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10:10 AM

Till now, today's been a okay day. After we ate breakfast and had our daily check up we all headed to the court. I met a few people who came in last night. one of them was James.

I was out in the court with everyone else playing basketball but stopped midway through the game, I couldn't help ignoring the eyes burning at my back.

In a matter of seconds I was, surprisingly, by the benches confronting Mr. 'I'm going to keep staring at you till you feel like digging a hole and hiding there for the rest of your life' guy.

"Jey man is there anything wrong? you're giving out the impression that I killed your mother" he stared at me blankly, and let me tell you, the next few words that casually flew out his mouth took me by surprise.

I was expecting him to get angry with me, not that i wanted that but after all, i did just get his mom into this. Most people would hate that.

"No but I wish you did"

"I thought the hate i had towards my mom was extreme" I joked

"it's not hate, all out of love. she'd  be in a better place up there." he said sarcastically while protruding his hand "my name's James and I was looking, well apparently i was starting, because you've got mad skills"

This my friends is what anxiety does to you.
I felt miserable feeling his eyes burning my back. Although, he wasn't looking at me with disgust or hate, but with amusement.

I lowered my head down in embarrassment  while scratching at the back of my neck. After a good amount of time, I looked back up at him and took my hand out to shake his, which was still hanging there.

"Nice to meet you James, my name's Liam. sorry for the way I approached you it's kinda just in me to assume the worst"

"Anxiety, you're self conscious" he said, more like stating it as a fact

"Yep" I said popping the p then quickly added " is it that obvious?"

"besides almost apologizing to the basketball when you didn't catch it, no not really" by now he was fighting for air and holding his stomach from laughing too hard.

"ManYourFaceWhenISaidThat" he blurted out

What am I witnessing?

I just waited for him to finish the battle with his laugh. It was obvious that question marks were written all over my face, so he answered my unasked question.

"What i meant was, your reaction was hilarious when I said that. it's not obvious Liam, I'm just observant" I let out a breathe I hadn't realized K was holding when he said those words.

I guess it's called a friendship now?
for the first time in a so long i felt like i had someone to actually talk to without hiding a huge part of me.

After all, we were both put in this place against our will.

James told me his story and how he ended up here while we sat on the benches getting baked by the sun's rays.

James was once insomniac, like me, but went to a therapist and went back to sleeping well. He went through a period of time where anger would fill him from the slightest actions but refused to get help.

He was here now because his mom believed his old habits were coming back at him, he was actually just heartbroken because his ex girlfriend left him for his close friend, typical. To deal with the pain he was feeling, he'd stay out at parties, smoke, get drunk and come home escorted by a friend.

I'm guessing he hates his mom because she never took the time to listen closely and understand what he was going through.

but then again, who would want to hear what people like us have to say?

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