Oct 2nd, 2018

"Missing someone madly" a message popped in Ridha's phone screen. Ridha checked the number and thought it is not the Ahmed's number and she knew that he won't message in that way. Then she reacted to that unknown message from unknown number by replying, "Who is this?"

Since half an hour, there is no reply from that number. She just deeply checked and remembered that her sister put her SIM to her phone to check internet connectivity while back. Then she felt an ache in her heart and thought, 'What is this message about?
Whom this message for?
From whom?
Is this for Sana, that too texting in this night time around 10,
Did she is having contact with someone else without my knowledge?' Many thoughts killed her mind and she wanted to ask about it deeply but she believed that her sister won't chat to any guy like this and the thing is she hate love.

She wanted to know whose text is and so she went to Sana to ask whose number is this. By seeing the text and number, Sana who just sat on a couch near balcony, replied, "I don't know whose number is this?"

"Do you really don't know, is this your SIM right?"

"Yes"

"Then????"

"It may be some other person in my contact list, I won't have that much memory in my mind to save all my numbers" Sana neglected her saying.

Ridha doesn't want to move further so she resisted her heart to investigate about the unknown one. Soon After her mind says to her,
'When you're not perfect, Who are you to ask her about her private message?' For a while, she felt a weighness of heavy stone which is been lifted in her heart. She worried that she could not advice her sister like others do. But she really felt for her that Sana has to carry her life without any worries unlike her. She is like her baby, her kid, her child, whatever the names are, she portrayed her as a little one. She loved her more, She always wish that she has to have a life without worries which Ridha had gone through from her young age.

She wanted to protect her from the road street strangers, dirty eyes, cruel people in public transport, and many things what and all troubles she faced in her teen age. Unlike Ridha, Sana seems bold and brave enough to handle these sort of evil things. But to Ridha, she is her little sister. So she has special care for her safety and protection. The saddest thing is that the way Sana will behave to Ridha will be hurting most of the times when Ahmed comes into picture.

That night she worried about her by looking at her, who was happily sleeping without worries. She just put her hand in Sana's head and caressed her and recited a dua from her bottom of the heart to her Rabbu for her well being in both the worlds and soon after, sleep over took her.

The next morning , the two sisters woke up very late because of having their usual deep sleep in every Sunday. The time when the two woke up and after having their morning brunch, Sana noticed the Ridha's way of silence to her. They usually tease and fight and argue like little ones do. But today,  Sana didn't get those looties from her elder sister. So she made a talk when Ridha arranges her shelves,
"Please fold and keep that hijab too, Ridha"

Ridha remained unspoken and she repeated again with raising her voice, "Why are you remaining silent to me? And not at all considering my words"

Ridha didnt matter her words and she just involved in doing her work instead of replying to her sister. Ridha remained silent and unspoken to her lovable sister the whole day. She doesn't know how to enact her worries to her so she just want to tell her pain by her behaviour.

"I won't let you sleep unless you tell me the reason why are you behaving odd to me?"

"I don't want to say any reason, please you go to sleep" Ridha replied her formally,

"No I won't, what makes you to behave to me like this, Ridha", Ridha wanted to spat out all the things that heavies her heart and that is the reason for her lack of words.

"What did I do, tell me Ridha, you are checking my patience?", Sana finally uttered. Ridha didn't see her sister pleading to her for her silence. So Ridha started, "Tell me who texted you???"

"That was the reason, Are you not talking with me this much time, why don't you believe me?" Sana asked with anger tone.

"First tell me who is that one?" Ridha matched her tone.

"Wait let me clear you" she paused and begin, "He is Abdul, my class mate in our old school, Before two to three days he got my contact number and called me, you know him in our school days itself know, and his way of talk with most of the girls will be like that, for that message, you will doubt me like this" Sana expelled her thoughts and tears are flowing from her eyes due to her sister's doubtful question.

'Ya Allah! What I have made this strong girl to get weak, Sorry dear, Really Sorry' Ridha thoughts intruded and Sana rubbed her tears and started speaking to her sister with her crying tone, "Ridha, you are getting worried when your sister get a wrong text from a stranger??? Yes it is right, But when I happen to know that my sister has some affair at my young age, how will I react that time??? Do you know, I lost all the beliefs in you when I get to know about your love? Still I'm hurting you because you broke my belief which I built for my sister" She ended.

Ridha left with no words and she knows that her sister words are really true and it is hurting her and she realised that her sister's pain reflected back after so much years. Really she felt happy that Ridha never saw her sister crying for her, and telling out her feelings for her.

'Did Sana is really loving me???' Many questionary thoughts popping on her mind. By her words, Ridha also cried a lot for hurting her sister a lot. She felt ashamed to make her sister worry for her in her little age.

They spoke, they defend , one defeated the other and finally they convinced by shedding their fresh lovely and caring tears for each other. Then Sana asked about Ahmed, because she was little happy that her sister's love still lasting for seven years unlike more fake love happening in this world.

Ridha got happy about Sana's question about Ahmed and explained how their relationship is and Ahmed's work. Suddenly Sana came up with her curious question, "Why are you delaying to marry when you both got their jobs?"

Ridha didn't expect such question from her little sister because she always hurt her when they both have a conversation with Ahmed. But now Ridha replied happily, "We both have certain plans to achieve before marriage, Ahmed got some debts in his home and he wanted to build a new house like me. And you asked me know, for what purpose I'm earning and saving money. Here the answer is , I have a niyyath that we four want to visit kabah, In sha a Allah...

....Why Sana!!! don't you like to come?" Sana's heart melted because she thought that her sister planned to spend her earning for Ridha's future. When she came to know about Ridha's actual niyyath i.e she wanted to take her family to Meccah, a destined place for every Muslim and for her too. She is also eagered to visit Makkah and Madinah because it is the place where her beloved prophet(SAW) was born and lived. So she just wanted to step her foot in the land of her habib born.

In the middle of night, Ridha asked her that she has one request to her. Sana told her to proceed and she continued, "Insha a Allah, I'll buy you phone when my first salary comes, Actually I thought to buy you mobile surprisingly, but on that night You told to mom that you will become like me if mom doesn't by you smartphone right??? So I wanted you to follow your words, 'If I don't get phone in my college days, I will change like Ridha', It means if I buy you smartphone, you won't become like me, you won't fall in love like me, you won't get hurt by others like me.

You should be like this with brave heart, you don't want to be like me, take me as Ur bad wisher instead of 'well wisher'."

Ridha cried a lot when she uttered her every feelings and thoughts she had from that night because no elder sister wants to be portrayed to their little sister or brother like this but still Sana's words hurted her like anything. Yet Ridha doesn't want her to go in her way and have difficulties like her. Sana left speechless by hearing her pitiful words and she realised how hurtful her words affected her sister. She didn't speak anything that time. Later Ridha diverted the topic and began to talk usually.

Likewise, the two soul sisters had their opinion clarified by conversing lot about their life till 2AM. After Sana slept, Ridha got very much relaxed and satisfied and thanked Allah for knowing the thoughts of her sister about her. She thought that Ridha alone loves her lot and Sana only shown hatred most of the times. But today her view on her little sister triples her happiness and she wanted to tell about how Sana asked about her future Jiju. Ahmed will be more happy than Ridha because Ahmed's little sister is also Sana since Ahmed has only one elder sister.

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Ridha's Past starts:

"Two weeks gone without seeing her", Ahmed worried to Shabana. He is controlling himself not to go infront of her and disturb her unless she understands his love and hoped that she will come to him one day. He is waiting for that one day and he is stubborn not to give up though she neglects him by her attacking words every time.

"Listen Ahmed, I don't think she'll accept you, because whenever I start speaking about you, she'll suddenly change the topic or else she will tell me to advice you. I think she is constant and her close friend Sadhia also told that she won't go against her parents and Islam and Sadhia itself told to convince you, Ahmed. So don't distract your mind by thinking about her all the time and listen , we have our common exams from Monday, I know you didn't even glance your books and not being attentive in class too, so you take care of you till exam over" Shabana ended and went away from their class.

He doesn't know what to do, but he is also being stubborn and she is not giving up anything for him. A little drop of tear fall from his eyes when he thought about her. Really he liked her the way she is, her real style and being the way what she likes. He comes to know that she is not living for the third person by noticing the way she behaves. And he didn't see her without hijab except on that tour, and that day also, she covers the parts what to be covered in front of non Maharam men. And her reason of avoiding Ahmed is really true and it implies that she is not fake and will not allow any fake person to take her life. May be she may react stubborn outside to him, but he finds her heart and he wants to give her time to think and give her hope that he will be forever with her In sha a Allah.

With the thoughts, Ahmed came out of his class and stand beside his class corridor. When he saw many students entering campus in the rush hour, his eyes get caught by the one who entered by the side gate near his building block. He noticed her activities closely and the way she put her bag at her back with her black hijab and her hands casually swinging in the air with the same tone as her legs marches the ground little faster. Suddenly she stopped and bend down to take something. Ahmed thought she may get hurted by some obstacle but soon after she picked that stone from her path and throw it against the side of the wall.

Ahmed's lips curved with honest smile by seeing her action and suddenly she looked at the top and both eyes met for a second. It's really a wow moment for any third person seeing their expression when both of the gaze met from his third floor to her ground floor. Suddenly she lowered and rushed to the steps to reach the opposite block where her class room is.

Ahmed wondered what happened for him in this few minutes because he lean on the corridor with the million of thoughts about her and suddenly she is passing by his sight and how she knows that he is standing in his corridor. 'If this incident which happens a few minutes back is real, then she is mine and nowhere she can escape from me' his thought assured him to wait for her positive reply.

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'How come I thought that someone is looking at me from the top in that large campus?
What make me to raise my head and look into the one who is staring?'
These two questions making her mind to think 'n' no of times and finally she scolded herself for coming by this side gate instead of main gate. She mostly come by side gate when she got late to her school and it is easy and time saving to enter by the side gate instead of entering by the main gate.

Whenever I thought that he is no more into my life, the next second, he is appearing in front of me and saying like 'I'm no more away from you'. When she didn't met him these two weeks, Ridha thought that Ahmed gave up on her like most of the boys do. She saw many guys follow for some months and will give up when they didn't get any sort of reaction from her. She also thought that after her senior's farewell party, his part also over in her life.

But this time , it is not going the way she thinks. That time, after assembly and morning prayer over, all went to their respective classes. Sadhia accompanied her when they get into the class since Ridha is the class leader, she has to stand infront of the line to lead her class to the ground and back to the class. While the class is about to start, Sadhia whispered in Ridha's ears, "Don't you wish Bhaiyya for his common exams that is going to start this Monday". Ridha looked at her in anger tone and added, "You just shut up and please don't remember about him to me anymore"

"Actually Sana is going to have her board exam the next week, so she told me that common exams for XI Grade is day after tomorrow, so I thought to pass this news to you, That's it I want to tell you, okay you carry on your day dreaming" Sadhia teased her with sheepish smile. Sadhia has one elder sister, Sana and one younger brother, Irfan. Sadhia and Ridha's sisters name are same. Like this, they experienced many similarities which goes same in their life.

After a while, by seeing Ridha's sad face, Sadhia apologized her for teasing. Ridha made sad expression on her face and started to expel her worries, "It's okay Sadhia but I'm really worried and feeling bad for Ahmed. Though I told him clearly, he is not leaving me. Though he is away from me for few days, suddenly some thing makes us to see each other. I don't know why I am getting into his sight or why he is getting into my sight. Really I m very young and still I'm teen , we couldn't know whether this relation will go till marriage or stop in the middle. The main thing is my parents and Islam, I don't want to go against this both things in my life. But the other side , I'm feeling weird about the natural meetings. Unlike many other boys, he is behaving different, he is respecting girls , their feelings, and I'm little worried that he has not to feel about this kind of affair and need to concentrate in his life. Please Sadhia, Don't tease me with him, From morning, when I saw him, my mind is confused till now, could you please say something to divert from this disturbing thought."

"I don't get the point why are you feeling for Ahmed Bhaiyya, you are behaving rude when he comes to speak in front of you. But now you are speaking like you are caring him, Is there any special feelings for him?" Sadhia put out her thoughts. "Hey, it's not like that reee!!! I had experienced many tortures from guys from the age I attained maturity. But I didn't experience a single torture from Ahmed except mental torture, he is polite and kind and giving some space to me and the main thing I like in him is, he won't even follow me on this 10 months. This act remembers me of Allah's creation of Adam and Huwa(As)...

He didn't create women from Men's head to let women empower men,

He didn't create women from Men's foot to let Men dominate women,

But He created women from Men's rib to let them treat equally....

I am feeling that he is true in his proposal and genuine but he is worrying and he doesn't get any one to guide him Islamically, that's why he is not getting my point why I am avoiding him. But I behave rudely only because he has to move away from me and need to concentrate in his life. I feel sad when I look into his eyes every time, Sadhia. This is a kind of care a Muslim do to other Muslim. There is nothing beyond that, Make dua that he should move away from me" Ridha explained her view on Ahmed.

Then they chatted for the long and Afeera was being so attentive to the social class but this two notorious girls conversed beyond the studies.

After having their lunch at class, they came down to the wudhu area. That time they got a news that tap is not working in the Girl's area and they all are instructed to go Men's Area. They find boys crowd over the men's wudhu area. So they waited by the side to let boys finishes their ablution. When everyone finishes, the girls occupied the tap to do ablution, Ridha find a place where one little kid is washing his hands very slowly. She waited to let him complete and she went to occupy the seat and removed the shocks and scarf and folded her full sleeves till her elbow and started to do the ablution with 'bismillah(In the name of Allah)'.

Every girls of her class completed doing their ablution in the mean time and left her alone doing in that men's area without noticing her. After knowing her friends were left, she urged to do before someone arrives and finished her ablution. When she stood up and turned right to move to the prayer hall, she saw Ahmed doing wudhu , by sitting on the seat next to her. His hands exposed to lots of hairs and he is about to take his hairy legs to shower in the water flowing from the tap. Ridha doesn't know how to react but this time he didn't look at her. She thought he might not be noticed her doing wudhu this much time. So she left soon from the place still thinking of the times they are meeting one another without knowledge.

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'How she is doing wudhu in this men section? Why her friends gone leaving her alone? Whatever... Masha Allah her way of doing wudhu is so cute...' his thoughts broke when he came to know how she'll react if he stare at her in this way. Suddenly he behaved like he didn't notice her. But he felt happy when this only two sit on the same row leaving a single seat in between them. He gets excited at the thought that it will be routine scene once they get married. Then he made his way to prayer hall to do his Zuhar namaz.

Two days gone, the first exam is yet to start within 2 hours. Their exam is on noon time , that too exam center is in another school nearby. So everyone of Ahmed's class gathered near the school van to departure. He wanted to see her before leaving for the centre. So he is searching for her near the ablution area, her corridor and look over his surroundings to find her. But he end up when his van started. He got upset for not seeing her from the morning in this school campus. Finally she met up with her class girls making their way to prayer hall after completing their ablution. But in that gang of 10, he couldn't find her. His eyes get jelled up and he is noticing that one girl is hiding herself behind the gang and going with Sadia. Ahmed guessed it will be her. But he could not see her face.

"Ahmed, Get inside , it's time to leave" one of his friend told him and Ahmed entered into the van. He looked through the window and he found only the eyes of the girl was shown and her body was hidden by the pillar. He has gone to write exam with half minded and empty hearted.

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From the day, Sadia told that Ahmed has his common exam, Ridha worried whether he will concentrate on his exams seriously because this result is important to decide for the next grade. So she made dua that he has to concentrate on his subjects and he has to perform well in all exams. She came to know that her school van is yet to leave with the IX grade students. So she made her wudhu soon and thought to see him without his knowledge.

Later she found him on the ground near the van when everyone were inside the vehicle except him. And he is searching for some person and suddenly one guy called him from the van and he entered soon. When she saw that Ahmed's eyes fall on her, she quickly hided near the pillar to ensure that he should not see him. After van left the campus, she let her out from the pillar and recited a dua,

'Ya Allah!, Give him safety throughout his journey and to everyone inside the vehicle,
And give him more physical and mental power to write his exams well'

Ridha's Past ends...

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"Assalamu alaikum, Why aren't you coming online till now?"

"Or did u got heavy work today? Did you return home from office?"

"Ah'med??????"
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"You there???"

Ahmed surprised to see Ridha's text from 9pm. Usually they alloted one day in a week to chat for about an hour and it's on every Saturday night. But this week, Ahmed got late to home that night because he went for outing with his masjid friends. After seeing her lots of texts in his phone, he was little delighted and quickly responded to her.

"Wa alaikum salam, Sorry dear for coming late to online" - Ahmed

"It's okay, I was little worried because I thought you were outside and probably you'll be having your office work right???, So I thought not to disturb you by calling" - Ridha

" Yeah, I'm outside. But I came from office at 8 itself and some of my friends forced me to come for watching movie in nearby theatre. So I went there with the them" - Ahmed

Despite she is online, Ahmed expected her text. He didn't get her texts from her side for few minutes. Ahmed couldn't wait for her reply , so he typed,

"Ridha??? Why are you not texting despite being online???" - Ahmed

"Nothing, I think you will be tired , so you go and have your dinner and sleep well"
"Fee amanullah, bye" - Ridha

"What are you thinking? Today is Saturday, it's our routine habit to have some lengthy conversation than the other days know, Why are you doing like this???" - Ahmed

"You will be tired since you are outside for long hours, So it's better for you to sleep early, Bye" - Ridha

Ahmed irritated by Ridha's avoidance and he knows the reason why she is avoiding him. Till 1 A.M, he waited for her to come online, but she didn't come. Ahmed had a habit of watching movie once in a week, that too on Saturday night. He just wants to enlighten his temper and tiredness and need to have some relaxation. He will usually watch at home every Saturday. Ridha doesn't impose rules that much to him so she remained silent because she doesn't like him to watch movie once in a week too.

But this time , it increased her anger when she came to know that Ahmed went theatre to watch movie. She doesn't like the one who is being to theatre. Ahmed gave a word that he won't go theatre during their school days. But when he joined his P.G , he started to go twice or thrice in a year.

Ridha worried a lot about his sudden change from the schooldays to nowadays. But she put her trust to Allah to give them a straight path. Ahmed's point of view is acceptable sometimes because he restricted most of the things which is against Islam. He couldn't control or avoid totally and he doesn't want to do for the sake of his love. He just wants to avoid for the sake of Allah.

He had a picture in his mind for their future life that they have to spend some time alone watching movie at night during weekends and have some fun together. But Ridha's thought is total opposite to him. She had many things to take their relationship more closer to Allah. She also like to entertain more with Ahmed but she was clear in her thought that their entertainment should not entertain the path to Jahanam.

They have their thoughts on the different track of life,

But their hearts are sailing in the same wreck of love....

Will they land in the common ground In sha a Allah????