Peters eye opened slowly, a light fluttering of his eyelids told tony he was regaining consciousness. He shifted slightly in his chair, not wanting to startle the broken kid. Shatter him more.

Peter groaned, hand moving from Tony's grasp and to his side. He hadn't even noticed Tony was there yet. What had happened? All he knew was that he could feel every wound healing and he didn't like it. It meant he was getting better, he didn't deserve to get better.

"Kid?" A light whisper from his right, "you with me?"

"Yeah" he managed to respond. It hurt, all over, mind and body.

"You scared me Pete," he wasn't mad, just disappointed? "I thought you were gone when you didn't show up"

"Sorry" Peter answers, a reflex now. To apologize for things he couldn't control. For things he had no choice in. What happened?

"Don't be, I was just worried. Want to tell me what happened?" What did happen? That was the question of the hour, he wasn't exactly sure. He remembers flash, and pain; a flash flood of pain. He remembers cold, and pain, and rain. He couldn't move, couldn't make himself move. He had convinced himself he couldn't move, didn't deserve to move. He remembers Loki, telling him to hold on, telling him it wasn't over yet.

"Kid, he was right it's not over yet. We need you here, we love you" Tony comforted, shit had he said those things aloud?

"I-" Peter started but was cut off by the opening of a door.

"Tones, oh hey Peter. Glad to see you're awake. Can I talk to you for a second Tony, Loki's going to watch Peter" Bruce asked a light smile when looking at Peter. He seemed relaxed but Peter saw the fear in his eyes, that Peter would die right in front of him.

"Yeah, I'll be back kiddo" Tony patted Peter lightly on his shoulder and stood up. He follows Bruce out through the door. Loki took their place and sat where Tony had been sitting.

"Peter I-"

"I'm sorry Loki" Peter responded.

"No, you don't have to apologize. Ever, if something happens that you can't control you don't apologize. I just- you said you were done. That I should leave and let you die and I-" Loki had started crying, "I was up al night thinking to myself, trying to imagine what would be left of the world if you weren't in it, and I can't. With you here all I know is light, you saved me from the dark place Odin shoved me into. I don't want to go back there and I need you with me, Peter I can't love without you" Loki's speech was hard to make out, he had started sobbing halfway through. The sobs that continued to wrack his body long after he finished talking.

Peter was crying too, but he had long since gotten used to crying silently. From years of crying at night, biting his pillow so he wasn't heard.

"Loki" Peter said softly, "I want to get better"

"I know you do Pete, I want you to get better too. I want to help but I don't know how, you have to tell me"

"I don't know either, it's like I'm trapped in my own damn mind. Like someone locked the door and threw away the key, I don't know how to get out. All I have are thoughts, thoughts emotions and a feeling of numbness that takes over when the emotions stop. When I stop crying and can't feel at all. I want it to stop, I want to feel but I don't know how anymore"

"I'll help, just tell me when you don't feel. When everything stops for you. I will remind you of happiness, I'll take you to the garden swing" he smiled lightly.

"Ok" peter responded, a small voice.

"Hey Loki, Kiddo, how do you two feel about going to dinner?" Tony asked from the doorway.

"I'm up for it, Petey you?"

"Yeah" Peter forced a smile onto his face.

"Ok I'll let you get ready meet me in the garage in a half hour" Tony left and returned a short while later, "oh and Bruce is going to come too if that's good with you"

"Yeah" Peter smiled as he got out of the bed he was in.

"Ok good I'll let him know" Tony left again and Loki helped Peter to his room.

When they arrived Loki waited outside while Peter got dressed. He put on one of Loki's black sweaters and a pair of jeans. Before he opened the door he slipped on his vans, and fixed his hair. When he looked at himself he saw the purple and blue bruises forming on his cheek bone. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath in, he could do this.

He grabbed his phone from where it was charging and opened the door. Loki was leaning against the wall across from his room and stood up straight to walk with Peter.

"So where do you think Tony's taking us?" He asked putting an arm around Peter.

"I don't know, but knowing him it will be fancy"

"Yeah probably, I wouldn't be surprised if he rented out a whole section" Loki chuckled.

"Yeah, me either" Peter laughed, it was light and airy and real. Loki hadn't heard that sound in a long time.

They made there way over to the car Tony and Bruce were standing at. It was a dark Audi, Peter didn't know which mode but it was Tony's favorite.

He and Loki slid into the back while Bruce climbed into the passenger seat. Tony, of course, was at the wheel.

"Ok everyone, lets get some good food. Any guesses about where were going? And not from you Bruce you already know. Loki, no cheating with mind reading" Tony smiled when he heard Peters laugh from behind him.

"Ugh fine," Loki sighed dramatically.

Peter laughed a little louder that time and Bruce heard. The sound made a smile form on his lips. He knew the laugh would be temporary but with help it could be permanent.

"So any guesses cause we're almost there"

"Ummm, Apple bees" Peter joked.

"Eww they microwave their food" Tony joked.

"Hey so do you, I haven't seen you cook one thing without a microwave" Peter bantered back.

"Fair enough, we'll we're here now" They all looked out the from window and saw that they had pulled up to LongHorns steak house. Peters favorite (idk just go with it).

"Yay! I love this place" Peter exclaimed.

"Well then, lets go get our table!" Tony said, matching Peters enthusiasm. He would do anything to make his kid happy.