what's up bros! just a late night rant thing, it's about this boy so like you're allowed to skip it.

since emojis don't really work and i have an android this is how i feel while writing this ^^^

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he's so goddamn cute. everything from his hoodie that he never seems to take off to his cheesy ass smile that happens apparently whenever i make a shitty joke and just try to make him happy overall. this kid really has me going, and i haven't even known him long. his hairs this really fitting brown with blonde highlights if the sun hits it in the right angle. his eyes are this beautiful blue green that constantly change, and sometimes even look this light shade of gray. his nose scrunches up when he laughs, and his eyes crinkle too. his voice is this sound that i could fall asleep to given the chance. i don't know how i never noticed this boy. he was always so quiet, and reserved. he respects me for who i am, and seems to like cuddling and stuff. literally all that happened today between this boy and i, when i had a little sad moment, he straight up rested his hand on my shoulder, and just, left it there for a while. he's awkward, and i am too. that's the best part about this though. he always seems to text first because im not good at remembering these things, but i do try my best. he did this thing today,, we were playing trust falls. but since he's like half a foot taller than me and stronger, it ended up me being tossed around with another friend helping. everytime i got pushed back into him, it was like this energy rushed through me, and it was great. i haven't felt this good in so long. i missed this type of feeling. but the thing he did, when i fell into him, (i might be overreading, but i haven't had a genuine chance to crush on a guy without the "im straight" comeback, because he's bi. and he's perfectly fine with it.) i think he just kinda, took a second to catch me and get himself back together, then he didn't push me for a few moments. like maybe, he didn't want to. (definitely overreading this but im emotional and care about this guy so lol) anyways though later on my friend started that wenis joke and was saying "lemme get that wenis ;)))))" and i ended up getting held for protection. it was- it was great. it felt fucking amazing okay.
"it's okay, ill protect you from him!"
"im here for you." <3
it was just a silly little game but i got chased around the classroom and down the hall after we were dismissed. got backed into a corner and he just- i can't explain it. yes, it was for fun, just a game, i know, but it felt like i was letting myself go for once. thank you o, for that. see you tomorrow in fourth, can't wait to talk to you, and hear your pretty voice again.

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fin.