I never even said goodbye. Almost like he refused me to say it. "Do you mind?" I ask Freedom?

"Nope, go ahead." I quickly turn, punching the tree again.

"Thank you."

"It's just to get out anger..." It's more than anger Freedom. You don't seem to get that do you? It's so much more.

Pain. Knowing that everything I've done for him, was worth nothing in his eyes. It was useless to even try. I was the one who was useless here. And to think, I already knew that.

Confusion. Why did he lie to me? Why didn't he just tell the truth when he had the chance? Maybe then none if this would have happened. Maybe I really could have had a better life.

Anger. If I had just went to lunch that day all those years ago, I wouldn't be in this god-forsaken mess! I would still cry myself to sleep. I would still be in school, away from my parents. What am I now? Nothing but one large joke. One large mistake that everyone pities....I'm useless here. Always have been....always will be. I knew that before....why did I refuse to accept it?