Naina's pov :

"After quieting my job, I have been a bit free from the accusations of shlok that i am leaking all the information of his company to someone whom i don't even know. He sometimes comes home all good and act like a sweetest husband living on this planet and other times the complete opposite, he comes as a beast....ready to kill whoever comes in his way. I feel like he is not one person in fact two, cause how can a person change his character from one to another in seconds. 

Its almost been six months of our marriage, as days passes by i am loosing my hopes on living a happy life with my husband. Whenever i see him being happy with me and also complementing my hand made food, i feel something good is going to happen to our lives and its going to change my nightmare of a life to something beautiful which cannot be expressed by words but do you think that happens....no...not at all cause its naina's life and something good can never happen.

I still remember the day when he took me on a date night. everything about him mesmerized me especially his smile, his heavy sculptered body which never stops intimidating me, his small small acts of concern to make me feel comfortable, the way he has looked at me as if i am the most beautiful women he had ever let his eyes on. And one thing still sends chills down my spine that, this most intimidating, dashing and one of the best creations that ever happened in mankind is all mine. 

Suddenly reality had hit me like a strong storm, my inner soul is screening at me like its trying to wake  up from my deep slumber saying that the person whom i am thinking is just mine doesn't belong to me only, he is fucking having an affair and i have started to accept that the way i love him, he would never ever reciprocate the same. Slowly all those dreams of a young women about a family life are getting evaporated from the stupid heart of mine and i really am soo scared shlok that even if you find the truth someday and come back to me as my prince charming, the princess for whom you have come would have been long dead. Please shlok do something before i completely loose my sanity and hopes on this stupid life of mine cause right now i am not the only person waiting for you in fact your kid too.

A week before i got my reports which says that i am six weeks pregnant. You know what...all that i felt at that moment was to rush to you and share this biggest happiness but something in me stopped my body in doing so. i....." my eyes became all blurry leading me to not to write even a single word further so i slowly closed my dairy which is my only way of sharing my agony and helplessness. 

I am feeling like a different person in total these days and even my face is glowing a lot but thank God my stomach didn't start growing yet maybe from the next month it might start. My gynecologist had suggested me, in fact ordered me to eat lot of fruits and take hell lot of rest but little did she know that i can give rest to my body but not to my soul. In spite of not having any mood to eat anything i forced a bunch of grapes down by throat. Flipping through the channels which are airing some nonsense shows, i silently sat on the bed in our bedroom. tring tring.....i heard my phone ringing, without wasting a second i picked it up as i was waiting for this call the whole day. "Hello divya where have you been, you have no idea how badly i was waiting for your call". 

"Ma'am, i am soo sorry i couldn't call you before cause i was in a meeting along with shlok sir and i didn't wanted to give him any clue that i am working for you" her words made sense to my brain as i very well know about Shlok's intelligence. "That's fine, what about the work that i handed over to you" i inquired with a bit of curiosity in my voice which i felt that she instantly understood and started saying "ma'am, i felt everything to be normal in the office but its just that something is really wrong with Anjali madam" these words of her got me to the times when anjali had actually behaved so weird with me too but based on them i cannot accuse her about something as big as doing the fraud in the company.

"no divya, anjali is having some family issues and that's what is making her to look soo down. So you pls stop concentrating on her and just try getting to the main culprit." i said these words to myself more rather than to her. Right now i feel so foolish about myself thinking that the only daughter of Agnihotri family would come up with frauds in the organisation just for the sack of some loads of money as if she is not having any. I gave a light smack to my head as if i am putting some sense into my brain so that from next time it won't think about the things as foolish as this. "Yes ma'am, i am already on it" came a reply from the other side making me to come out of little thinking session. 

"ok then call me as soon as you get any clue or doubt on any person" it came out more like command and I disconnected the call and made myself comfortable on the couch.

My hands slowly went to my flat stomach where my princess or prince is sleeping peacefully detached to this cruel world outside. I guess this is one of the best feeling in this whole world that a human can ever feel. I crisscrossed my hands on my stomach like i am promising my little angel inside that his or her mummy would never let any harm come near them. A small smile was playing on my lips while my eyes were on something not particular. With the each second passing the loneliness inside me is increasing, slowly i got up from the couch and kept my dairy in its place and made my pace towards the hall awaiting anyone's arrival as i was done being alone in this house. I was walking here and there like a restless puppy who is waiting for its master's arrival. All i wanted to do right now is to be in shlok's arms and play with his full grown beard and kiss his plump lips and peacefully sleep in his arms where I feel no harm in this world can reach me, but the reality is, he is the biggest harm for me on this planet. 

Like someone heard my words of plea, i heard a car horn indicating that someone is coming and all I wish that its should be shlok. With so much enthusiasm i ran towards the door to welcome him, As soon as i opened the door i felt my smile being dropped as the person who came is paapa but not shlok.

I came out of my trance and wished him for which he politely replied back. "what happened beta, you seems to be sad" how should feel then, when the person I have been waiting for so long is no where to be seen. I didn't say that instead "nothing paapa just a bit headache" I erased his tension with a false answer.

"I'll get some tea for you paapa" with that I walked towards kitchen meanwhile where I have seen him ascending the steps to get into his room for freshening up.

It's been 9 in the night but this stupid of my husband didn't bother to come home till now. I want him right now, for some unknown reason I cannot take this feeling anymore and started crying. I want to share a very big good news today but he choosed to be late on this particular day out of all. But wait a minute 'how is he going to react after listening to this news, will he be happy otherwise....." that otherwise word itself is making my insides to erupt like a volcano which result will be sent out through my eyes.

Actually the biggest question is am I ready to share this news with him, 'no not at all'. I cannot share this news to shlok immediately what if he doesn't like the idea of him becoming a father and gets angry and I very well know the result of his angry self. Sometimes I totally forget that he is still my abusive husband who only married me by force for some unknown reason and not for the reason of love definitely. And also I very well know that, this baby which is growing inside me is not the result of his love  but his hatred for me then how can I be happy about this? 'offcourse you can be happy about your baby cause in the end of the day you are going to be a mother irrespective of what your husband will think about him' stated my conscience.

I was in my own world when I heard a harsh voice echoing in the room and instantly as a reflex my head turned towards the source only to come across the person whom I am waiting from past god knows how many hours. All my queries in my brain vanished immediately when I saw his face, the only thing I remember is that I want to be in the arms of this guy, I want to be pampered by him, I want to forget this whole world by keeping my head on his well build chest. That's it I couldn't take anymore of this and ran toward him and hugged him from his back while is on phone with someone.

I felt him to be startled by this sudden action of mine and then again felt his body to be relaxed but he didn't turned towards me and continued his conversation with the other person on line. For a second I felt unwanted and this is one of those feelings which i cannot take in this situation as a result I cried harder. A wet spot started forming on his shirt due to my never ending tears which had not got unnoticed my him. I felt him to turn toward me and wrap his left hand along my torso. I placed my head on his chest as if I am trying to listen to his heart beat but I am at this place for all my selfish reason, so right now I don't give damn about his heart beat or any shit.

Finally he excused himself from the person who kept him engaged on phone from the time he stepped into this room and slowly wrapped his two arms around me. Me like an ice slowly melted into his sinfully warm hug and tightened my arms around his middle upper part as if I am asking him to never let me go.

He started trailing wet kisses along my jawline which made my legs go all jelly, if not his hands tightly secured around me I would have already kissed the ground with my butt. Then one of his hand made its way towards my waist suddenly pain crossed through my features as he started pinching my waist with his long fingers.

"shlok...it's.. aaa" he increased the pressure on that part of skin which he had between his fingers. "How many times I have told you to not to disturb me when I am on a call" he pulled me more towarsds him until I am sticking to his front part and his another hand is holding my shoulders tightly. "SPEAK" I heard him shouting which brought fear inside me while on the another hand the pain which I am feeling due to his assaults on my waist is not letting me to utter a single word. I guess its not the pain of his assaults instead his actions, as emotional damage is the one which hurts the most. The thought of me waiting for him from soo many hours just to get assaulted is making very difficult to me to speak.

I stared into his dark eyes and managed to speak only one word "please" my two hands travelled all its way towards his neck and settled like a garland around it. My head found its peace on his shoulder so as my heart and as usual it started showing its grief and instantly my already swollen eyes started delivering loads of tears once again.

By seeing my situation I felt his hand loosen around my waist and went on to hug me tightly aswell as close to him not by heart but by body. "shlok" I called him with my voice full of love only to hear him saying "hmm". I was totally lost in him.

I felt him to lift me bridal style and made me sleep on the bed and went on to change his clothes. He came out of the washroom all fresh and hopped on the mattress then pulled me closer to him "now tell me, what's wrong? Why were you crying" he asked me stroking my cheek.

"I don't know" I gave him a simple reply to which he raised his eyebrow "when onwards you started crying on nothing" I didn't give him answer to it and went and placed my head on his hand. "did you had dinner" I inquired to which he just said "yes". Then slowly I drifted into a deep sleep in his warm hug.

To be continued .....

First of all I am so damn sorry that I didn't update for soo long and I was silent to all ur comments as well cause I couldn't decipher what to reply as I myself was not sure of when I will be updating.

So finally today I came up with this idea of what to write nxt and updated and I really hope that u people will enjoy this chapter. And yeah..... I will try to update the nxt chapter as soon possible until then bye, bye.