Tw: mentions of suicide, self harm,hospitals

Remus placed back and forth in the waiting room tears streaming down in face as he hugged himself tightly wearing his brother's jacket, that logan had brought him since he rode in the ambulance.

As soon as he saw the doctor come out the room he raced over the others stood up " Remus Sanders I presume?" She smiled sweetly. Remus nodded, taking the smile as good news. "Your brother is stable and awake," she smiled at remus' obvious relief and happiness. But frowned slightly as she looked at her clipboard. "Though he refuses to talk about the incident. He damaged his throat by the attempt so when he's discharged keep him on water and soup for a few months, he'll of course need to go to therapy...but we can arrange it so one of you can sit in if that's what he's most comfortable with..." the others nodded but remus was fiddling with the bottom of Roman's jacket sleeves. "C-can I see him?"

The doctor smiled and nodded, moving aside as remus raced to the door. Janus tried to follow him but the doctor held out a hand, " I think they need to be alone right now..." she turned to look over her shoulder, seeing remus take a deep breath before turning the handle and walking in. Janus nodded.

Remus stepped inside and teared up more, roman was sitting on the bed, tubes and bandages on his arm, a bruise round his neck, and a  breathing tube attached to his nose. Roman looked to the door and saw remus, guilt washing over him. He sighed to himself, what had he done...?"H-hey sunshine...cmere." he smiled slightly, opening his arms. Remus sobbed loudly running into his brother's open arms, hugging him tightly, like if he is to let go again roman would disappear. Roman wrapped his arms round his younger brother.

Roman shuffled over and patted the spot next to him on the bed, remus sat down, still clinging to roman. "W-why...why did you try to leave?" Remus asked,his voice cracking.

"I-I couldn't handle it...all the pressure it got to my head, the littlest mistakes seemed like a fucking disaster...I started to get thoughts and I-I couldn't fight them away..." roman muttered his own tears welling up.

"Why didn't you tell me?!" Remus sobbed, looking roman in the eyes. " I'm your big brother I'm supposed to look after you and protect you, not the other way around!... and I even failed at that..." Roman cried, muttering the last bit. But remus heard, and tightened his grip on roman.

" you forget that your only 10 seconds older..." remus muttered." It's as much of my job to protect you as it is you to me..."
Roman smiled and moved closer to remus laying his head on his shoulder. Remus smiled at him.

"Still older."
"Fuck you-"