(Mark's P.O.V.)


Second week in May. It's been a week since Seán's attempt, and they said they're going to pull the plug tonight if he doesn't wake up. There was slight improvement, but nothing major enough to delay it. All of us are devastated. Kate and Hannah are of course absolutely heartbroken, and the only ones that feel like I do. Like they could have done better, and like they could have showed that they loved him more. 

The three of us are the worst off, but Bob, Wade, Ken, Felix, and Ann are all doing pretty bad as well. Ann almost as bad as me. She just feels so guilty, and no one really know why. The guys are trying to come to terms with it, but they are not having an easy time. They keep saying things like "I could have done..." and then proceeds to say something that they could have done that may have prevented this. 

But truthfully, and we all know it, no one could have done anything. By the time anyone knew something was wrong it was already to late. I walk into the hospital room to see the gifts and the cards, and the flowers and the plushies. And Seán, lying there. He just lies there. I walk up to his bedside, taking his hand in mine and I inhale shakily. 

"They're gonna turn off life support today angel." I whisper, tears already forming and spilling. I bring his hand to my lips, kissing his knuckles softly, before I let the hand back down on the bed and I just sit next to him. "I wanted to talk to you. Just a little bit, even if you don't wake up in the next few hours." I say softly, looking at the ground before looking back up at his sleeping face. He looks so goddamn peaceful... 

"Uh, I have no clue if you can hear me, but I'm acting like you can, okay?" I chuckle, hoping he can hear me. Please let him hear me... Please let him wake up... "Everyone really wants you to wake up boo. Everyone at school heard about what you did and people have started to leave gifts by your locker. It's become a shrine to you, with pictures of us and notes of apologies, and gifts of hope. Everyone's so sorry..." I say, shaking my head. 

"But I need you to wake up, okay?" I ask softly, but I continue anyways. "Because this last year and a half has been the best goddamn year and a half of my life. And I want to keep going. I want you to be there by my side, and I want to stay by your side too." I say, sniffing. 

"I want us to graduate, and go to college. I want us to get married, and be happy. Honestly, I don't even care at this point if you wake up and decide to break up with me, just as long as you are alive. Because if you died, I don't know how I'd live. Knowing what happened, and what you thought, and that I didn't do anything..." I bite my lip, letting out a quiet sob. "I just wouldn't be able to do it Seán." I cry, staring at him. 

"Cause goddamn it I love you Seán McLoughlin. Forever and always." I say, repeating what we always say to each other. I stand up, bending down and kissing his forehead tearfully. And then I just collapse on my knees, and I cry into his shoulder. I can't. I just can't. He won't wake up. Why would he? He doesn't believe I love him, or anyone loves him, and dear god that couldn't be further from the truth. But he doesn't know that! 

"I just want you to wake up..." I cry, squeezing his hand. "Please just wake up!" I cry more, knowing that the time is coming closer and closer before that line goes flat. And then... I feel his hand squeeze back. I look up in an instant, to see him looking at me with a teary eyed smile. 

"Mark." He whispers and dear god did I miss his voice. I smile, laughing tearfully. He laughs too, putting his hand on the back of my head and slamming his lips into mine. I kiss him back, my hands on his waist. God I missed this. I missed this feeling. I missed this so much... I pull away then, just hugging him tightly and he hugs me back, burying his face in my neck. 

"Oh my god Mark... I love you so much..." He says, voice kinda raspy but I don't care. It's his voice and that's what matters to me. 

"I love you too." I cry, leaning my head on his shoulder. 

"Seán!" We pull away from the hug to see Hannah and Kate running into the room, tears spilling from their eyes. I back away, letting the two women hug him. And soon we're just a room of four crying people, until someone hits the call nurse button so Seán could get checked out. Hannah and Kate leave soon after, saying to call them as soon as he's ready to be visited, and right as the nurse comes and shoos me out does Seán speak again. 

"Mark!" I look back, and I see him smile. "I love you too. Forever and Always." He says softly. My smile widens and I nod, biting my lip to keep from crying again. He heard me. He heard everything I said. Every single thing. I chuckle walking out of the room and down to the waiting room. He'll be okay. We'll be okay. Everything will be okay. 

A/N: By the way, from this point on I apparently thought Jack's mom was named "Heather" so if it accidentally says Heather, I mean Hannah XD