28th July,2018

"Grab and give me that dish, Sana", Ridha ordered as everyone in her family gathered in the dinner.

"Ma, how are you making this chutney? It's too yummy", she commented.

"It's the recipe from your grandma", Nisa credited her mom and she added hastily saying,
"Everytime only one person remain silent in this home without any appreciating his wife, I'm noticing this from I married to your Dad, Hmm, ..."

Ridha and Sana laughed at her mother's sympathetical words.

This chatter is common in Ridha's family, make annoying of the others, teasing with some useful discussion. One will go to Mom's side and other to Dad's side, sometimes, sisters make a team against their parents, most of the time one will be the target for everyone to have fun. She enjoyed and felt bonded with her family. At end of the talk, she silently pray that their happiness should last till Jannah(Heaven) and thank Allah for giving such wonderful family.

"Okay , let's play a dua memory game", Ridha started by suggesting some daily routine duas(prayer) and said the rules to her family like, when she post a word from any one dua, the others should find the complete dua. Everyone nodded and eagered to play, when she started,"Audhu.." before she could complete, Sana hastened to tell, "...billahi minashaytan nirajeem". Ridha offended because she thought of a morning dua, but her sister made her effort more simpler and faster.

Then again she thought of a tough dua and started a dua after adhan, "Allahumma rabba ", her mom completed it soon once Ridha left of no words. And here comes her dad take her role, and said " La ilaaha...",Sana again finished it simple by saying the Kalima. Everyone laughed at her tricky way to end suddenly without thinking and the game continued for a long. Whenever she has fun with her family, she becomes sad for one reason that she wanted Ahmed to be a part of her family's fun time.

She thought of once Ahmed asked for her to bring Islamic guidance to his family after marriage. She always include his family in dua when she is asking for her family too, to attain victory for both the worlds. And she also wanted both their family to go together for hajj or umrah. She also suggested Ahmed to save some money for going Umrah with his parents. He assured her that he will do after paying all his family debts.

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Ridha's Past starts:

"I needed that bunch of balloons, Di", Sana asked Ridha. She went to his one of her class boy and asked to grab that blue and white bunches of balloons, and gave it to her 10 year old sister. It was her school annual day in her 9th grade, on which she was awarded with many prices for class second in academics, got 1st prize in general quiz, runner up in throwball, and got some more prizes , as her cycle basket filled with lot of prizes. She was so happy that night for receiving more prizes and after the national anthem over, whole crowd winded up in that dark night, around 9 pm. She left with her little sister made a move to her house, a kilometer away from her school.

When she found no one on the road, she was little scared, but it gave her happiness when she did cycling with the gifts overflowing in the front baskets and Sana, sitting at the back seat holding those balloons in her two hands. Both enjoyed the night ride on the empty road, street lights made a stunning look on the dark road. After reaching her house, she unpinned her hijab and came outside to dance a little with the darkness to enjoy her victory. When she was done with few rejoicing step, she had feeling that someone watching in distance, passing by her street in a cycle.

When she came near the gate to see any one standing or moving on the empty road, none was walking or moving on the street. It's weird feeling.
Thejavu kind of feeling...

She got that a few days back before his proposal came on her way. When her primary school friend told her , someone was keeping a constant eye on her from a long, she couldn't find anyone when she turned back. That was her sister's school annual day. That day also, she had same kind of feeling. She left the thought, but it increased her heart's eagerness.

After the days went, one night she had gone to masjid by wearing a beautiful dark pink coloured saree, first time she wore it herself. It was one of the odd nights of Ramadhan, so she has been with her mom and little sister, walked towards masjid. To hide her beauty for outside people, she wore open type hijab so that she will not slip while walking and praying, only the fleets of her saree will be shown. She contrastly wore an dark pink colour stole for that black abhaya(cloak like). While entering, he saw some gangsters standing outside the masjid. It was usual to see many young aged boys standing outside to pass time and have fun, instead of going inside masjid and praying for getting that rare and plentiful rewards of the decree full night.

After praying the taraveeh namaz, she came outside with her mom to return home, she caught a person sighing from the opposite end for a long time. She put her head down and moved to her home. Again she got a same feeling, that some one was following till her home that night. But she resisted herself to turn back who was coming behind her, left her home peacefully that night. That same night, she got one blessed feeling from her Rabbu, while she asked many duas at the thahajut time. She could not describe such feeling till now, she assumed that it will be the angels who made their wings to surround her body and hugged her. It was such an amazing moment, she was happy like she got the reward of thousand months, like she attained the reward of the lialathul qadr. She heard in one bayyan that, Allah will descend an angel to every person that night, to count the reward, at the end of the night, if he or she spent on good deeds, the angels will give mushaba( huge hug) while leaving. She thought of that has happened to her. She was happy that night.

Ridha's past ends:
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The tiring day ends when he come to his home with heavy headache, he became too upset to see no one yet came home from work. He knew that his mom and dad was going to very very tiring work multiple times than him. His mother will reach after 7pm and his dad at 8pm. Ahmed didn't want to send her mother to work, but due to the debts, they are working together. He promised her that he will not send her when he gets a little increment in his job. He has a special love for his mother because he always seen her a very responsible wife and very responsible mother and her way of being patience when the two men of the house gets angrier due to outside pressure. Sometimes he will get angry on his dad prioritise himself first than providing needs to her mother. By thinking those, he lied on the empty floor to release out the stress. Soon after her mother came home, he was amazed to see her, going into kitchen and making the dishes for the two men of her life.

Really mother is always the real one; she took away the word 'selfish' from her mind forever because of considering her welfare of the children. Then his headache walks out of the brain when he ate his mom-made dishes with care. Later he went out for praying Isha namaz. While getting out of home, like always irritated by his dad, who was watching TV without sparing a glance to the one who is leading to Allah's house. He frustrated at his dad, by thinking, 'A dad should lead a son to masjid, here it's going vice versa'. He repeatedly called him to masjid for namaz, but most of the time, he will go alone. Sometimes he'll accompany Ahmed to masjid, but it's too rare.

Her photos reminded of the day when he hide himself from her many times to safe gaurd her when she has gone alone at night. He remembered,

When she left their school annual day with her little sister. He followed till her home because there is none on the street. Later he found her come outside and he was happy to see her getting excited for some reasons and passed that way to his home.

And the night , he longed for her to come outside of the masjid. To see her, he came from JJ Nagar to her area and stood outside with the boy's gang. Because he knew, there will be ladies come to masjid for the night prayer. When he waited longtime, after some ladies came out, he just wished that time, 'Ridha should come outside now'. In the blink of an eye, she made her way outside, walking towards her house without even turning to his side. He just thanked Allah to see her when he correctly wish her to see and gone to his area masjid that night with some happiness...

"It's true ,
It's not a hallucination,
It's him and her, felt his presence without a knowing a bit about him.
Her feel of thejavu is true..."