''Hey, Charity?'' I question behind her back, tapping her shoulder. She turns around, smiling as she notices it's me. Her smile immediately lights me up. But it also brings out my nervousness. What I am about to bring her, is not something you can pretend it did not happen. That's what I fear, that she'll just remind me of the Abnegation I am sad to be. Yes, Abnegation. After my aptitude test I got these weird results. First they started to fade out of my mind, it is at it is I told myself. But now I'm slowly embracing who I am. And that's not only Amity. ''Hey Nadine! I've been searching for you earlier, but I couldn't find you.'' She takes a step closer to me, eyes shining like diamonds. It's her rare beauty that takes me off guard. I hope she knows how radiant she is. ''Yeah, I've been hiding at home, lately.'' I answer, adjudging my view. ''Well, why? I've been wanting to see you again, before... you know.'' She says. I look around, realizing some people who stare at us, like Johanna. I grip her arm and whisper. ''Follow me, I cannot tell you about it, here.'' She may nod her head but her glance shows something very different. Is it confusedness? Or worse, distrust? I have taken her to the flower garden, where no one ever comes because it's such a spooky place to be. They say old farmers come here to collect the flowers that they deliver to other factions. That's just some weird fairy tale. ''Why are we here?'' Charity asks, obviously looking a bit afraid. ''I've been wanting to explain for a long time now.'' I look down, hoping not to ruin this perfect moment. ''Well, whatever it is, It won't change how I feel about leaving you.'' I look back up, narrowing my eyes a bit. ''What?'' I ask. She breathlessly laughs, looking away. ''I thought you'd known...'' She shakes her head. ''Go on, what did you want to tell me?'' I shake off this tempting feeling and move back to what I was about to say. ''My aptitude results...'' I struggle to breathe, will she betray me? ''They came back inconclusive. I am Divergent.'' She just stares, which she does for a couple of seconds before moving on, shifting her weight onto her other leg. She takes a deep breath in, and breathes it out through her mouth. I wait for her to say something, which she probably will in a few seconds, she always does. I don't expect her to accept me as I am, because I can't even do that right now. I mean, Divergent? Who came up with that? Surely not this stupid society, who hunt them down for no single reason. ''I've kinda known already...'' She finally answers. What? ''How?'' I question. She dares to look at me, and shows me a slight smile. ''The way you are, the way you talk to everybody.'' This makes me even more confused. How could she have known? ''You act so grown up. You are so nice to people, they literally melt of your sweetness. Not to forget you selflessness when you give those extra apples to little Luna. That's two already; Amity and Abnegation.'' ''Well, you seem to have noticed that a long time before myself. I've only known since my test.'' I say with a smile. How could she know all that? Surely she doesn't have any affection for me. I mean, who would? I am Divergent, deadly. ''I wasn't done.'' She winks. A struggle of a laugh flops out of my mouth before I can contain it. This makes her wink once again.''I've seen you and Demi climb that apple tree. That's not something anyone can do in Amity, without running away in fear. So that adds one more, Dauntless.'' I am literally speechless. She does know me that well. I have to contain my blush that's creeping up on my cheeks. I'm amazed. Amazed at how she unravelled this all. It makes sense now, Demi and I have been too less on our guard. But if she climbed that tree, too... Does that mean she's just like me? I think I have to ask her myself, later. Or I don't even have to. ''Wow, you got quite the brains.'' I smile. She lets out a giggle and points a finger to my nose. ''Thank you.'' She says. ''Anyways, what was the other thing?'' Oh that, nothing much. It's just that I-- ''Ehm...'' Come on, just get it over with. And that's what happens next, I just figure it'd be best if I just tell the truth. ''I like you, not as a friend, more.'' I instantly regret me saying it, but I can't turn back now. As I look straight into her eyes, all I see is blank. Oh no. But that's not it. What she does next takes me off guard. Her lips are on mine, and her arms wrap around my neck. On instinct, I guess I am supposed to wrap mine around her waist. So that's what I do. I wrap my arms around her middle and kiss back. She draws her head back and leans it against my forehead. ''I love you...'' She whispers, breathlessly. My eyes grow a bit. The look that she gives me is so much full of love, I notice now. How can she love a deadly monster like me? I will just destroy her and everyone around me, as society says. ''What are you two doing here at this curfew?'' Somebody asks from a few miles away. I quickly back away from Charity, who adjudges her clothes straight, from our just-happened make out. Johanna walks toward us with this grin on her face it's hard to describe. ''I'm sorry miss Johanna, we'll leave right a-'' I start. ''Don't worry about it, I'll pretend I didn't witness this. Both of you, go now.'' She smiles at us, knowing what happened. Oh god. I thought it was forbidden to love same gender types. Well, clearly Johanna does not have something against it, reading off her smile. ''Thank you.'' I tell her, pulling Charity with me. Giggling, we both step out of the flower garden. Okay, that did not just happen. ''That was insane!'' Charity laughs. I look at her and smile. She looks back and shows me this look I cannot contain in my head. One last time, as if it were out last, I push her back against the stone wall, careful not to hurt her, and push my lips against her cherry tasting ones. ''I'll see you tomorrow.'' I whisper, backing away. ''Tomorrow.'' She returns, walking towards the Amity cafeteria.

As I arrive at my house, and close the door behind me, I fall back against it, sighing. Today was insanely amazing. Suddenly a thought comes into my mind. Tomorrow. What faction will I choose? A flashback goes by of me and Demi, climbing that apple tree. Dauntless. Will she go for Dauntless? Or will she stay at this bizarre place called Amity? No. I know her, and I know she'll not leave this world without a fight. I have this weird tingle at my stomach, as I fact that Demi is going to choose something very different than Amity. I know her plan. She's going to choose Dauntless. I just know it. But what will I do? Demi has always been important to me, but Charity has been too. This big wave of protect floods my head. I made a vow I'd protect her, Demi. So what's stopping me now? Charity. If I choose to protect Dauntless, I have to give up my first love. But if I choose Amity, I will lose my first and only best friend, Demi, who's probably Divergent, too. I can't even think of leaving anyone behind. You have to. These mixes thought only bring out one final answer. ''I love you too, Charity...'' I whisper, eyes closed. I know what I am supposed to do next. Tomorrow, I am going to choose Dauntless.