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From this chapter, Ridha's Past will appear as below:
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28th July,2018

As the days passed, she was still affected by the fact that Afeera's patience drove everyone mesmerized. Afeera is so friendly, chatting and making everyone laugh; she stood by Ridha's side when she had more worries that came up in her life. Afeera always acted as a good friend who guides her in an Islamic way. Ridha always saw her happily and she used to crack more jokes during her school days. But now, her way of acting normal and holding patience inner self drove Ridha clueless. Her heart wanted to see her friend happily like first. All she can do is, just talk her and chat her in phone. She is driving to hundred thoughts how to go JJ Nagar and spend a day only with Afeera and Sadhia to enlighten her mood. It was not possible because Ridha's parents knew that Ahmed also stay there in the same area. Her parents still don't know that they are controlling not to see each other for some months. So she left the thoughts to stay in her mind.

Every time she blame herself whenever her parents restrict her to go to JJ Nagar because she knows the mistake was on her side. No one can have such amazing parents as Ridha. Still her heart pains when she thought of her mother's worry to her first child at the teen age itself. She gave lots of worries to them but she wanted to prove them her decision will do well in sha Allah. She asked dua to Allah every time as,
"Ya Allah please make me and Ahmed as a true Islamic couple with your blessings and with our parent's whole hearted submission" in her every prayer, especially in Thahajut, after adhaan, during rain, after Asr namaz of every Jummah, etc....

Her silent prayer for her life will be answered by her Rabbu at such special part of time. She will never miss such occasions to ask dua for her life. She started asking that dua when her heart gives space for the one to reside in.

She received a mail from HCL technologies last week to get ready for the on boarding and it mentions the offer letter will reach the person within three to four weeks. Seeing that, she was happier. Still she is little tensed, because she wanted to work in her hometown and that too with morning shift alone. When she said to Nisa about the mail, " Make dua to Allah let your job be here in Chennai and without night shift, if suppose the case is not favourable to us, you can see some other suitable job".

Really tough to search jobs for a B.E candidate with decent pay in the walk in interviews. She thought and feared whether she'll remain at home without going to work or not, however she stayed positively waiting for her on boarding details.

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Ridha's past starts(seven years ago):

"Do you know, a boy of my class wants to talk to you in person?" said her senior, Shabana, two years older than Ridha. Ridha become stunt at her words, when Sadhia interrupted with excitement,
"Who? Is it anything related that he wants to propose Ridha, sister?"

"Yes Sadhia, convince your friend to talk to him after school over, he told to inform me that he will be waiting in the street of our school backside. He is too eager to talk to her."

Ridha glanced a deadly look at her senior,
"Who is he to meet me? Tell him I'm not ready to meet any person and I don't like all these love things and all"

Shabana convinced Ridha,
" Just tell him what you wish, he will be knowing your decision right as well"

After some time, Ridha with her friend Sadhia left for the afternoon classes. Ridha's mind encircled in many thoughts, she handled two more proposals previously, at her 7th grade itself, so it's not a first thing happening in her life and it's easy way to prove those idiots that it is a mere attractions, but she felt hard that her freedom will be snatched to walk freely in the campus for some days. Finally she decided to settle matters with the unknown and unnamed guy, since she travels by that way to her home. She was brave to handle boys with her hurting and strict words, she even complained to her class teacher for the one who tortures daily during her VII grade. So this was not a big matter to handle.

Later, when she walked on the streets after her school got over, she found a guy staring her from the corner of the street. Sadhia murmured that he was the one who wants to talk to Ridha. She didn't have nervous to talk to the guy who stood opposite to her. She made her way to him, who is standing under a huge tree. She's been to him, not willing to see his face,
"Listen brother. I don't have any idea to fall in love with any person at this young age itself. So make up your mind for everything, don't disturb me again", with that she ended her talk.

When she's about to turn, a male voice reached her ears,
"Whatever you wish, please don't call me as brother, Ridha, it hurts me a lot"

She couldn't understand why he is not knowing what she said earlier. It's like he wants to continue this, but she moved away to her home without even having a second glance. The whole day, she was disturbed by the fact that he was unlikely to the previous two idiots who bothered a lot in her life. His way of approaching is gentle and polite. He just informed his classmate to meet her and he didn't follow her from the school to her home, like the previous idiots did. And he didn't over react and he spoke what he thought, his approach seems little true.

After she left her home, she got reminded that Sadhia was speaking to him something in sisterly tone, that too, with Urdu language. Yes, Sadhia speaks Urdu in her home. Ridha's family is completely Tamil Muslim, so there is not a single chance to accept a guy from Urdu family. Secondly, they are Islamic, and they won't accept any kind of relationship before marriage. As Ridha's thought has gone till marriage, she just thought as if she is going to be together with him in future, even though she didn't know his name.
"Ahmed"
"His name is Ahmed",
Suddenly she got distracted from her thoughts when Sadhia entered her home to pick her for madharsa,
"Are you looking to know his details right?"

"You are my friend. You have to support me. Instead why did you talk to him when I completed my talk for that so called meeting?" Ridha asked.

"Yeah, I'm supporting you and I told him that 'you are too Islamic and she doesn't like love and all, she always wish to be true to her parents, so it is not possible bhaiyya' ", Ridha felt better at her close friend who understands every situation of her life and happily walked to their madharsa. Ridha didn't considered about that much during their first meet and even she believed he will not interrupt her life the other day and enjoyed being single.

Ridha's past ends…
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"Ma, please can I go to meet my college friends and they planned a get together, only us, five. Since our college, we didn't arrange for the farewell itself after receiving all my certificates including TC., So please Ma, I'll go and spend some time and come back", Ridha pleased her mom for meeting her friends for the get-to-gather.

She is not the type of girl who often meet her friends in the shopping mall or in their houses. From her childhood, she asks permission to her for every little thing, even from going to toilet, till selecting a dress, but except for the one thing which still made her mother shocked for her child is taking Ahmed into her life. The reply was negative, her mother told their friends to come to their house and celebrate the farewell.

But their plan is to go to a Mall, to cut cake to compensate their farewell treat, ride in some games of fun city, doing window shopping in random stores over there, munching some snacks and drinks in the food court, filling their gallery with lots of selfies and groupies and finally reaching beach after having lunch in any restaurant. This one day plan sounds too high, so she didn't hope that her mother will allow in any of the above mentioned thing. She informed her friends that she can't come with a desperate tone...

One of the four besties told her to beg her mom, 
the other one told to do more house chores to please her mom,
the other , in an extra ordinary tone, told to lie under her mom's foot till she permit her for the girl's get together....
(Ridha commented the last one is not an Islamic practice though she knew that she was only joking)

Once their conversation ended, she has gone to bed, but she couldn't get sleep because her thought of everything that she did to her mom and dad. Even though her parents are behaving just and showing more care towards Ridha, she doesn't know how to pay for all those things she had done for them.

Suddenly she went to her mom who went asleep; she layed on her hand, and wrapped an arm around her, deeply thinking and the words of her heart showering from inside , hoping that it will reach her mom's heart.. Although knowing that she is in good sleep,

'Mom!!!
It is a three letter magical word to get all sorts of solutions for a problem,
God gave his one part of mercy to us in the form of you,
You are the one whom I will suffer a lot in your absence,
You are the mother of love , care and all sorts of affectionate words, 
You stood by my side when I'm in pain,
You believe me even I did mistakes,
I feel great and comfortable in your arms as like I was in your womb for ten months,
You protected me always,
I need you every minute,
I love you a lot,
I always murmur "I need you, mom" when I was in distance from you, 
You taught me everything right from the first word "Ma",
Feel rightful and energetic to call you "Ma",
You are strict woman outside but sensitive inside, 
I fear to talk to you my secret but I love to share with you everything, 
I'm waiting for the day to share all my pleasures and displeasures in life,
I love you ma, my Ummun(Mother),
Please forgive me for my mistakes which I made you feel, 
I'm waiting for the day when you find my decision is also good for my life, 
I just want you to be with me till my breath ends,
I will  ask Allah to give me energy and  wealth to look after you and dad in sha a Allah,
I know my obedience only matters than my care for you,
I will try my best to please you and that's the easiest way for me to reach Jannah,
Please forgive me Ma for your cries which I made you , 
Love you more, 
Need to see you every morning , 
I will search you every time when I awake from sleep,
Miss you more Ma, 
That's why I'm writing this entire passage in my heart all this time, I have no courage to show you, but feel happy to let out my heart contents.....
I love you Ma....'