This one's for WestHamBabe again, thank you so much for the request! I really enjoyed writing this one!

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December 1987

We were just about to go on stage, playing our twentieth show of our Hysteria-tour. Anyway, I didn't feel like going out that night, too many thoughts were stuck in my mind. Most of them were about one person, and I knew that they were wrong. I shouldn't think like that about one of my closest friends, I was just wasting my time. He would never feel the same way about me, Rick Savage, my beautiful bass player.

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"Joe, everything's alright?"

His bright blue eyes pierced mine with a slight shade of worry in them, his hand resting on my shoulder and patting it in a caring way.

"Yes, yes... Just thinking bout some stuff"

I couldn't tell him how I felt, what an effect his touch had on me and that I was close to losing myself in his eyes. Those eyes...

"Joe?"

"I'm sorry... Yes?"

"Tell me what's up please"

Rick's eyes were now filled with concern, his hand on my shoulder tensing a little. I just turned away, wanting to get away from him before I let out everything I was keeping in.

"We have to go on stage Sav, maybe later"

I was sure that I wouldn't tell him later, but I just said it to have an excuse to get away from him. He just nodded with a worried frown on his handsome face and followed me onto the dark stage, getting his headset and his bass from one of our Roadies. After everyone was ready, I raised up my mic.

"I said welcome to my show!"

The curtains around the stage fell down at my words and the show began. The audience was screaming the lyrics to 'Stagefright' and a huge smile was plastered on my face as I sung.

But after every song we played, I glanced over to Sav, seeing him smiling brightly at all the girls in the front row. My heart hurt at that sight, it was close to bursting. But after all those years I had trained to put on a poker face, so I just smiled a wide fake smile.

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Finally the concert was done and we all left to the tourbus. I could feel Sav's eyes on me the whole time, those blue orbs of his pierced me in a worried manner. I felt very uncomfortable and tried to shake him off by looking away, but it didn't help.

"Joe?"

Oh damn.

"Yes Sav?"

"Will you tell me now?"

I gulped, not sure what to do. My eyes were locked on his worried ones, a tear slowly running down my cheek. I could never call that beauty of a man mine. It was so fucking hopeless.

"Joe?"

Sav stepped forward, laying a hand on my shoulder and gently pushing me against the outside of the bus. My heartbeat quickened even though I didn't want it to, and a few shivers of euphoria ran down my spine.

"Y-yes Sav?"

"Tell me please"

I took a deep breath, an idea finally popping up in my mind. Man, that was great! I could just try to express my emotions by singing about them. After another deep breath I just closed my eyes, starting to sing.

"I get hysterical, hysteria
Oh can you feel it?
Do you believe it?
It's such a magical mysteria
When you get that feelin'
Better start believin'
Cause it's a miracle, oh say you will
Oh babe
Hysteria when you're near"

Sav looked at me as I opened my eyes again, a questioning look on his face. Great. So I had to explain the meaning of the song once again.

"Sav, this one was written for you"

After those words had left my mouth, he let out a gasp.

"W-what? You talked about me in that song?"

I nodded embarrassedly, facing the ground and hoping that he would just say something about it. Something that made it clear he didn't have feelings for me.

"So you get hysterical when I'm near?", he asked with a chuckle and a deep blush formed on my face as I slowly nodded.

"Just say you don't like me in the same way, I need to hear it from you to stop hoping it'll work out"

My throat was dry and my voice tearful, like I was just about to start crying. Which I was.

"If you wanna listen to me, I would like to tell you about my point of view."

My head rose a little and I locked my eyes on his blue ones, seeing... love in them? No, I must be hallucinating. But all my thoughts were washed away the moment he leaned in and crashed his lips on mine. God, it tasted better than I had ever imagined in my dreams. His hands held my hips and pulled me close while mine had lost themselves in his soft, curly hair. The kiss deepened and deepened til we had to catch our breaths and pulled away. It felt like I was in heaven. Sav finally broke the moment.

"Joe?"

"Y-yes?"

"I love you"

My heart started to race faster and faster at his words and I finally managed to part my lips, letting out the words I had been keeping in for so long.

"I love you too Sav"