I researched Endgame and noticed how devestated Nat looks after Thor kills Thanos so this is my idea of what happens after they lose again.

Natasha thought they had a chance. She had been so ready to confront Thanos. This time, she had complete faith that they would win.

They had too. If they didn't, she wouldn't know what else to do.

But she had a bad feeling the second they stepped onto the planet.

"This is strange," She said looking to Steve, who was walking closely beside her.

He nodded, "You think he's here?"

Natasha nodded, "I don't know where else he would be."

Steve nodded and they continued following the others until the reached a small farm and found Thanos.

It all happened so quickly. One second, Thanos was telling them he destroyed the stones.

Then Thor was swinging his axe at Thanos' head. Effectively killing him.

Natasha couldn't help but feel the air leave her lungs as she stared at his decapitated head.

Their chance to get everyone back was gone. They had failed for the second time.

Slowly, everyone left the small cabin. Natasha couldn't move though. She felt stuck to the floor.

"Natasha..." Steve said quietly behind her.

She shook her head, "We lost...again."

Steve didn't say anything. He just gently pulled her into a hug, holding her tightly as they both tried to understand what had just happened.

Eventually they walked back to the ship, sitting silently, holding one another's hand tightly.

No one spoke the entire ride back to the compound.

When they arrived, most of the group went their seperate ways.

They all were greiving in their own ways.

Natasha stayed with Steve. She had learned long ago that when things went to hell, he was the only person she wanted to be with.

He could comfort her in a way no one else could.

"Can we stay at your apartment tonight?" She asked quietly. Not wanting to be in a place filled with reminders of the friends they had lost.

Steve simply nodded, understanding her pain and knowing her well enough to not be surprised by the question.

The car ride to his apartment was a painful reminder of what had happened.

There was still wreckage from the snap everywhere. The people who had been snapped while driving left behind dented scraps of metal that had been pushed to the side of the road as a desperate attempt to fix the issue.

Besides that, the roads were eerily quiet.

The usual New York traffic was no longer a problem. Barely any cars were on the road...half because of the decrease in population and half because people were terrified to leave their loved ones.

Steve pulled up to his apartment and Natasha followed him wordlessly into the small living room.

As soon as the door closed, she couldn't help but tear up

"I can't believe we lost," She said, once again clinging to Steve as he did the same, her tears falling onto his shirt.

Steve squeezed his eyes shut and sighed, holding Natasha tightly, "What now?"

Natasha shook her head, "I don't know. I was so sure we were getting them back. I didn't even think about the possibility that we would fail again."

"Maybe there's another way."

Natasha frowned, "How? The stones are destroyed, Thanos is dead, and we're missing half the team."

Steve sighed and moved to sit down on the couch, still holding Natasha hand, "This is a mess Nat."

Natasha nodded, leaning her head on Steve's shoulder, "I know."

"Selfishly...right now the only thing keeping me from losing it is knowing that I still have you," Steve admitted.

Natasha nodded, her eyes drifting to his, "Promise you won't leave me. I wouldn't be able to handle it. Not after everyone else left."

Steve frowned, "Natasha I'm not going anywhere."

"That's what Clint said. But now he's completely off grid."

Steve sighed, frowning at the broken look on Natasha's face...he hadn't even considered how hard it must have been losing Clint too. Especially because he was still alive, "I won't leave you Nat. I promise. As long as you want me around, I'll be here."

Natasha managed a weak smile, "Believe it or not...I always want you around Rogers."

Steve smiled and pressed his forehead to hers.

It felt so wrong...they had just lost to Thanos for the second time and yet they still had each other.

The one person Steve loved more then life itself was still there and he couldn't bring himself to tell her how he felt.

He tried to convince himself that it was bad timing...that telling her now wouldn't be right.

But feel down he knew that was just a lame excuse for his cowardliness. Is he was being honest, they could both use someone to love at a time like this.

"Do you think we'll ever be able to get back to normal?" Natasha asked, her fingers dancing across his shoulder absently as she spoke.

Steve shrugged, "Eventually. I think people will find ways to move on. Just like we always do after a loss."

Natasha nodded and looked up into Steve's eyes again.

She wasn't sure what happened from there.

One of them had leaned in, initiating the kiss.

It started gentle, an exchange of gratitude and relief between two people who cared immensely for one another.

Then it had turned into a passionate tussle for control.

Steve soon had Natasha pinned to the couch, his body hovering over hers as he kissed her deeply.

His hands roamed her body as hers did the same to him.

For a moment, they were both able to forget the pain they had experienced earlier that day.

When Steve finally pulled apart, Natasha struggled to find her bearings.

"Sorry," He breathed out, hanging his head.

Natasha shook her head, "Don't be. You take the pain away Steve. I can't even explain it. It's like when I'm with you, the only think I can think about is how much I love you...and the pain and rejection is all just pushed to the back of my mind."

Steve's eyes widened slightly, "You love me?"

Natasha sighed, "I thought that much was obvious...but yes."

Steve smiled, kissing her again, "I love you too. And we'll get through this Nat. Together."

Hey guys. I know this is not how most people deal with grief but for the sake of this chapter...Natasha and Steve deal with it just like this😂

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