CW: swearing in the song^^ and also in book stay safe lovelies 🖤
TW: suppressed depressing feelings, 'feeling the need to "bottle up" emotions', intrusive thoughts

(i just want to clarify for those who may be confused-peter and loki's relationship in this story is purely platonic, almost brother like)

Dinner went surprisingly well.
Peter found it a lot easier to ignore what his brain wanted him to focus on when he was around people he loved and who loved him.

although not related by blood, he found himself smiling more and more at the idea of being Loki's brother.

especially when he performed little shows of magic in the restaurant, despite tony telling him to stop.

Walking out had felt like a breath of fresh air, quite literally as the walk to the car was a pretty long one. But it also felt cleansing for him.

here he was now, laying on his bed, watching the planets on the hologram projector rotate around the sun.

All the planets were dependent on the sun, dependent on the gravity that keeps them all together.

once, a while ago, tony had complained peter to the sun.

"kid, you're like the sun ok? you're at the center of out miss matched family and you keep us all together. Thank you kiddo, you do so much more for this family than you think you do, i promise"

the door creaked open but peter paid it no attention as his own mind was too far away.

"hey peter? want to go for a walk with me?"

"sure Loki" peter answered knowing it was loki before he heard the voice.

"ok! i'll wait for you downstairs" He smiled to himself and left the room.

A small smile stayed on his face as he made his way to the lobby, peter was...well maybe not happy but at least content. Loki could see it on his face.

His own skin itches when his thoughts turned sour. Bucky had talked to him about this before, intrusive thoughts is what they're called.

things like 'you're not worth it'
'you cant feel sad because peter feels worse'

which in the words of bucky barnes, "those words are created by the part of your brain that only exists to harm you. they aren't true until they're spoken, and even if you speak them or if anyone speaks them, the only thing that changes is that those words become physical. Which makes them all the more easier to fight off"

Either way he didn't have time because he looked over and saw Peter walking towards him. A calm smile on his face, "where are we going Lokes?"

"anywhere" He responded, forcing a smile onto his own face.

they walked for about thirty minutes when peter decided they were in a secluded enough place where he could swing up to the top of a building, Loki appearing there at the same time he landed.

"the views the best up here" he said as he laid down.

of the planets, right.

quietly he laid down next to peter.

you don't deserve this moment of calm

the words played on loop in his head and he tried all he could to ignore them.

"you know you can tell me what's wrong right, just because i've got my own problems that doesn't mean you have to ignore yours" peter said without looking over.

"uh, i dont-"

"You don't know what's wrong or you don't want to say it?"

"i want to say it, it's just i don't know how. I want to shout but i don't want to hurt the people i love"

"then loki, shout at the walls. cause the walls don't fucking love you" peter said, turning and smiling at loki, "i'll do it with you."

"ok" he said quietly and allowed Peter to drag him up and over to one of the taller walls on the roof.

"what now?" he asked

"just shout, let it all go"

and they both started yelling at those concrete walls. no one around to judge what they were saying or what they were admitting.

nothing but the calming satisfaction of talking away your stress.

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hey lovelies so sorry this is a shorter one, i'm trying to get back into the writing mood. hopefully i'll be able to upload more, although i do have exams soon. i'll see what i can do, and remember you're valid and i love you🖤🖤:D