Everyday was the same: UVIP session with gifts for the baby, VIP session with questions about Adam and Jenika, signing line with gifts and congratulation messages. Those were bad enough but the constant social media comments about them being such a cute couple, and the requests for pictures of them together were really getting to him. It was quickly getting old.

Adam's most recent IG and Twitter posts (a selfie of he and Jenika that said 'Love her') had almost pushed him over the edge. Adam was hoping to thwart the requests for pics of them together. It hadn't worked. Yes, Adam had asked him about it before he posted. Yes, he had given his blessing. Yes, he had lied about being okay with it. 

Tim tried to put on a happy face. He tried to make it seem like nothing was bothering him but it was getting harder everyday. 

They had two days off and were only a couple hours from home so they rented a car and made the short trip. Tim thought a few days away from the tour and the social media would be good for him. 

Ericha had made plans to spend a night out with Jenika and TJ while they were home. She missed her best friend and favorite little boy. Tim was looking forward to some alone time with Adam. He loved the tour bus but sometimes he just needed peace and quiet.

TJ was in his room getting ready to go while Adam and Jenika sat on the couch looking at some of the cards they have received from the fans. Tim was in the kitchen, on his laptop, working on a new arrangement. Ericha let herself in, like normal, and walked right into the living room.

"Hey, guys." Ericha said. "Well, aren't you two just the cutest couple ever!" Ericha cooed, making fun of some of the Facebook posts. 

"YOU'VE GOT TO BE F*CKING KIDDING ME!" Tim growled loudly. He quickly shut his laptop and stomped across the room. He slammed the basement door shut behind him before heading downstairs to his room. Adam, Jenika, and Ericha all jumped at the sound of Tim yelling and slamming the door. 

"I'm sorry." Ericha apologized. "I didn't realize he was within earshot. I probably shouldn't have said that."

"Don't worry about it Ericha." Adam replied. "I'm going to go to talk to him. You guys go have fun."

"Are you sure?" Jenika asked. "I can go with you."

"I'm sure." Adam gave her a kiss goodbye, "Go and enjoy yourself."

Adam took a deep breath before heading down the stairs. He quietly opened the door to their bedroom and saw Tim sitting on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, head in his hands. Adam climbed on the bed behind Tim, wrapped his arms around him, and propped his chin on his shoulder.

"Shouldn't you be with your girlfriend doing cute couple things?" Tim asked coldly as he shrugged his shoulders, effectively pushing Adam off of him. 

"Tim, don't." Adam said quietly.

"Don't what?" Tim asked as he turned his head to look at the blond. "Get irritated that I can't relax in my own home?"

"No" Adam sighed. "Don't take your anger out on the people who love you."

"Do you?" Tim asked.

"Do I what?" Adam asked questioningly. Tim couldn't possibly be asking him what he thought he was.

"Love me?" Tim said. 

Adam felt like he had been punched in the chest. He was too shocked to speak. How could Tim doubt the feelings he had for him?

Tim immediately regretted his words. He knew Adam loved him. 'Why the hell did I say that?' he thought. He saw the tears threatening to fall from Adam's eyes and hated himself.

"Why would you ask me... How could you... Do you really not think so?" Adam stammered as silent tears fell on his cheeks.

"I'm sorry" Tim said. "I didn't mean that."  

"Have I made you feel that way?" Adam asked. "I'm so sorry. I love you so much it physically hurts sometimes."

"I shouldn't have said that" Tim admitted. "I really didn't mean it. You've done everything you could to keep me included and make me feel loved. I was letting the anger and jeal...." Tim didn't finish his sentence.

"What were you going to say?" Adam asked. "You didn't finish your sentence."

Tim looked down at the bed as he picked at fuzzies on the blanket. He didn't want to look at Adam as he spoke. "I was letting the anger and jealousy take over."

"Jealousy?" Adam asked. "Of mine and Jenika's relationship?"

"No, not your relationship." Tim sighed, still not looking up. "All the attention you're getting and comments about how cute you are together."

"Tim, it's unwanted attention." Adam replied. "Do you really want that?"

Tim finally look up at Adam. "I want the choice." He sighed. "I want to be able to touch you without worrying about who's around. I want to say I love you without worrying about who's listening." Tim sighed. "I'm jealous that you two 'are so cute' together. I think we're pretty cute together. I'm jealous that you are public with your relationship and I have to hide mine and ours as a whole. You get to post cute pictures online while I have to look around before I can even reach out to touch you." Tim pulled Adam into a hug, "I just want to be able to show the world how much I love you."

"I know." Adam said as he rubbed Tim's back. "I want that to. We'll work on it and figure something out. How long have you been feeling this way?"

"It's been building for awhile." Tim said quietly. 

"Why didn't you say something sooner?" Adam asked "Why did you let it fester?"

Tim sighed, "I guess I was too proud to say anything, to let you know I was hurting."

Adam pulled back enough that he could see Tim's face, "You know we have a rule about that."

"I know." Tim chuckled. "I suggested it."

"You know rule breaking has consequences right?" Adam said with a smirk.

"I'm aware." Tim replied as he tried to hide his smile.

"But not right now." Adam said as he stood and stripped down to his boxers before climbing back into bed. Tim did the same and cuddled into Adam's side. Adam searched through his phone for a minute before finding what he wanted. He turned off the lights, hit play, and whispered to his lover "Just let me hold you, tonight."

https://youtu.be/rCSMdw4enOk

Adam kissed Tim's head and whispered "I love you" as the song ended. They held each other close and drifted off to sleep.

To be continued...

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