A couple days earlier...

All I want, is to just get to her. She wanted to tell me something before I died, but I couldn't hear it, because of the bullet pouring through my back. I know she loves me. But she couldn't finish her sentence. Maybe there was a but... I probably would have understood it, even though it makes me sad.
I appear in her room every night, since I died. She doesn't even know I do. Luckily. She'd think it would be creepy.
This time, I stand next to her bed, smiling. She sleeps so peaceful. So calm. It looks beautiful. The Dauntless version from Sleeping Beauty. The moonlight shines just on her burning Amity tree on her left shoulder. I remember when she got it. I remember when I touched it. I can't help but stroke over her cheek for a little. It would have been great to spend our lives together. I saw a future, even though in the mean time there were some things going on with her love life. I went for it.

I guess I am not Cam anymore. I now will be Cameron again. It reminds me from home. The orchard. We all back together. That is what I miss. And I guess she misses it all too.

But I just know, this soon will all be over.