes?" I ask at my turn and I smile, while he seems somehow tense.

     "It's true that... In one month we will have a few days off, because of the winter's holiday?" I hear him then I raise my left eyebrow, a little confused.

     Why he asks this so suddenly? But more important, why he seems so scared about this thought?

     "Yes, it's true. We have some free days every year towards the winter's holiday." I reply and he looks at the table, and I can't figured out what's going on in his pretty head.

      "And... We can't say at our doorms? We really needs to go at our home?" he asks again, and I frown immediately.

    His voice is full with something that I can't tell, but I don't think is something good anyways. But why he...

     "The university will be close during that time, same as the doorms." I explain and he nods hesitantly. "But why? You don't want to go back a few days at your parents?" I continue after and when he stops his glance to my eyes, I can tell I said something wrong again.

    He smiles weakly, then takes another sip from his drink.

     "It's pretty late. We should go until the gates will not be close." he changes the subject and gets up, while I close my eyes, gritting my teeth in frustration.

    Why everytime when we talk about his parents, he always try to change the subject? What he keeps hiding?

     I don't know when or why, but I have to find out. Because you can't heal if you don't talk about what hurt you. And I'm going to heal Jungkook. With any cost.

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     Hello angels! New chapter!!! The school really eats my time and my energy, so yeah:) Without double update for awhile ig;/

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