Later that day I spent the rest of my time in the room with Damien, we didn't talk much because I wasn't a big fan of talking and besides I was having another disagreement with my wolf in my head.

'Stop fighting the pull you two have, I know you can feel it because I can feel it too. If you leave our mate you will never stop regretting it,' My wolf whined.

'Leave me alone, not only is this good for us but it's also good for this pack and my mate. I refuse to bring my problems here and be the downfall of anyone, I don't know how to be a Luna and I know I will never be more than a mere rogue to my mate' I interjected.

My wolf was the only thing I ever opened up to, she knew my deepest secrets and my fears because she was apart of me. We shared, thoughts and emotions so there was a huge trust between us. Even though we fought a lot it was usually because I was ignorant and hated that she was always right. 

"What are you thinking about so hard flower?"

I snapped back into reality, the voice startling me. I completely I forgot I was in Damien's room with me on the floor and him on the bed. I looked over to now see him sitting next to me on the floor. 

"Flower?" I cringed.

"He shrugged his shoulders.

"Well an Iris is a type of flower that you remind me of, beautiful, delicate and fragile," 

I turned to him, digging my finger into his muscular chest and glaring at him. 

"You know nothing about me," I hissed. 

"I do know behind the scars, bad attitude and cold demeanor is a fragile and delicate woman who just wants to belong somewhere," He grabbed my hand and held it.

"You must be pissed to have someone like me as your mate," I said out loud, slightly disappointed in myself for slightly melting at his words.

He stood up and helped me up off the floor and dragged me over to the full body mirror against his wall. I looked at our reflections as he wrapped his arms around my waist, making me feel complete.

'Why must you bring yourself down when you have no reason to?' I heard my wolf ask.

I looked at myself, long black hair with white streaks that reminded me of my wolf's fur all down my back, scars and scratches all along her body from fighting others, outside elements and climbing tree, freckles splattered all along my face, concentrated along my nose. Others may have saw a dangerous and intimidating rogue but all I saw was that 12 year old girl from long ago forced to run away from the only home she knew so she could survive. She was forced to become tough and strong but inside she was terrified of the world and confused why this all happened to her. All I wanted to do was run away from all my problems, that's all I was used to doing instead of facing them. Before I knew it I felt tears forming in my eyes.

"It's okay, it's healthy to cry," Damien said as he rested his chin on the top of my head. I immediately began wiping at my face, refusing to allow any tear to fall.

"I do not wish for you to see me cry, I don't want to be mistaken for weak," I muttered.

'So then why must you always act so weak and pathetic?' My wolf spat.

I whimpered at her words, not used to such a hostile attitude from her, then again I couldn't blame her, all she wanted was to stay with her mate and I was trying to take that away form her.

Damien noticed my whimpers and turned me around to pull me into an embrace, I let my struggles and conflicts melt into the embrace as I sighed with relief.

"I can tell you're having an internal conflict within yourself, you've been so much in your head lately," He said, his chest vibrating against my cheek as he spoke.

I simply nodded and didn't say anything else.

"Well even if you don't want me as your mate now, I will always protect and care for you. I'll try my hardest to make you fall in love with me," He smiled at me. 

Before I could say anything, there was a knock on the door. Damien broke away from the embrace, leaving me to feel cold and alone to open the door revealing a tall blonde hair man, he had dark brown eyes, he had an undercut with the rest of his short hair brushed off to the side lazily and a slight grown in blonde beard. 

"I need to speak with you in private Alpha," The man nodded.

Damien shot me a quick smile back at me before walking out the door, leaving me alone. I couldn't understand why they didn't just use the mind link connection. 

"Whatever," I said to myself as I walked over and grabbed my back pack, rummaging through it to pull out my journal. 

Before I was able to ever shift this was the only thing that was keeping me sane, being able o write down my thoughts and emotions, my fears and my dreams before I accepted what my life was.

I heard the door opened so I stuffed my journal back in my bag and got up to see Damien walk inside and sigh.

"Someone slipped word that there was a rogue she wolf in the pack house and they are pissed," He said. 

"What does that have to do with me?" I asked annoyed.

"Well I have to clear up the fact that you are indeed my mate but the thing is...I'm going to need you to come with me," He said hesitantly.

"I have no interest in meeting your parents,"

"Yes I'm aware of that but I can't just tell them you are my mate and not even introduce you to them," He explained.

"What part of 'I don't want to' don't you understand?"

He sighed and rubbed his face in his hands as he looked up at me with an irritated expression. 

"I don't understand why you are being difficult right now, I'm not saying you have to be in love with me, they want to know who you are,"

"what if they don't like me?" I muttered to myself but the surprised look on his face showed that he heard exactly what I said.

"You're worried that my parents won't like you? where did this come from?" 

I scratched my head and shrugged my shoulders. 

"What if they give an order to put me to death or something?" 

His laughed boomed throughout the room startling me, he doubled over, wiping a tear from his eye and even though I wanted to be mad at him for laughing at me I couldn't help but smile. He was so cute when he laughed, his smile going from ear to ear as his cheeks stood prominent on his face from his smile.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to laugh but you do realize I am the Alpha right? My father has passed down the pack to me so he no longer has the authority to request for something like that, he can suggest but at the end of the day it's my decision," He explained as he finally collected himself.

"Fine whatever, seems like I don't have a choice. Do they live in the pack house?" I asked. 

He grabbed my hand and led me out of the, on our way to see his parents.

"No, as soon as Alpha's finally find their mates they usually move into their own homes so they can start their families and be alone together," He looked down at me, wiggling his eyebrows. 

I laughed and pushed him away, understanding what he was insinuating.

"You know I actually love when you talk and laugh with me, your voice is really lovely and comforting to me. when you aren't trying to be intimidating,"

"Sometimes you have to be intimidating to get things done," I shrugged my shoulders.

"Sounds like something a Luna would say," He smiled.

After about 20 minutes of walking which I didn't mind at all since I was just so used to walking and running everywhere we finally reached a two story beautiful red brick home with beautiful flowers and bushes planted all around the front yard. We walked up to the front door and before he knocked he pulled me to the side.

"I know our relationship is...nonexistent right now but for the sake of my parents could you at least pretend to like me a little?" He smiled weakly.

I just nodded.

What I wasn't ready to admit to him was that he was slowly but surely starting to care for him, whether it was because of the mate pull or not I felt attraction towards him and wanted to be with him, I just didn't want to be the downfall of anyone.

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