xv. berceuse

jihoon intertwines his fingers with soonyoung's.

knowing that the younger is going to be leaving tomorrow, the two boys decided to spend the whole day together. not that it's anything new. honestly, they're inseparable. after hours of giggling and playing around, they go to the roof of soonyoung's house to sit in silence and watch the night fall, to catch a quick glimpse of the sunset. blended orange, red and pink beautifully painted across the sky as it kisses the sun goodbye.

soonyoung places a flower behind jihoon's ear.

the latter already told him multiple times that he's only going away for a few weeks, but soonyoung still wonders if he could live for that long without being able to kiss jihoon or hold him close. at first, he didn't want to believe that he's really in love with the boy, so he would always tell himself that maybe it's just because they're always together. and now he's at the point where he realizes that he can't let jihoon go. maybe people do realize how much they love someone when they're about to leave.

jihoon wraps his arms around soonyoung and snuggles closer to his chest.

he couldn't hear anything but he's okay with it. he's more than happy to be able to feel the slow rise and fall of soonyoung's chest as he breathes. he doesn't need to hear anything from soonyoung to make sure that he's perfect for him. the boy could already comfort and tell him he loves him without ever opening his mouth. and because of this, jihoon swears he's falling fast for soonyoung, maybe a little too fast, but the speed doesn't really matter at this case. fast or slow, soonyoung will be there to catch him before he reaches the pavement.

soonyoung rests his hand below jihoon's ear

god, he's so beautiful, soonyoung tells himself as his thumb moves up and down jihoon's cheek. they stare lovingly at each other for a few more seconds before soonyoung moves to close the gap. jihoon closes his eyes and feels the boy's lips press against his.

soonyoung kissed jihoon and the world fell away. only the stars know how long the younger has been waiting for this to happen, so he allows himself to slowly melt into soonyoung. and they both love it. soonyoung feels his whole body weaken when the other starts to hold him tighter, increasing the burning tension with every passing second. even more when he leaves soft kisses up and down jihoon's neck before going back to his lips and then pulling away. soonyoung knows where this would all go, so he stops right before they're both unable to control themselves.

jihoon leans in, his forehead resting against soonyoung's.

soonyoung chuckles, "we're at the rooftop. you wouldn't want others seeing us do something in here would you?" jihoon could only understand a few words but he did get the idea right away, so his cheeks start to flush in embarrassment. a few shaky breaths escape their lips before the smaller whispers, "i love you, when i'm back, things are going to be so much better for us."

soonyoung closes his eyes as jihoon hums a sweet tune. dark colors slowly go over the blended hues, and jihoon leans in to kiss soonyoung goodbye as the sun says goodnight.

around dawn, soonyoung finds himself walking alone to school.

he keeps his eyes set on the blue sky as the cold breeze runs through his skin. and when he reaches the school, he decides to go straight to the music room where he sees a paper with a bunch of notes written on it. filled with curiosity, he sits in front of the piano and attempts to play the notes one by one, until he realizes that it's the same tune that jihoon likes to hum. the piece stops at as if it's left unfinished on purpose so soonyoung could go add something to it.

and of course, he decides to continue.

"soonyoung! i've been looking all around for you," junhui enters the room and places his bag down on the piano. "i have news for you, buddy. we need a special performance for our professor because apparently, he's about to get married or something and will be quitting soon. it's going to be our thank you-slash-congratulatory stuff for him."

when soonyoung raises his brows, jun laughs.

"bro, you're playing the piano for that, not me."

the younger's jaw drops, "what!?"

"hey, the other club members agreed. i already told mister jung that i will be coming a bit late cause i have a quick errand that day. so hmm, who else can play the piano well?" junhui tilts his head, "that's right, it's kwon soonyoung."

"solo? come on, i can't do that. and what will i even play? i have nothing."

"you already have a piece right there, you little rascal. just do it for me, please? i still have to pick minghao up somewhere before going to the venue so he could watch us perform. please, soonyoung?"

soonyoung looks down on the paper in front of him and sighs, "fine. you owe me."

"of course. i'll see you later at practice okay?" junhui gives his friend a high five then walks off. but he suddenly stops midway and turns, "where's your boyfriend by the way?"

"jihoon?" soonyoung asks then gives jun a small smile, "he's not going to school today."

"ah, i see. hug him for me when you see him later!"

huh, i wish i could, soonyoung muses

AUTHOR'S NOTE
hey guys im really sad
so this sucks! aaa