A/n this takes place a few hours after Seto gave Danny the tour, Jerome finished patrol so Danny is with him, he didn't just vanish
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Seto's Pov

I shifted awkwardly as I looked at myself, I had taken Ian's  suit-jacket by accident and decided to see what I might look like wearing it. I had never really gone without my cloak much- it being my comfort item- so I was used to not much of my body showing, but now it felt as if I was on display for the world. Okay that sounded worse than I meant for it to, basically, I was wearing a purple long sleeve shirt, and regular jeans, then the suit-jacket which was a tad big for my size. "Heh, guess you weren't kidding when you'd call me a shorty, huh?" I asked myself, gripping the front of it and pulling it closed around myself, letting out a content sigh, "I guess I can see why you liked this silly old thing so much," I smiled softly, a soft blush dusting my cheeks as I remembered how warm it was when he'd hug me, and how he almost always smelt like fresh cake, I let out a small hum and closed my eyes happily, the world around me disappearing as I drifted in joyful memories.

"Hey Seto we were wonder- what are you doing?" I squeaked as my door was opened and my thoughts interrupted, "u-um I was-" "is that one of Ian's old jackets?" Adam asked, eyeing me in an unreadable way, "w-well you see-" "Seto, the truth." Adam warned, "okay okay," I sighed softly, "yes it is," I stated, I heard a 'tsh' like sound from someone, "Seto, where did you get it," Adam asked, I huffed angrily, "his room okay?! I went into his room, sat down, and then walked out with it!" I shouted, "Seto, calm down," "no! I will not 'calm down' not when everyone is acting like it's so~ wrong that I want to wear the jacket of the only person who ever truly loved me that wasn't my family!" I shouted.

"Seto-" "wait, you were in a relationship with Ian?" I immediately recognized the voice as Brice's, "yes I was and I'd be appreciative if you'd keep your opinion to yourself," I growled at him, I heard Adam sigh, "Brice, go check on 'Jason' and make sure he's not getting into anything important," "but-" "now Brice." He growled, but left while muttering words under his breath that were unintelligible, then Adam closed my door. "Seto, can you sit down," he asked, I nodded uneasily and made my way over to my bed, "Seto, I'm not mad at you, I'm just concerned."

"A-about what?" I asked, "that you're making yourself spiral back to what you were when Ty's mom first found you," he stated, I flinched at the memory of how I was, "Seto, Brice tells me you snapped at him in public, and used your shield against him, and given the fact that you've been rarely seen recently, I'm growing a bit worried," he said softly, "Why should you be worrying about me? There's much more-" "stop it. I know that there's lots of things to worry about right now, harvesting, planning defenses, making a trap for the spy, but most of all I have to worry about all of you," "h-huh?" "haven't you noticed? Recently everyone and everything is falling apart, people are scared, and that includes all of us, " he let out a small sigh. "People sometime ask me what it means to be the 'head of the leaders' well let me tell you, being the 'head' means everyone's fears, problems, and worries fall to me to resolve, it's my job to keep everyone functioning, even in a dark time like this, so to see you acting like this again, it makes me very concerned," he looked at me with a serious look, I shook slightly in fear of Adam's piercing gaze, and pulled the jacket tighter around my small body.

I heard Adam let out a small sigh, then heard the uneasy 'pop' of his knees as he crouched in front of me. "Seto?" he asked softly, "y-yeah?" "I just want to know why you're acting like this again," I looked into his eyes and felt my walls slowly come down, "I- I guess I'm just remembering everything," I sighed, "remembering? remembering what? last I checked you had a perfect memory," "w-well, ever since Ty and Nat's disappearances, I've started missing everyone, all the people we've lost in the past, my mom and dad, Ty's mom, your mom, Ian, and everyone in-between, a-and I just want to feel like he's here with m-me," I whimpered softly as it flooded back to me. 

~~~~~Almost 2 years ago~~~~~ 

I panicked as I heard the sound of the emergency alarm, running out of the room to the medical wing, seeing Quentin looking panicked, "S-Seto! You can't be here," Natalie said pushing me away, "Why not? What's going on?" I asked, looking around her, I saw a one of the recruits that had left with Ian, "Seto! Stop, I'm serious, you don't want to go in there," she stated, I felt worry run through me, "Where's Ian?" I asked, "Seto, please go back to our room, I'll ex-" "No! I want to see him! Now move or I'll move you myself!" I growled, she looked at me teary eyed, "S-" "Nat," I turned to see Ty standing in the doorway with a solemn look, "Set, you don't want to go in there, he- he's gone, I'm sorry, they couldn't get here quick enough," he said, laying a hand on my shoulder, "no.. No! your lying!  I won't believe you!" I shouted, tears build in my eyes,  pushing him out of the way and dashing inside, seeing a sight that broke my heart, Ian laid on a bed, the blankets stained red, his chest unmoving, clothes slashed, and a large gash across his chest a crimson red liquid flowing from the wound. "N-no.." my entire world was shattering around me, the one person I felt truly happy with, had been taken from me, and I didn't even get to say good-bye.

-end memory-

Tears were freely flowing from my eyes, and I had a death grip on the jacket, "Seto? Seto!" I flinched as he yelled at me, and shook as he pulled me into his chest, "N-no! L-let me g-go!" I screamed, beating my hands against his chest. "Seto! Calm down!" He shouted, grabbing my wrists and holding them away from my body, "Seto, look at me," he ordered, I whimpered softly, but did as I was told, "Seto, I'm the only one here, I'm not gonna hurt you, no one is here to hurt you, just calm down," he soothed, placing a hand on top of my head and 'petting' me, my hair being very sensitive, "I-I j-just-" "I know, I know, you don't have to say anything, and you can keep that if you want to, but next time, let one of us know you're going in there," "wh-why?" I asked, "because then we can check on you afterwards, you're not exactly in a stable state," he said softly.

"O-okay, I will," I said, my voice quiet, "good, I don't want to have to get someone to constantly watch you," "you mean like Brice?" I asked, "yes, and speaking of Brice," he let go of me and pulled up a chair to sit in front of me. "What happened? I heard his side, but I want to hear your side of the story," he said, I let out a shaky growl, "he's been treating me as an item," "huh?" "Ever since you assigned him to me, Brice has been using it as an excuse to flirt, and possess me!" I said angrily, "possess you?" "Have you not noticed his obsession with me?" "No, I wasn't aware Brice even had feelings for you," "well he does, and he used you assigning him as an excuse to get closer to me, he always told what I 'should and shouldn't do,' he insulted my familiar, and acted like he knew everything about sorcery users, well he knows nothing," I growled, anger flowing through me. "He says that a man in a shop had him thrown out for no reason, and that you didn't stop him," I felt anger bubble inside of me, "He's picking out small bits and not telling the full truth, the full truth is that I was trying to reminisce with a nice couple who knew Natalie and I, but he kept being rude and interrupting, so yes, the store owner threw him out, and I didn't even bother to stop it, he was being rude, so it was no one's fault but his own," I stated, Adam nodded, "okay, but I still need to have someone watch you," he said softly.

After a moment, a small smile bloomed on his face, "It won't be Brice," I let out a sigh of relief, "Do you know the boy Jerome brought in?" he asked, "Danny? Sorta, we talked and he was there when I went into Ian's room, I gave him a small tour of what I could," I said, confusion lacing my voice, "Well- according to Jerome- Danny has been to training sessions before, but he dropped it after a few times due to intimidation, so- if you allow it- I can tell Jerome that he'll need to privately train Danny, and he'll be assigned as your guard, does that sound good?" he asked, it felt nice to have my opinion heard. "Y-yeah, that would be good, I mean it'd be better for Danny but-" "why would it be better for him?" "because, he'll be learning more fighting, and sorcery," "he's a sorcerer?!" He asked astonished, "half, but it still counts," I said, "okay then, I'll tell Jerome, and I'll talk to Brice for you, on a few conditions," he said, standing in my doorway now, "what's that?" I asked, "You get some sleep, come down for dinner, agree to try and befriend Danny, and stop blaming yourself for Ian, it wasn't your fault and never will be, he loved you and he wouldn't want you to do this to yourself," he sighed, "I-I jus-" "If you don't believe me, believe his own words," he said, I tilted my had at him, then gasped as he pulled out a letter, "W-where-" "one of the recruits who were a part of the mission came to me today with this, they said they had no idea it had been placed in their bag, but it's addressed to you from Ian, and given the blood on it, I'd say it was written just before he died, he must have slipped it in and not been able to tell the recruit," tears filled my eyes as I took it from him, "I'll have everyone leave you alone for the day, just don't do anything rash, my door is always open to you," he smiled, leaving my room and closing the door, I held the letter delicately in one hand as if it would shatter in my grasp,  the other hand gripping the jacket tightly, would this finally be my good-bye?

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A/n 

I wanted to cry writing this. At first this was meant to be Adam getting Seto to accept the others help, then I started writing about Seto's memories of Ian, and THIS happened, also don't worry, next chapter will be the letter, PROMISE, I wouldn't torture you all like that.