Looking at my papa's grave hurts and feels good at the same time ...
I can't help but to think that's it's Wong of me to feel relived that he's gone
But I also can't help but to blame him for making me this way.

He made me watch as he slowly died. it took the old sun of a bitch a whole year to die from Lung Cancer but the bastared put up a good fight with out treatment just a lot of drugs to num the pain..
Apparently the fucker wanted to test out the fight that cancer can bring !!
We'll jokes on him cuz his dead 💀

It's just me and my 3 best friends/comrades are at the funeral with me. I have a uncle but he more of an ashole then my dad and that's saying a lot when I called to tell him that his twin brother died he asked me if he I checked his Pulse to make sure ....fucker !!!

Anyways I have some family they just don't  give a shit! I don't blame them it's not like I know them well or see them often the last time I seen my uncle and his family I was like 12 and my dad wanted me to try and kill him for fun ? ...... like I said my papa's a ashole.

So cutting the story short. Looking at my papa's grave gave me mixed feelings and angry thoughts I wanted scream and cry but I couldn't do it my friend Sam short for ( Sammy tech ) grabbed me gently by my hand and I looked at her with rage but quickly realized who I was looking at and gave her a apologetic look and she smiled back.

" hay it's starting to rain want to get out of here and we'll go to a diner or the bar you know what ever you need Mack! "  she said looking extremely sad and worried for me.

Sammys lovely shes always there for me ever since we meet. Which was over seas in a hospital in the middle of Iran just took a bullet to the chest one the leg and two in my left arm  so basically she saved my life and we've been best friends ever since.

Oh!! Did I not mention that I was a black ops operative ?? Ya sorry about that I'm having a bad day and all .

Yep papa did me right!! Teached me everything I know !! .......

..........Wait a minute that doesn't look right I didn't mean it in a sexual way you do understand that right ???

Well what ever Sammy is just the best thing that ever happened to me in my crazy life she even maches my crazy with her own crazy. Which bings me to two other friends there comrades from my unit  Jared John & emers guess
These two knuckle heads came from nowhere and they keep it like that there a crazy dull that not just respect each other but love the same women !!

Who you guess we'll I'll give you a hint .......... she's crazy and a doctor???
It's Sam
Yep the two ex black ops sexy crazy sun of a bitches love Sam they love her so much that when they fought for her they  almost killed one another to the point where Sam didn't just have to stop them and clean up after them she made them love one another and her.

I hope your understand where I'm going with is if not than you need to leave know cuz this books not for you.

There a 3 way couple as in Sam haves two guys that satisfies her in so many ways that I even get off on her story's.

I'm weak I know ....... shut up !!

" hay lets go to the bar I think it's time for Mack to have her first drink you know since her old man kick the bucket" emers said and Sam slaps his arm and gives him a dirty look.

" ashole " says Jared as he shakes his head

I smile knowing what he meant by the drinking thing cuz I don't... it was never because of my papa I just don't like the taste of alcohol I'm 25 and has never been drunk

I looked at my friends making a fuss over nothing " ya let's do that " I said and they all looked at me

" do what hun" asked Sam

"Let's go to a bar " I said back and they looked at me like I grow another head

" ok " Jared said

And we where off...

" I have bad feeling about this " said Sam ....

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So let know if I'm on to something and if I should keep writing cuz I don't have much confidence in my self to keep going ????

Tiffy