THE END

"I don't know what to say" He said.

"It's okay" She replied. "I know what we are - and I know what we are not"

- Lang Leav

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➸  CHAPTER 11
Ronnie Crawford's POV

I have a crush on my best friend's brother.

Yes, particularly Kendra's older brother.

It might be cliché and all of that shit but we've had history before. Even Kendra knows it but she doesn't know what really happened.

And the problem now is...

He is my mate.

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{Flashback}

I was six years old. And little Kendra decided that it was finally time for me to meet her brother.

Dragging me inside her house, she shouted from the door.

"Hey Kenneth! I want you to meet somebody." Young Kendra looked around for her brother. Her eyes lit up once she saw his figure.

"Not now I'm busy." He harshly said not even looking at Kendra. He had his back turned and Ken-bug started to cry. Oh no, he did not just make my best friend cry. I thought. I tapped his shoulder and said,

"Hey mister! How could you make Ken-bug cry? You are so rude!" I said with a glare and a pout.

Then, he turned around to face me and I felt like my jaw dropped.

He was the cutest boy I have ever seen.

I closed my mouth since I probably looked like a fish. I started to blush for the way I spoke him. He looked at me for a second then fixated his gaze on his sister.

"Oh no. Kendra, princess, I'm sorry." He said sincerely.

Kendra stopped crying and stared at him with big dough eyes.

"It's okay. I forgive you. Kenny, this is Ronnie. The girl I wanted you to meet."

He didn't say anything and just stared at me with pretty eyes. Kendra tried to get his attention since he was in another dimension.

Kenneth then snapped out of it.

"Nice to meet you." He said as he took my hand and shook it.

I blushed madly. He was so kind and caring to his sister too! What a bonus!

Kenneth then, was my first real crush.

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I started to think about what happened earlier in the party. Kendra probably thought that I was drinking a lot when I disappeared but in reality, I was actually making out with her brother.

It happened like this; I was headed to the bathroom to fix my makeup when someone bumped into me.

Sparks flew everywhere and instantly, I knew it was my mate.

They said you'd always feel sparks whenever you get touched by the one.

I was hoping that I found someone better so I could move on from my first love. But I guess fate was playing a cruel joke on me when I found out who I was mated to.

I took a look at the person's face and was surprised to see Kenneth. He also looked quite shocked. It's wasn't really difficult to tell since the way his eyes widened was a sign of pure astonishment.

"Mate" He whispered.

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{Flashback}

I was 10 years old.

I remember those times when my mother and I would go to the park and just have fun.

My mother then went to the ice cream shop to buy the soft, creamy goodness that I liked and was left in the open area of the park.

With my favorite item before, I started playing with my kite. I tried to get it  as high as I could till the harsh wind blew it away. I made am effort to get it back, hoping it wouldn't get lost, but apparently it was impossible to get.

The yellow kite flew and flew until it landed somewhere.

I found it.

I saw that it was stuck on the giant tree. It was too high for me to reach. But as much as it was close to impossible, I tried to get it back because it was my grandfather's old kite.

I tried to climb the tree but I always slide down it's trunk. Why am I even trying?  I don't even know how to climb a tree. I wasn't a Girl Scout.

I didn't still have my kite in my hands. With a sigh, I almost gave up until I heard a voice.

"Hey, do you want me to help you get your kite back?" The voice of a boy was heard behind me. I spun around until his face met me.

It was my crush, Kenneth. I blushed once more. It always happens when I'm around him.

"Yes please." I said quietly. I felt embarrassed and insecure since I always dressed like a boy. I'm sure he has crushes on beautiful girls out there.

But even that, my mother still told me I was beautiful.

I watch as Kenneth climb the tree with ease. He reached the top and grabbed the yellow kite.

I can't believe it! He must think I'm so weak.

Going down the tree, he approached me with a big smile.

"Here you go." He gave back my kite.

"Thank you." I said quietly, holding the kite to cover my blushing face.

He was about to say something, but my mother suddenly came back holding two ice creams in hand.

"Well hello there Kenneth! It's nice to see you here."

My mother gave him the extra ice cream. That made Kenneth grin widely.

"What about me?" I pouted but it was instantly gone when she, too, gave me the other one ice cream.

"Why don't you kids catch up first and Kenneth's mom and I will have a chat." She asked with a cheesy grin.

"Okay." I kissed her cheek and sat on the park bench with Kenneth.

I turned back to eat the ice cream. Though it wasn't a pretty sight, I ate the ice cream really messily and it smears on my mouth.

Kenneth then wipes my mouth with his shirt. "There, now you look pretty without the mess on your face."

I blushed at what he said. He thinks I'm pretty?

"Where's Kendra?" I asked Kenny. She was always with Kenneth when they go out.

"She has a project to make." He said calmly. Oh, that explains it!

"Hey, let's do something fun!" I told him excitedly.

"Like what?" He asked curiously.

"Let's fly the kite really high! Hopefully, with you here, it's not going to fly away." I spoke.

I watched as his face broke out to a grin, sharing the same excitement with me.

We immediately stood up from our seat and flew the kite really high. Together, Kenneth placed his hands on mine to keep the kite steady. He was, after all, stronger and bigger than my small frame.

We stayed like that and played for a few more minutes until we got tired of soaring the kite. As I was trying to get the kite down, I was moving a lot too. And the bad thing was that I tripped on something. Thank goodness, Kenny caught me.

We just stayed like this. With him holding me and vice versa. His eyes twinkling and I couldn't resist anymore. I gave him a peck on the lips.

With that said, I blushed once more. I just wanted to try it. Oh my, this is so embarrassing! I thought.

He must've known I was embarrassed. He just smiled at my red face. Kenny was just so cute! Releasing me from his hold, we didn't say anything anymore and just sat on the grass.

That was when I realized that Kenneth was my first kiss.

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He suddenly pushed me against the wall with no shame. No one was really here at this area since they were all on the dance floor, dancing and having the time of their lives.

We were just alone in the hall.

Then he did something unexpected. He kissed me. With that said, heat spread out through my body and fire exploded within me. I moaned.

He just tasted so good. With soft lips, I just couldn't resist placing my lips to his, touching him.

Kenneth suddenly attacked my neck. Kissing and sucking my sweet spot whilst grinding his pelvis against me. He was becoming rougher, and my body was tingling from his hot hands.

I groaned for I knew he was giving me hickeys; marking me as his territory. To warn off men. He kept mumbling 'mine' until I said stop.

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{Flashback}

16 years old.

Kenneth was starting to get popular and everybody liked him. Not only for his looks but for his charm as well.

Of course, I had to hide my distaste for it. All thanks to the Alpha's son, Archer, for introducing Kenneth to his popular group. I was just thankful that Kenneth is happy and was making new friends.

I remember Kendra and I had a sleepover at her place with Abby, since we already met her at that time.

Everyone was sleeping already but me. I'm kind of like a night owl and at that time, I was really thirsty for a drink. So, I did what I had to do and I went downstairs to the kitchen. Getting a glass of  cold water, I immediately drank it. It was just so hot in here too.

Suddenly, I bumped into someone.

"Shit!" I almost screamed. Then I heard his voice.

"Ronnie? Is that you? What are you doing here in the middle of the night?" He asked.

"I'm thirsty." I replied calmly. What is he doing here too?

"Okay then let's drink." He grinned as he grabbed a bottle of beers and other alcoholic beverages in the fridge. Probably his father's.

"Dude! Not that kind of drink. I'm not legal to down that yet." I whispered.

"Well, so am I so come on." He gave me a bottle and grabbed my hand. Good thing it's dark so he couldn't see my face. I probably know it's a bright red hue.

We went to the attic and climbed out of the window, so we were on the roof. Kenneth gave me a drink and I shook my head no.

"Come on Ronnie, live a little." He smiles at me.

And that was my undoing. I grabbed the drink from his hands and gulped it down. I realize it wasn't so bad after all.

With that said, I became much more relaxed after that.

Kenneth and I sat down through the night. Telling him my experiences, embarrassing, sad, and happy moments whilst drinking the said drink.

This was so fun. He was fun.

Just being with him makes me so happy. I thought.

The night sky was absolutely beautiful and the moonlight made his face glow. It was like I fell in love again. Over and over again. I know I shouldn't. What would Kendra say?

But I couldn't help it. I think it's time to confess my feeling to him. With liquid courage, I finished the bottle and did what I have to do.

"Kenneth. I need to tell you something." I whispered.

"What? What is it?" He replied calmly.

"Don't freak out but, I'm in l-love w-with you-u" I mumbled, my voice, stuttering in the end.

And this was the part that I dreaded the most. Quietness. We were stuck in silence for minutes but it felt like years to me. I look down on my fidgeting fingers.

I feel like he doesn't like me. I'm pathetic.

Why would he like a girl that dresses like a tomboy, I'm not as pretty as Brandi Hayes. What would he ever see in me?

"Wow, I never thought you would say it to me. I love you too." He whispered back at me.

My eyes snapped open and meet his.

"Really?" I questioned. Shock mess running through my vains.

"Yes really." He confirmed.

Couldn't this night get any better? Finding out your crush likes you too made my little heart flutter.

I gasped as he lifted me by my hips and onto his lap. Kenneth started to kiss me slowly.

Through the night, we were gently kissing for hours till we had to go back to our rooms. That was the best moment of my entire life until the morning came.

The three of us woke up and I asked Kendra if I can borrow her clothes to school since I only brought my pajamas with me because of the unexpected sleepover. But in the end, she said yes.

Thanking her, we all got ready for school in time and we got a ride from her father since Kenneth was already in school.

I felt butterflies in my stomach since I can't wait to see him.

By the time we arrived school, I was jumping with excitement.

Though that happy feeling didn't last long.

My world came crashing down when I saw Kenneth in the hallway, holding her hands. I thought that maybe I was wrong and it wasn't, but they kissed each each other. That proves that they have something.

I felt so hurt because he confessed that he loved me that night. I know he felt me staring that's why he whipped his head back to me. I could feel tears brimming my eyes.

I ran to the bathroom and cried. How could he do this? He was playing me!

No! Kenneth can't do this! He was the kindest boy I've met.

And I realized something. We might like each other but we're not dating. I don't have a hold on him and that's where it hurts the most. There's no bond or connection between us.

I stood in front of the mirror and wiped my tears away. I made sure that I looked like I wasn't unhappy. That I hadn't been crying for minutes here.

But alas, I couldn't do it. I might have fixed my appearance but I can't fix the way I feel.

With a miserable sigh, I went outside of the bathroom and unexpectedly collided to a hard chest.

Speak of the devil, it was Kenneth himself.

"Ronnie, I need to talk to you." He said seriously. I just stayed silent waiting for him to speak.

"Hey, I'm sorry that I led you on. I really thought that we had a connection last night but I just realized that I don't like you."

Every word he said sent knives to my heart.

"But- how? Why?" I asked him.

"You said 'I love you' to me. Did it even mean anything to you?" My heart was breaking.

"It did in a way but I'm very sorry. I can't have a relationship with you because we aren't in the same social circle. You know that right? I thought that maybe, just maybe you were the girl for me. Unfortunately, I don't feel the Sparks like I did yesterday. Ever since I met this girl, I started to like her as well. Please, I know that you and my sister are best friends but please don't break your friendship because of our situation okay? Let us just be friends." He smiled.

I feel sad. I feel bad too. He was smiling like he thought everyone's going to fine and happy after this. What should I do? Run off and never talk to him? Or still be friends with him even though he continues to hurt me?

Friends it is. Not for him but for the sake of his sister Kendra. I don't want her to be sad and miserable if we aren't on good terms. The bad blood between her brother and best friend doesn't sound good.

"Yeah, let's just be friends. What's the name of the girl you were with earlier?" I asked curiously.

"Um, Lila. Short for Delilah. I think she might be the one. My mate." He smiled with sparkles in his eyes.

I would do anything to have him speak about me and to have him look at me like that with those beautiful eyes.

"Wow. She is gorgeous." I praise, trying not to sound bitter.

I envy her because Kenneth likes her. I knew her. She was Brandi's friend but unlike Brandi, she was still kind to some people. I'd let him go just to see him happy... Even if I wasn't the one who's making him happy.

"Yeah she is... Um, I'll see you later and please don't tell my sister... or anyone for that matter. It will be awkward, yeah?"

I didn't reply and just nodded my head.

He smiled and walked away. But I called out to him.

"Hey Kenneth!"

He turned around, "What?"

"Don't come crawling back to me and fall in love, okay?" I spoke in a joking matter, hiding what I feel.

He just chuckled and continued to walk away. Kenneth probably thought I was really joking.

I just sighed. He doesn't want me.

He only cares about his reputation. Not me. Never me. And to think, where's the kind boy that does people right? I never thought Kenneth would do something like this.

He was always the perfect boy to me.

It's okay Ronnie. We can get through this, I told myself.

'Don't worry, I'm here for you. He isn't the right one for us. You should move on.' My wolf told me.

I shifted already if I didn't mention. And currently, my wolf was in love with Kenneth's wolf as well.

Maybe, one day, he would finally realize my love for him and his love for me. That maybe he'll look at me in a different light.

And when that day ever comes, maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't be there for him anymore.

Maybe I'd be with someone who'll love me the way I love him.

In that moment, Kenneth was my first love, first kiss, and first heart break. I promise to move on even if it takes a lifetime to do it.

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I still remember that moment like it was yesterday. It had somehow made me emotionally unstable. I was miserable and depressed 24/7 for a petty boy that didn't love me.

Stupid, I know.

The boy that I love, doesn't love me. Though he didn't feel that way for me, he was still a good friend and a good brother to Kendra.

Eventually that Lila girl cheated on him with some dude too. To think, he replaced me with a cheater.

Now he's stupid.

Kenneth was still kissing me.

"Stop." I mumbled on my lips and tried to push him away but he wouldn't budge.

"Kenneth! Stop!" I said much louder than before but it worked.

You must wonder what the hell am I doing. That I should be happy now that I got Kenneth as my mate. That I have him in my palms.

I am happy that I found my mate.

I just didn't think it would be him. I just can't forget what he did to me.

"I'm sorry but I can't do this."

"Why not?" He sounded annoyed.

"I have a boyfriend." I told him.

I couldn't control the words that left my lips.

That was when I knew I was fucked.

I lied to him.

Hell, I still don't have a boyfriend and Kendra knows that too.

Well, I can't back out now. I don't want to be made out weak in front of him.

"What?" He asked, looking shocked.

Go on Ronnie, he believes it. Make some more bull crap stories.

I shrugged.

"Yeah, yeah, I know it's hard to believe; for a girl who always dress like a guy, gets a boyfriend." I couldn't look him in the eyes because I might break down and admit it was lie.

"How?" He questioned.

I need a story fast.

"Remember when you broke my heart?" I asked him bluntly. Well tough luck, I don't give a damn anymore.

He didn't reply and just looked at me with a grim expression. I continued.

"Well somebody had to pick up the broken pieces of my heart. I was really heart broken when you said that you 'loved' me, only to find out that you were dating someone the next day."

Even if I was lying, I was getting angrier for remembering the past. I was telling him how I felt, containing all that pain that hid.

"How could you say that you love me? When it's not true."

Pause.

"You don't hurt the people you love" I whispered.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know." He looked guilty.

I exploded with anger. What the fuck is he saying?

"Didn't know huh? I confessed to you! I loved you! And now, all I feel for you is hatred." I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Every time your sister had a sleepover, party, or an event. I pretend to like you because I don't want my best friend to know about our ugly past. That night when we were together might not mean much to you but it did to me." I pointed and dabbed a finger to my heart.

"The 'No, I can't have a relationship with you because we aren't in the same social circle' just tells me that you are selfish. If you want me now then think again, I'm not taking you back or falling for your charms." I continued "I have learned my lesson. I was always the one who picked you up. Remember when that bitch cheated on you? You asked for my comfort. Me being the good 'friend' I am, never told you how I felt because I just wanted to make you happy by letting go of us. Letting you go to fuck other bitches after your bitch of an ex."

I sighed.

"You were the one that always pulls me back. If you want me to be happy then please just let me go." I pleaded. I'm tired of him always rejecting me.

I think I have said enough too.

He looks a bit broken.

Good. That's what I want him to feel.

I'm pretty his pain isn't the pain that I felt. Mine was 10x worse when he continued to sleep with other women.

I'm just tired of this bull shit.

With that, I went back to the party as if nothing had happened.

Right now, I needed the strongest drink to calm me down.

Suddenly, I sniffed the air and smelt my mate.

He still thinks I have a boyfriend.

Time to give him a taste of his own medicine. I knew it was a petty thing to do but I grabbed the first unmated guy I saw and kissed him. I knew he was unmated because he had no mark.

And thank the goddess the boy, did kiss back.

All is well.

I just needed a distraction and I needed Kenneth to back off. For now.

I felt Kenneth gaze on me. And well, he didn't do anything to stop me from enjoying. Serves him right.

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Kenneth Martinez's POV

I was so damn happy when I found out that Ronnie was my mate. She was beautiful inside and out. Perfect. It was a bonus too because she gets along with my sister and family very well.

But what I heard from her was heart breaking. I didn't know that I affected her that much. I was young back then and was really, stupidly popular. She and I would never work out.

I don't know what happened. We weren't dating and all that, and I didn't think she would get attached.

It's all my fault. If I wasn't so dumb back then, then maybe I could have had my mate right now.

But I did somehow feel a connection to Lila. Or maybe it was just my thoughts. I don't know.

I still can't get it through my mind that she has boyfriend. What hurts me the most is that I pushed her to the arms of another man. I know I said that I loved her.

I did. I was just confused with everything back then. Or maybe it's because of the alcoholic beverages we were drinking back then.

I remember when Kendra introduced us together, I thought she was the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life.

I fell in love with Lila too because she was so very beautiful. I thought she was kind, but then she showed her true colours when she left me.

I can't believe I exchanged Ronnie for Lila.

Ronnie was always fun, beautiful, and carefree whilst Lila was snobby, self centered, and a brat might I add. I was really stupid.

I remember a few hours ago, when Ronnie wasn't my mate. When I first saw her in that beautiful turquoise dress. It made her look so damn delectable. I was hypnotized by her.

She wasn't that small girl that hangs out with my sister.

She was a woman now.

That time where a lot of unmated males looked at her with adoration and lust. I thought I'd burst in anger. I'd rip they're eyes out if they tried anything.

The truth is, I don't know why it took time till there was a bond between us. I have known her for so long and this was the only time where we connected.

In reality, I wasn't right for Ronnie.

She deserved the world and not the shit that I put her through.

I just stayed behind the place where Ronnie and I had kissed. Thinking through about our mate bond. I'm just regretting all the crappy things I've done to her. No doubt she hates me.

Finally when I was ready, I went out again to the party.

There, an unpleasant sight greeted me. What I saw made me want to kill.

Ronnie was holding hands and kissing a guy.

It must be her 'boyfriend' that picked her up when I broke her heart. I could feel my lips pull up into a sneer.

Even if I don't deserve her, I still don't like the thought of her with another man.

What kind of mate does, right?

I cracked my knuckles. I was about to storm over and punch the guy when I realized that Ronnie might hate me even more.

I have to win her back fair and square. Even if that man is competition or the fact that he has her heart already.

I saw them dancing together. Who the fuck is that?

'Kill the him! Snap his neck now I tell you!' My wolf kept on growling, filling my head with violent thoughts. Planning to murder him 100 ways.

It really hurt to see them together but it was all my fault.

But the fact that we didn't reject each other, gives me hope. We have a chance to make things work.

Damn, I should have accepted her four years ago.

I will make things right for us even if I die trying.

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A U T H O R' S N O T E 💖

Hey mates! How did you find the chapter? Are you shocked about Ronnie and Kenneth's past? I guess Kendra isn't the only one who has mate problems. Damn it, so much drama haha. If you guys didn't know, this took a lot of time to write because of the weird flashbacks and shit. Thank you again for supporting my works! It means a lot to me!

Stay tuned, the next chapters will be more exciting than ever my loveliest readers.

NOTE: Please check out my other werewolf story, 'Distant'. I'm sure you guys will enjoy it! It's one of my best works as well. 💕

xoxo

-Hannah ♡

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Mayday Parade
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L.E. Oct. 13, 2015

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