I'm sorry if I seem uninterested
Or I'm not listenin' or I'm indifferent
Truly, I ain't got no business here

But since my friends are here
I just came to kick it but reallyI would rather be at home all by myself not in this roomWith people who don't even care about my well beingI don't dance, don't ask, I don't need a boyfriend

So you can go back, please enjoy your partyI'll be here, somewhere in the corner under clouds of marijuanaWith this boy who's hollering I can hardly hearOver this music I don't listen to and I don't wanna get with youSo tell my friends that I'll be over here
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh oh
I ask myself what am I doing here?Oh oh oh here oh oh oh hereAnd I can't wait till we can break up outta here

Excuse me if I seem a little unimpressed with this

An anti social pessimist but usually I don't mess with thisAnd I know you mean only the best andYour intentions aren't to bother meBut honestly I'd rather beSomewhere with my people we can kick it and just listenTo some music with the message (like we usually do)And we'll discuss our big dreamsHow we plan to take over the planetSo pardon my manners, I hope you'll understandThat I'll be hereNot there in the kitchen with the girl

Who's always gossiping about her friendsSo tell them I'll be hereRight next to the boy who's throwing up 'causeHe can't take what's in his cup no more

Oh God why am I here?
Oh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh oh
I ask myself what am I doing here?Oh oh oh here oh oh oh hereAnd I can't wait till we can break up outta here
Hours later congregating next to the refrigerator
Some girl's talking 'bout her hatersShe ain't got noneHow did it ever come to thisI shoulda never come to thisSo holla at me I'll be in the car when you're doneI'm standoffish, don't want what you're offeringAnd I'm done talkingAwfully sad it had to be that waySo tell my people when they're ready that I'm readyAnd I'm standing by the TV with my beanie lowYo I'll be over hereOh oh oh here oh oh oh here oh oh ohI ask myself what am I doing here?Oh oh oh here oh oh oh hereAnd I can't wait till we can break up outta hereOh oh oh oh oh ohOh oh oh oh oh oh

Bruce described the party, the environment and the others with his over of the song He meant every word, as others commented on his behavior unaware of what he went through. He couldn't fool himself, he couldn't numb himself or put on a smile for this in Veronica's speakeasy. He hid himself in a little space finishing the song.