Tw: self harm, all sympathetic sides,depressing thoughts,mentions of wanting to commit suicide, panic attack (thank you Ali_Cynical !! Tell me if I could improve on it plz!),sad boi roman hours.

Request by : remusisaliteralmood

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Roman was breathing heavily his heart audibly pounding in his chest, tears stung his eyes and rolled down his face as he scratched at his arms harshly, trembling uncontrollably. Thoughts spun in his head one phrase on repeat

"Thank god you don't have a mustache or between you and remus. I wouldn't know who the evil twin is!"

Terror and fear closed in on him trapping him in his own mind. He felt blood trickle by his fingers but he didn't stop he kept scratching attempting to regulate his breathing. He felt like he was drowning. His eyes squeezed tightly shut as he curled in on himself more.Not daring to open them. He didn't hear the door open or 5 audible gasps.

Only when he felt his arm being torn away from his hand and someone shaking his shoulder did he open his eyes slightly, still trying to breathe infront of him he saw his brother and virgil, virgil being the one who tore his arm away. Logan, Janus and Patton behind them all crying.

"Ro listen to my voice...can you hear me?" remus spoke softly, Roman tried everything in his power to try focus on his brother and not fall back into the pits of his own mind, forcing himself to nod. "Good job Ro, can you name 5 things you can see?" Remus asked. Roman tried his best to form an understandable answer " y-you, uhhh virge, u-um b-bed, y-your s-sash a-and l-Logan's glasses" Remus smiled slightly " you're doing great ro" virgil praised him taking hold of his hand. " Ok four things you can feel?" Roman felt around him slightly trying to control his breathing as remus rubbed comforting circles on his back " y-you, t-the carpet, v-virge's h-hand a-and um t-the dresser..." " Good job now three things you can hear?" Roman listened to his surroundings gaining some control over his breathing "P-Patton c-crying.... b-birds, P-panic a-at the d-disco f-from virgil's r-room" virgil laughed slightly " Two things you can smell..." remus smiled " deodorant a-and c-cookies" he said " you're doing great roman now one thing you can taste..." "crofters jam..." he said receiving a dramatic gasp from logan as he tried to lighten the mood, seeing as roman had calmed down, which resulted a giggle from the injured side and a few chuckles

Patton came up to them and sat infront of roman " Am I ok to bandage your arm kiddo?" Roman nodded turning away from the dad figure shamefully. Patton summoned some bandages and a damp cloth " there's nothing to be ashamed of kiddo ok? And this might sting a little " roman nodded and rested his head on remus' shoulder " do you wish to talk about it roman?" Logan asked softly though he may seem heartless on camera he is actually a caring overprotective mother figure that the sides appreciate dearly.

"I-I...." he hesitates as patton finished cleaning and bandaging his arm." It's ok take time" "Tengo muchas inseguridades y cuando peleamos cuestiono mucho mi valor. Solo quiero hacerte sentir orgulloso, pero todo lo que hago es decepcionarte y fracasé como hermano y en mantener a Thomas seguro y feliz ¡Ya no sé lo que soy!" Roman rambled in spanish tears welling up in his eyes remus gasped and hugged his brother tightly feeling tears well up in his eyes "No, yo fui quien falló, ya que eres hermano mayor. ¡Debería haber sabido que algo andaba mal! ¡Estoy tan jodidamente orgulloso de ti Ro siempre lo he estado y siempre lo estaré!" Remus stated which caused roman to cling onto him and sob into his shoulder

"Can anyone translate?" Patton asked janus slowly raised his hand. "Well tell us then!" Virgil ordered as Logan went into overprotective mom mode and pushed patton aside to calm the twins down

"R-roman said ' I have alot of insecurities and when we fight I question my worth alot. I just want to make you proud but all I do is disappoint you and I failed as a brother and at keeping thomas safe and happy I don't know what I am anymore!' Then remus replied with 'No I'm the one who failed as you're big brother I should have known something was wrong! I'm so fucking proud of you Ro I always have been and I always will!!' "

And with that logan had went into full mother mode and pulled the twins in for a hug as he calmed them " neither of you failed you're both great brothers, roman we'll try not to fight anymore ok?" Roman nodded hesistantly

" kiddo you could never disappoint us!" Patton stated joining the hug. " Whenever you feel like it gets to much for you come find us ok ro? Don't feel like you have to hide your insecurities from us...." virgil said in calming voice joining the hug aswell.

Roman peeked up from his brother's shoulder and saw janus standing there awkwardly, smiling at the five, roman reached his hand of for janus to join them he awkwardly took it and was yanked into the group hug. ( basically the scene where rapunzel reunites with her parents)

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