Chapter 17 (Fida POV)

{Not edited} (WARNING)

Present continuation of ch14

My insecurities. A full blown mental breakdown happened out of nowhere. This is what Irfan told me. And he said that I was bottling up all the negative thoughts I had as of our marriage and bursted into breakdown few days after our marriage.

"I was so scared back then. It was in the middle of the night. We weren't even fighting. Suddenly you wake up from the bed and said 'we are married. You married me? How?' You asked me why I married you? And start crying. I thought I forced you into this but few minutes later you explained you had break down before and that you just had to let it out. But I understood nothing. I was so lost. As you slowed down you fall back asleep due to exhaustion." Irfan gave me a explanation.

"I know it's a lot to take in. But you know what? I'm not going to force you into moving in with me. Take your time. I can help you remember stuffs as we come across a situation or something." He continued.

"Why are you helping me now? Why can't you reach out to me earlier? Did you even try? We didn't actually had a huge fight or something right? Then why are you so concern right now?" I asked him.

This is a lot to take in. How come he knows about my breakdowns? Maybe from my friends. I don't know how I'm going to keep pretending that I trust him.

"Like I said before I wasn't well either. I have to take care of myself first before reaching out to you. But now that I'm here I want to help you. In whatever way possible." He answered.

 "Does it sound like sugarcoating? what are you trying to do? how am I suppose to believe that?" 

"I was in the same car as you are. Of course I wasn't badly injured as you but I still had some bruises and was traumatized. so I had to recover first. And you clearly said you don't want to see me when I visited you. Doctor advised me to get well and not to tell you anything as sudden information can damage your brain. You think I want that to happen to you? Ok you know what? folow me to my place I can prove it with my medical conditions."

I processed what he said for a moment. Is he telling the truth? should I follow him? what if he planned to kidnap and hide me there? Don't be so stupid Fida. Why are you keep denying and acting up? My inner voice warned me.

"I'll think about it. For now let me sleep."

"Fine and I can never separate you from your sleep." He smiled and left the room.

Feeling somewhat proud of myself I went back to my wonderland.

*after lunch*

"Ya Allah I'm sleeping too much." I sighed loudly.

"You don't say." Irfan murmured.

I gave him a pointed look and continued.

"I mean these medicines make me sleep too much for my own good." I whined.

"Well whining won't help. Does it?" Irfan questioned.

"What you want me to do then?"

He just stared back at me.

Am I supposed to know what he is hinting on? Ugh this mind game giving me headache.

"Ah come on. We literally talked about it in the morning." He said.

"Oh ya. You want to go now?" I asked him.

"Yes. The sooner the better."

"Fine. I'll go get ready."

"So you are coming?"

I just ignored him and went to my room to change.

*few minutes later*

"Let's go. The ride is going to take an hour or so. Depending on the weather and traffic." He informed me.

"My parents aren't joining us?" I asked him.

"Your parents are busy. They said they might drop by in the evening." He replied.

We arrived at his apartment. It was located somewhere in the central. And the place is buzzing.

"Its been long since I came here so it might be dusty." He said as he entered the place.

I nodded and went inside. The place was normal with minimal furnitures and his stuffs lying around. He picked up some as he walk past it.

"Want anything to drink?" He asked.

"Ya just water." I replied.

As he went to the kitchen, I began to rome around. The apartment has a living room, kitchen and a room with attached bathroom. Enough for a single person I guess. I felt stuffy so I removed my hijab and under band. Then I wear the hijab loosely. I was in the room so I put the pins on the nearby table and wash up my face. I'm feeling sleepy still and it won't be good when he is explaining some important stuff.

"Fida, here drink some water." He called out.

"Yeah coming." I shouted back searching for a towel.

I went out to see Irfan digging through his cupboard.

I took the water on the table, went to sit on the bed and started drinking.

"Ah here it is." He said as he took out some papers.

He walked over to me and handed them one by one. He showed all the records he have from the time of accident.

"I personally asked for the copies. Just to be sure and I was moving here. So ya." He added.

I just looked at everything and handed them back to him.

"Still not believing?" He asked in a low tone.

I sat there blankly. What do I say?

"Okay. Tell me something about me that no one else knows. At least it can help me to progress from this situation." I said.

"Okay, your favourite colour is green." He stated.

"Lame. Everyone knows that."

"You have a lot of celebrity crushes."

"You might get that from my old diary. Next."

"Um you love for sleep is irreplaceable."

"Ya that's obvious. Oh come on you only know the basics. What everyone else know about it too. Are you sure you were even married to me?" I asked him.

"Oh you are challenging me uh? You want me to tell you details is it? Game in then." He said as he marched nearer to me.

He pulled me closer to him. His hand went behind my back.

"You have a sensitive part right here." He said as he circled his finger near the bottom of my spine.

He lifted my face to face him. I stared at his eyes as he continued.

"You start to kiss with your bottom lip." He said as he brushed my bottom lip with his other hand. "You like to French kiss even though you say you don't like it."

I continued to stare at him dumbfounded.

"And I can never forget this lines. That are 'intimacy in life doesn't just have to do with intercourse. For me I love the simple cuddles and kisses. And stay close together.' The lines were random but one of best things I ever heard and will never forgot. So my lady, do you want me to say more or?" He trailed off with a smile on his face.

I didn't know what came into me, I just pulled him down and kissed him hard.

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One year passed by since I started this book.

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