Liam's Pov

Nighttime arrived faster than I expected.

After the doctor cleared me Porsche and Chay took me back to my room.

After getting dressed and getting into bed my brothers hugged me and bid me goodbye before leaving to their own rooms to sleep.

When they were gone a sigh escaped my lips as I rested my head against my pillow.

I heard a door open and turned to see Pravat coming out of our shared bathroom while drying his hair.

When he saw me he looked surprise, he probably thought I would be in the infirmary the entire day.

"Oh, hey. I didn't know you were here" Pravat said.

"I just got here. My brothers brought me here before leaving" I told him.

Pravat nodded as he set his towel down on his chair.

"How are you feeling?" Pravat asked.

"I'm fine" I shrugged.

"Are you sure? Because last I checked fainting when having a panic attack is concerning" Pravat asked.

I sighed and felt a little annoyance building up inside of me.

"I swear to god I hate when the bodyguards gossip in this damn compound over one simple thing" I huffed.

"First, we gossip because it's fun. Second, how do you expect them not to gossip when you literally fainted in front of the compound because of your panic attack?" Pravat asked.

"I'm fine, nothing serious happened" I sighed.

"You fainted, Liam" Pravat reminded me.

"Nothing deadly happened" I corrected with a roll of my eyes.

They're acting like I could've died because of a panic attack.

Panic attacks do things to you and they're definitely scary but they don't kill you.

"You still freaked everyone out. Especially Big and Ken since they were the ones that witnessed it all and didn't know what to do" Pravat said.

I frowned at that, feeling guilty.

Big and Ken obviously haven't experience or dealt with panic attacks before.

And the fact that I literally had one with them present made me feel bad.

Considering that they still did their best to help me even if they didn't know what to do.

Pravat sighed and grabbed a chair and pulled it over so that it was near my bed.

He sat down on the chair, clasping his hands together while placing them on his lap, and looked at me.

"Care to tell me what caused you to have a panic attack?" Pravat asked.

Do I really have to tell him?

I already told my brothers, do I really have to tell my roommate/friend?

Just before I could say anything the door to our room suddenly opened.

Pravat and I jumped, clearly startled, and turned around to see who it was.

And to our relief it was Tankhun.

"Jesus, man. Give us a warning next time" Pravat breathed out, a hand on his chest.

"Yeah, yeah, sorry" Tankhun waved him off.

He quickly closed the door, making sure it was locked so that nobody would come inside, and jogged over to us.

He climbed into my bed and gently cupped his face with his hands.

"I heard from Pol and Arm about what happened. Are you alright?" Tankhun asked.

My heart fluttered at his concern and a smile appeared on my face.

I leaned into his touch and my hands made their way onto his shoulders.

"I'm fine, darling. Nothing I couldn't handle" I reassured him.

Really, panic attacks are nothing.

Although I never thought I would get them again, they aren't anything I can't handle.

Today doesn't count though.

"Are you sure? Do you need anything? Water? Food?" Tankhun asked.

I laughed softly and shook my head.

"I'm sure, darling. And I don't need anything but my lovely boyfriend by my side" I smiled.

"Wow, what am I? Chopped liver?" Pravat sarcastically asked.

I ignored him.

Tankhun let out a sigh before leaning in to give me a soft peck on the forehead.

"Just as long as you're alright that's all that matters to me" Tankhun softly said.

I smiled at him and nodded.

Tankhun caressed the sides of my face with his hands as he leaned in to kiss me.

I hummed in delight and began to kiss him back.

I could hear a faint groan of annoyance coming from Pravat but I decided to just ignore him.

Tankhun and I kissed for a bit before pulling away to catch our breaths.

We looked at each other and smiled, nothing but adoration in our eyes.

Tankhun sighed and pulled his hands away from my face and looked at me with concern.

"What happened? Why did you have a panic attack in the first place?" Tankhun softly asked.

"That's what I want to know as well" Pravat nodded.

The two of them looked at me, clearly waiting for me to answer.

I sighed but just decided to tell them since I knew one way or another they were going to find out.

"I'm going to tell you guys the truth because I sort of lied to Porsche and Chay" I said.

"What do you mean?" Pravat asked.

"They asked me about my panic attack, like when they started. I told them that it started after the death of our parents" I said.

"And that was a lie?" Tankhun asked.

"It was half the truth. Because I really did begin to get panic attacks when my parents, my real ones, died back in my world" I said.

"Ok, but what caused you to have one today?" Pravat asked.

I sighed and looked down at my hands that were resting on my lap.

"Do you guys remember that I died in a car accident and that's how I got here?" I asked.

Pravat and Tankhun nodded.

"Well, when Big, Ken and I were coming back to the compound after finishing our errands we almost got into an accident. We were all fine but it reminded me of the accident I had and...it just scared the hell out of me" I explained.

Especially with the way the car jolted and the fact that a truck almost crashed into us.

It's literally a reminder of what happened to me.

And the fear that I would get into another accident and maybe, just maybe, I really wouldn't have survived.

I looked at Pravat and Tankhun and saw that they were staring at me in shock and sympathy.

"Oh, darling" Tankhun frowned.

He scooted closer to my side and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into his side.

A sigh of content escaped my lips as I leaned into his side.

"Well, that makes sense" Pravat softly said.

"Tell me about it" I muttered.

"Well, you don't have to worry about that. You're here, safe and unharmed and that's all that matters" Tankhun softly said.

I smiled at his words and nodded.

Because he's right.

Yes, it was scary thinking that I might get into another car accident.

But what matters is that nothing happened and that I'm here and I'm safe.

And I'm grateful for that, I really am.

"Liam" Pravat said.

"Hm?" I asked, turning my head to look at him.

"What happened to your parents the day they died?" Pravat asked.

My eyes widened at that and I stiffened at his words.

Tankhun frowned at my reaction and whipped his head to glare at Pravat.

"Pravat" Tankhun warned.

Pravat raised his hands in surrender.

"I'm sorry, I'm just curious. He doesn't really talk about his parents, let alone how they died" Pravat defended.

I fiddled with my fingers at his words.

He has a point, but how does he expect me to talk about my parents?

I loved them, I still do and I always will, and I miss them more than anything.

But I don't want to talk about them because I'll just be reminded of how I lost them in the first place.

"Because it's a sensitive topic and he probably doesn't want to talk about it" Tankhun told him.

Pravat frowned before he began to realize that my boyfriend had a point.

Not only that but he began to realize how wrong it sounded to ask me a question like that.

"You're right, Tankhun" Pravat sighed.

He then looked at me guiltily and said, "I'm sorry Liam. You don't have to tell us anything, especially if you're not comfortable".

Tankhun nodded, gently running his fingers through my hair.

A small smile appeared on my face as I looked at my friend.

"It's alright, Pravat" I reassured him.

A sigh escaped my lips as I slowly stopped fiddling with my fingers.

"And if you really want to know about how my parents died I don't mind telling you" I said.

Both my friend and my boyfriend looked shocked at that.

They glanced at each other before looking back at me.

"Honey, are you sure? You don't have to if you don't want to" Tankhun softly said.

"Yeah, don't force yourself to tell us something you don't want to" Pravat added.

I smiled reassuringly at them and nodded.

"It's fine, I promise" I said.

And at some point they were going to find out.

Might as well get it over with now than later.

Pravat and Tankhun nodded, patiently waiting for me to start.

I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths, trying to prepare myself.

When I felt calm and ready I reopened my eyes and began the story.

"It happened just five months after my fifteenth birthday. My parents were off from work and I didn't have school so the three of us decided to spend the day together as a family. We went to the movies, went to a nice restaurant to eat and walked around the park before heading home. It was just a fun day for the three of us" I said.

If only I had known what the outcome of that fun day would turn out.

"When my parents and I were driving home I got a call from Jack asking if I could help him study for an upcoming test he had. My parents dropped me off at his house and told me that they would pick me up in a few hours before leaving" I added.

I kick myself for letting them leave.

I kick myself for not getting them to stay with me.

Maybe if I had done something to get them to stay, their deaths could've been prevented.

"When I was done helping Jack studying I waited at his house for my parents to arrive but they never came. I grew worried and tried calling them but neither my mom or my dad answered. That was something that worried me more because something about my parents is that they always answered my calls. It doesn't matter if they were busy or not, they always answer whenever I call" I explained.

I'm not lying when I say that.

My dad could been in an important meeting and he would still pick up my calls.

The same goes for my mom.

After all, my parents always told me that I was their number one priority.

"When I decided to walk home Jack came with me since he didn't want me walking alone. The walk wasn't that long, considering I didn't live too far from where Jack lives, and when we got to my place we saw that tons of cop cars along with an ambulance truck. Fear consumed me and I broke into a sprint with Jack following behind me. I remember tons of officers trying to stop me, questions being thrown at me, but I ignored them and sprinted inside my house" I explained.

My jaw clenched and I could feel my left hand slowly curling into a fist.

"When I got inside I saw that my living room was a complete mess. Tons of things were broken or smashed. Then I heard people in the kitchen and I sprinted there, expecting to see my parents, but instead I saw two white sheets on the ground covering something" I explained.

I could hear Pravat and Tankhun's breath hitching.

I could only guess that they know where this was going.

"I remember officers and paramedics trying to stop me from removing the sheets but I ignored them and removed the sheets. And..." I trailed off.

Tears were beginning to build up in my eyes.

But I didn't let them fall, I didn't want them to.

"There I saw my parents lying on the ground, covered in blood, without life in their eyes. They were dead" I revealed.

The tears that had been building up in my eyes were beginning to stream down my face.

"My mom was shot three times in the chest, she died from bleeding out. My dad was shot in the forehead, he died instantly" I choked out.

A sob escaped my lips and my tears were beginning to stream faster down my face.

Tankhun, realizing I was about to break, scooted closer to me pulled me into a tight hug.

Pravat got up from his chair and sat down on the bed with us and joined in on the hug.

That's what broke me.

More tears streamed down my face as I wrapped my arms around the ones hugging me and cried.

"I tried to wake them up. I shook them as hard as I could, yelled as loud as I could, screamed until my throat hurt but nothing worked. They wouldn't wake up no matter how hard I tried" I sobbed.

I'll always remember the looks of pity I was getting from the officers and the paramedics.

I'll always remember the officers that tried to comfort me and get me out of the house but I shoved them away.

I'll always remember grabbing onto the bodies of my parents and hugging them close to me, not wanting to let either of them go.

How could I let them go?

How could I accept the fact that they were gone and never coming back?

Tankhun kissed me softly on the head while rubbing my back up and down comfortingly.

"Shhh, shhh, it's alright. It's alright, darling" Tankhun whispered.

Pravat placed his hand on my shoulder and gave it a comforting squeeze.

"We're here, bud. We're here, just let it out" Pravat whispered.

I didn't say anything.

I mean, what could I even say when there wasn't anything to be said?

I just buried myself deeper into their embrace and cried harder while sobbing.

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Hey, guys! How are you all doing?

I hope you all enjoyed the double update I did for this book today.

We finally learn what happened to Liam's parents the day they died, what did you think?

Well, I hope to see you guys in the next chapter. Bye!