Just an average boy
he always wore a smile
he was cheerful and happy for a short while
Now he's older
Things are getting colder
Life's not what he thought
he wished someone had told him

he told them he was down, they let it slip by
So from then on, he kept it on the inside
he told himself he was alright
But he was telling white lies
Can't you tell?
Look at his dull eyes

Tried to stop himself from crying almost every night
But he knew there was no chance of feeling alright
Summer came by, all he wore was long sleeves
'Cause those cuts on his wrists were bleeding through you see

he knew he was depressed, didn't want to admit it
Didn't think he fit it, everyone seemed to miss it
he carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding out from every cut his body consumed

he had no friends at school, all alone he sat
And if someone were to notice he would blame the cat
But those cuts on his wrist, they were no mistake
But no one cared enough to save him from this self-hate

Things were going down, never really up
And here he is now stuck in this stupid rut
he knew exactly what he had to do next
Just stand on that chair and tie the rope around his neck

he wrote a letter with his hands shaking wild
"Look at me now! Are you proud of your precious child?"
But he knew that his parents weren't the ones to blame
It was the world that should bow down its head in shame

he stood up on the chair and looked out at the moon
Just don't think, it'll all be over soon
The chair fell down as he took her final breath
It's all over, all gone, now he's greeting death

His dad walks in, he falls down to the floor
And now nothing can take back what he just saw
The little boy that he raised is just hanging there
His body's pale and his face is violently bare

he sees the note and unfolds it with care
All he does is stare
How can this be fair?
he starts reading as the tears roll down his face
"I'm sorry pa but this world is just not my place

I've tried for so long to fix this and fit in
I've come to realize this world's full of sin
There's nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race

It's a disgrace, I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time and in the wrong place
It's okay though, 'cause you'll see me soon
You'll know when your time has come
Just look at the moon...

As it shines bright throughout the night
And remember everyone's facing their own fight
But I can't deal with the pain, I'm not a fighter
You'll make it through the night
Just hug your pillow tighter

So let the world know, that I died in vain
'Cause the world around me, is the one to blame
And I know in a year, you'll forget I'm gone
'Cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on...

That's what they used to tell me, all those kids at school
So I'm going by the law, "majority rules"
My presence on this earth is not needed any longer
And if anything, I hope this makes you stronger...

Remus,

You're the best friend that I ever had
It's such a shame I had to make you so very sad
But just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart, you're the only one that held the key

Now it's time to go, I'm running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight, but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you from the clouds above
And sending down the purest and whitest dove

To watch over you, and be my helpful eye
So this is it world, goodbye."

Remy hugged his eldest son as he sobbed into his shoulder his hand gripping the note as he stared at his child...The little boy he raised hanging from the ceiling fan..."I'm sorry roman..." He sobbed.