Sang

Two weeks have passed since I woke up in this hospital. My memories have mostly come back. The most random things would set them off, someone referring to a team, an Academy. No one but myself knows I remember. Some days I long to share my secret, but then I remind myself of Volto and my family's betrayal. 

They left me when I was at my most vulnerable. I don't give a damn about their reasons, they left without me seeing them or another word. I run into Sean around the hospital and he always turns around to go the other way the moment he sees me. 

That hurts, every time my heart bleeds a little. I almost never talk and I can feel Dr. Roberts being worried about me. If I didn't know his secret, I would have liked the old man. Also excluding the fact that I have to see a therapist. 

The therapist who I am currently sitting across from. He is so happy all of the time and is under the impression that I am suffering a depression because of the loss of my memories. He is not good at his job anyway.  He talks a lot and I only have to nod occasionally. Every once in a while, I make a good comment. 

Like right now, he is talking about how I could make a new life without the burden of the past and looks at me expectantly like he wants me to talk. 

I sigh and say, "Sometimes, the mind has a way of protecting us from things until we're ready to deal with them." I sound like the therapist, not the patient.

The guy just nods his head, "Good, good. We are making progress."

I doubt that, therapist. In fact, I have every intention for this to be our last meeting. Dr. Roberts is starting to tell that I am remembering. I don't know why he doesn't say anything. I intend to find out before running. 

My plan is in place. I have a bag packed and an escape route planned. I want to head to Raven's house to see if his promise to always help me holds true. Before though, I want to get some answers. I hide my bad in Dr. Robert's office. It was a brilliant move and no one has found it. 

I also need to have a discussion with Dr. Robert about the fact he is so insistent that I be placed far from the boys. I know my family made the decision, but I think that the doc is the driving force. 

After leaving my therapist, I head to Doc's office. I know he is in there because that is where he always is at this time. Quietly, I enter the room unnoticed and steal one of his guns from under the desk. Still as quiet as a mouse, I raise the gun and point it to his forehead.

It is only then I let myself be known, "Dr. Roberts."

The Doc jumps and faces me, freezing when he sees the gun, "Sang, what are you doing?"

I narrow my eyes at him, "Getting answers."

Doc sighs, "What do you want to know? I noticed that you had been remembering for a while now."

Keeping the gun steady, I tell him, "Why are you so determined to keep the boys away from me?"

He looks at me in the eye, "You are pregnant."

I nearly drop the gun in my shock, "What?"

Doc repeats himself, "You are pregnant. The Academy Council knows that this will destroy our best team and came to the decision to separate you. The Volto kidnapping was a good opportunity. If you go back to the Blackbourne Team, their people will never stop hunting you or your children."

I hit him on the temple with the back of my gun, leaving him unconscious. I am pregnant, oh shit! I am now torn, do I leave or do I stay? 

On one hand, my children will have fathers, but on the other, the Academy hates my guts now. I am surprised at that information. I think they meant to make me work as a Ghostbird with other teams. No way in hell now!

I grab my bag. This doesn't change much in my plans. I will still head to Raven. My Russian will hide me for a good month or two before I have to move on. 

Out of my bag, I take out a business card where I wrote a message. I already know that I have a flair for the dramatic :

A past hidden in darkness.

Her present cloaked in secrets.

The future holds the only truth that cannot be escaped.

It is riddle for my boys. If they can find the clues, they will find me. I cannot find it in myself to part completely without giving them a chance to find me. This clue will lead them to Raven where I leave the next one. It will be an elaborate goose chase. 

Taking control of Doc's computer is easy. After all, I learned from the best. I put a loop on the cameras, just enough time for me to get out. I grab my stuff and run

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I make it to Raven's easily. It helps that no one has noticed my escape yet probably. I usually spent my days, wandering the hospital. I think they will only notice my absence tomorrow morning or maybe earlier because of Dr. Roberts.

I am about to knock on Raven's door when it opens by itself. I come face to face with Corey. I was hoping to avoid this. Corey might be loyal to Raven, but not to me. We stare at each other for a moment.

Then, Corey calls back, "Raven, I think I'm hallucinating."

I hear Raven's heavy steps as he comes to the door. I hope that I am still welcome. It has been more than a month since I last saw him and I have had no contact with anyone. When he sees me, there is a moment of silence. 

He then whispers, "Птичка, это ты?" (Little Bird, is that you?)

I jump on him, giving him a hug, "Да, ворон, это я." (Yes Raven, it is me.)

Corey is looking back and forth between us, "What the hell is going on? Last time I was kept in the loop, Sang has amnesia. This doesn't look like amnesia to me."

I smile towards Corey, "I will explain later. But I want to know if I have a place to stay here with you for a while?"

Raven exclaims, "Of course, you stay. Corey, get West. He will be shocked to hear I have his little bird."

At this, I start to tear up, "Niet! No!"

Corey freezes, "Why?"

I sigh sadly, "They still think I have amnesia."

Corey narrows his eyes on me, "Why?"

Raven tries to placate him, "Inside."

He all walk in. Raven, glad with Corey still being suspicious about my outburst. I am scared that once they know, I will no longer be welcome here. We all sit on the couch with me still tense. 

Raven says, "Little bird, what matter?"

Corey corrects him, "What is the matter you mean."

Raven waves his hand, "Da. Same."

I take a deep breath, "When I woke up, I overheard a conversation with the others. They spoke of leaving Sang alone for her safety. I realized I was Sang and became determined to get my memory back. I did these past two weeks with no help from my family. They have left me, betrayed me."

Corey tries to reason with me, "They have to have their reasons."

Raven however took the path of anger, "I will kill them. Yes, West will pay for hurting little bird."

I continue my story, "I felt hurt as I regained my memories. Despite all we have been through, they never even came to check on me and I know no one but Dr. Roberts knew of my condition. They didn't even bother to get updates. I was suspicious, so I interrogated Dr. Roberts."

Corey interrupted, "What do you mean interrogated?"

I looked at him, "I took his gun and put it to his forehead. I asked questions and got answers to knock him unconscious."

Corey shrinked back a little, "Oh."

I leaned back in the couch, "According to him, the Academy Council thought I was going to tear apart their best team and wanted to separate me from them. Dr. Roberts also informed me that I was pregnant. He told me that if I went back to my family, I would be hunted as well as my children."

Raven held me to him, "Poor little bird."

Corey was patting my back, "Oh, Sang. You can stay with us and we won't tell another soul. The team decided to take a two month break of missions. Until then, you are safe with us."

We stayed like that for a while. I was safe here as Sang Sorenson. 

I have conquered my fears before and I will again.

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