The trial is wrapped up quickly. All in all, it is done in just under a month. The jury came back quickly with a guilty verdict, solidifying his guilt in the death's of Leigh and Kara and the kidnappings of Mason and Tilly.

There was no doubt in any of their minds that he is guilty of the crimes brought against him this time. The lawyers did a great job presenting the evidence.

I think it was made very clear to the members of the jury that we all want to be able to identify the dangerous people in our world. But the scary thing is that you can't identify these people. No one realizes that there are potential killers among them. People you like live work work and admire could turn out the next day to be a demonic person. And that scared the jury.

With the newest guilty verdict not only comes three more life sentences on top of his five already, he is also sentenced to death by lethal injection.

I knew that the death penalty was going to be given to him if he was found guilty this time but hearing the judge speak the brutally real words out loud really made it clear to me that I had just signed my father's death warrant.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't cry when he spoke the sentencing information in front of the court. It didn't feel good to hear that my father is going to die by the hands of another person. It hurt. It really did.

I am now officially going to be parent-less, an orphan. I guess I could consider myself to be lacking a parent while he was locked up in prison but now that he is going to die, I will really have no one left.

It hurts to think about. It really does.

The thought that keeps me going is that I will never be alone again.

I have a wonderful fiancé and a bunch of really great step-siblings. Together, we all make up our own little dysfunctional family.

I think about the future and everything it can be from this point forward. I hit rock bottom while my father was killing and when I lost my daughter. But now, I can only go up from here.

You can't get worse than rock bottom.

At least, I don't think you can...

But with all of my loose ends tied up, I finally feel like I will be able to move on with my life. Once my father is gone, I can start to heal.

Hopefully.

Tyler and I have been going crazy with planning our wedding. We hope to have it in the spring. It is only a few months away and I already can't wait for it.

I have been searching for the perfect dress and have been picking out little outfits for the kids to wear on the big day.

I want our wedding day to shine brighter than the sun. I need it to cast a shadow over every tragedy in both of our lives so that we only see the good.

I just want to marry him and be able to call myself his wife finally.

I am ready for my future.

Tomorrow is a new day and I am ready for it.

Author's note: have you guys watched Sex Education on Netflix? I watch it. It's soooo good! I highly recommend it!