I just watch her, I don't call out for her. Just watch. More guilt drenches me than ever before. Was it really wrong to just do things my way? What am I? That's what made no sense to me. If I can't be myself, than why was I even here? No one seems to understand that. Nicky has a new life to live. She can be happy again. Freedom, she has something to fight for. Something to live by. She doesn't have anyone to fight for anymore though.....I think that's affected her the most. She just doesn't show it.

I can't just watch her off, never to see her again. That would kill me, more than anything. Well.....to am extent. I finally just give up and dart towards her. I don't care that she's turned the other way, I just hug her. Yeah, she doesn't understand what I'm doing for a moment, but I really couldn't care.

"Everything you said was true. Jason would have wanted better, for his true love. I'm not that. You are. You need to live the life that will lead you to happiness. Me. I don't have any reason on staying. That's why I just want to end it all. Hoping the pain, and the guilt will all just go away. I know what you're gonna say. Then face your fears. Be brave for once in your life Ash. That's something I can't do anymore. Believe me, I wish I could. But, there's no sense in it anymore. More fighting, just leads me into more depression. Hopefully, I'll see you again.......I'd hate it if you became immortal. Then....well, this is a final goodbye...."