'Naina..... Please come back soon baby, I am waiting for you'  I could hear someone pleading me to wake up. I could feel the love in that voice and there was a bit of helplessness too in it. And after some time I heard my mom crying and my dad trying his level best in consoling her., oh god they are here and how am i going face my mom. I don't know why is she crying....is that for me...is she crying for me. Oh yes.....yes Off course she is crying for me. I so wanted to wake up and tell her that i am very much fine but every time I try to get up or at least try to move my limbs, I couldn't happen to move them.....i feel as if I don't have any ounce of energy left in me. I feel so damn weak and slowly again I slip back into deep darkness. .
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After a big battle with my inner self, i felt that all the cells in my body had regained their lost energy and that's when i slowly arouse from my deep god knows what and felt like my body to be all light. I slowly opened my eyes only to close them back immediately for the reason of the sunlight streaming all through the window panes and my eyes being too sensitive i couldn't adjust my vision with the bright morning light.

 When I opened my eyes again the first thing I saw was shlok lying on the bed just opposite to me and for an instant i felt at ease seeing him all good and healthy. His face is directed towards me and I had a great urge to call him and look into his deep dark eyes but unfortunately i didn't have the heart to disturb his sleep. He appears to be soo weak, his beard has grown indicating that he didn't shave in days and those dark circles under his eyes are not too difficult to be noticed. His face lost the charm which he usually carry but who could refuse that he is still one of the handsome man. I got a sudden urge to trace my fingers on his face to feel his thick features and to get lost around him, to inhale in muscular body scent, oh god why do i love him soo much.

With all these weird emotions running in me, I felt my throat to be dried out and tried to reach the water jug placed on the side table. I was about to grab it but in a blink of a second it got slipped out of my hands shattering into pieces. Shlok was jolted awake by the cracking sound of the glass. He had a tensed expression playing on his face, immediately his eyes landed on me and they got widened indicating his surprise seeing me wide awake. He rubbed his eyes for a second and looked towards me again as if he couldn't believe what he is seeing or else making sure of what he is just witnessing.

His eyes showed a turmoil of emotions, he looks too different at this moment cause he had never been this open about his emotions in front of me, where he actually had a neutral expression always around me cause of his trust issues as he might have thought I would use them against him. He took his time as paced towards my bed with his gaze solely on me all the time, an unknown blush crept its way to my cheeks as the nervousness built in me. Slowly he cupped my face with the both of his hands ever so smoothly as if I were made of a glass.

"God I thought it was a dream for a second.....how do you feel now, are you okay? do you feel pain anywhere?" his voice full was of concern and the fact the its was for me is too difficult to believe. These new born actions of him is making my heart to do somersault "I just feel my head to be heavy and everything else is fine" I replied politely. "wait let me call the doctor" before me objecting his decision he clicked the button next to my bed.

"I am good....u don't really have to do that" I stated my opinion. "No, you just came back from an induced coma and the doctor needs to check Your vitals "what the hell, was i in coma. Before me asking what really happened that day, a doctor along with two nurses barked into the room  leaving no chance for me to speak any further .

"Hello Mrs Agnihotri, how are you feeling now?" the doctor asked me with bright smile playing on his face and he appears to be in his mid thirties cause his not soo young features. "I am good, thank you". He checked my vitals and took some blood samples of mine and left the room saying something to shlok who just responded with a nod.

As soon as the doctor left shlok came next to me and sat beside my hip. "Hy...You need to eat something now, I just don't feel like seeing you with all those salines anymore. You have to start building your strength again" I just nodded my head accepting whatever he said. The next second a nurse came with a food tray. Shlok slowly lifted me and leveled my bed so I can be in a sitting position. As soon as i sat leaning on to the headrest of the bed i felt some sting on my lower stomach and I hissed a bit with pain.

"hy, you OK. Is it paining soo much" but all I can think now is why am i feeling a pain in my abdomen, is my baby ok. I guess may be because of the stab. "shlok why am i having a pain in my lower stomach?  Is everything with me OK? Ho... How is m.. my baby" I stammered as my anxiety grew.

He lovingly cupped my cheeks in his hands and said "Everything is fine baby....you just have to get better and for that you have to eat. Can you please do that for me" I can see that in his eyes that he is struggling about something but his words says another story. Before me speaking anything else he bought a spoon full of soup towards my mouth and fed me patiently.

I had the vegetable soup which tastes really good but it felt too awkward as he is not at all ready to let me eat myself. I protested at first but didn't had a much of an options other than to succumb by his decision. He fed me the whole meal by himself, its probably the first time he ever fed me. The nurse left the room after giving me some medicines and asking me to take rest but sleep is no where near to me all I wanted now is to speak to shlok.

"shlok, please tell me what's wrong. I don't feel like everything is alright. I took his hand in mine and pleaded him through my eyes. Tears formed in his eyes and next second I was engulfed by him and this action of him gave a way for more doubts to grew in my head.

" shlok, is my baby fine". "nai... " I cut him off before he finish whatever he is trying to say. " yes or no shlok" I deadpanned him leaving no room for him to escape, I was literally praying inside that he should say yes but the answer I got from him had totally shattered me.

"by the time we got you to the hospital, you lost a lot of blood and doctors were soo reluctant that they should abort the child if they have to save you.... I am sorry everything happened because of me.................
.............." I didn't pay any attention to whatever he is saying. All that, that is running in my mind is that my baby is no more. All those dreams that I have seen with my baby can never come true now. I feel soo suffocated and the pain in my abdomen is making me to realize what beautiful thing I have lost and I felt like throwing up. I gripped the clothe which is covering my heart for a second to soothe the pain shooting from it. I felt the whole world around me is crumpling down. I wanted to scream but nothing came out of my mouth. I could not speak, only one chant is running inside me that is 'my baby is no more, my baby is no more, my baby is no morrrreeee'

I felt someone is shaking me hysterically, I can see tears falling from shlok's eyes too. I guess this is the first time i have ever seen him crying. But at this moment I am soo drowned in my own misery that i actually am not capable of caring about his. I cried, I cried for my fate, for my baby who deserved a life on the face of this earth with a wonderful future but couldn't because of his or her mother's doing he or she is no more now. "oh God, why did you do this to me. What my baby had done?  he is just an innocent one in all these. Whyyyy" I started screaming.

Shlok tried consoling me but i am in no shape to listen to whatever he is trying to say. everything has gone, my baby has gone, my dreams for a happy family has gone. Everything feels so out of place now and what am i doing here without my baby. And what kind of a mother am i, how can i leave my little kid alone out there. Probably i should go and accompany he or she, yes i need to go to my baby......