Jungkook

After 5 months...

So many has happened. But not even a single day had passed that I couldn't think of her. Her safety, her happiness, and how she's been doing for the past months.

It's the least I can do for her and for myself as well.

But I guess I underestimated her.

A wide smile spread throughout my lips as Blackpink is plastered on our hotel's television and all seven of us are gathered to watch their comeback.

"It's been almost a year. Fuck, I'm getting goosebumps!" Taehyung said as we stared at the countdown on the Tv.

"They're gonna break our record for sure!" Namjoon said, proudly.

I smiled at them as I couldn't agree more. I haven't watched the MV yet but I'm feeling so proud right now.

"3, 2, 1!" Jin hyung, JHope hyung, and Taehyung shouted.

The MV started and all of us jolted at the sudden trumpets. None of us heard the teaser so that probably surprised us.

"Kim Jennie! My wife to be!" Taehyung shouted on top of his lungs when Jennie noona appeared on the screen.

"Blackpink in your area!"

I know it's wrong but I feel like a proud boyfriend. She looks so majestic in those glasses and looks so ethereal in that wig and dress.

"Oh, shit. My Angel!" Taehyung shouted again when Jennie noona started to sing the first verse between two black and white swans.

"Damn, the lyrics sure hurts." Jimin watched carefully.

"Here I come kickin' the door."

My breath hitched when the red door opened with the word 'Heaven' written on top of it.

Exact scenario of an angel coming down from heaven.

My hyungs looked at me like we won the first Daesang when Lisa came in. But my reaction is incomparable.

We all had our eyes widened but still focused on the screen as Taehyung and Jimin were covering their mouths at Lisa's sudden attack.

Lisa, you're doing illegal things now!

Her dreadlocks or braids, whatever it is, she almost gave me a heart attack. She's torturing me, making me guiltier than ever and my regrets became heavier.

"Damn, Kook. You broke up with Harley Quinn. If I were you, I'd die of regret." JHope hyung chuckled at me.

"I already am, hyung." my conscience whispered in my mind but I held it in before I could spit it out.

"Look at me, look at you..."

"Where the fuck are your clothes, woman?" Jin hyung suddenly cussed when Jisoo noona appeared next.

"A mermaid." Suga hyung muttured, making Jin hyung glare at him.

Jin hyung suddenly took out his phone, "Oh Kim Jisoo. Who allowed you?" he muttered under his breath as he stood up, exiting our room to call his girlfriend.

Girlfriend...

That sounds so nice to have. I once had one. But I wasn't able to keep her. I was too much of a coward to deserve her.

"Na eottokhae?! Na yakhan nal gyeondil su eopseo!"

"Why is she crying?! Who hurt her?! Why the fuck is she crying?! Where is my phone?!" Jimin hyung started being hysterical when Park Chaeyoung, his girlfriend, appeared on the screen.

"Calm down, Jimin. It's just acting." Taehyung hyung calmed him down.

The MV felt like a minute when it finally ended. It was barely 3 minutes. They made blinks wait for almost a year and they gave us a 3 minute MV with a mini-album only. If only I could replace YG right now...

"That's gonna break records. Our records." JHope proudly said.

"Obviously. The rapline stood out for me. But the vocal line sure came through with those notes." Suga hyung commented.

I nodded my head in satisfaction, "They did really well."

Namjoon hyung and Jhope hyung suddenly turned to me, "You do know that their comeback was a break up song for you, right?"

"Stop reminding me, hyung." I nudged Namjoon hyung.

"It's been five months, Kook. She probably forgot about you now." Suga hyung said.

"And to think that she cut her hair short, that says a lot." Jimin spat.

I just looked at them. They're right, she changed a lot. For the better. But I'm not just liking it. Of course, I'm still on the process of accepting things.

Or maybe I just don't want to accept it yet.

Lisa Manoban just can't leave my system. She's like embedded in my body.

She cut her hair shorter than the usual, which suits her. Everything suits her. Even though her change is a clear message that she already forgot about me and probably hates my stupid coward ass.

It still pisses me off when I hear other male idols talking about her. How her male fans spoil her at a fanmeet. How other idols interact with her. And how international idols react to her solo stage.

That illegal Swalla performance of hers.

I mean, who the fuck taught her that kind of choreography?! She's still a baby! I couldn't believe YG allowed that! How inappropriate! If I was still her boyfriend, that Swalla stage will never exist!

When that fancam of her dancing swalla was uploaded, I knew there will be a pool of men dm-ing her. I knew she's gonna be receiving a lot of praises from men. Famous, more handsome, more talented, richer men, I might add.

And I can't do anything about it.

Fuck my life.

Lisa

Maybe cutting my hair short wasn't a bad idea. I mean, I loved my long blonde hair. I'll probably miss it. But my hair now, makes me feel like I'm free. Free from the past that's been pulling me down for months.

"You looked really good in the blonde wig. I mean... You still look good without it. Better, even." Mingyu stuttered on the other line.

A small smile escaped my lips. Mingyu and I had been close lately. Let's just say, we're really good friends. But Bambam remains supreme in my bestfriend list.

"Thanks." I muttered.

"Anyways, are you free this weekend?" He asked.

"I don't think so... I mean, we still have our tour and we're gonna practice for our comeback stage." I lowkey declined.

"How about after?" He asked again.

"I can't really promise because our schedule is unpredictable." I honestly told him.

I heard him sigh over the phone, "That's okay. I just really missed your company, Lalisa." He said.

I smiled, "I missed being with you guys too. I'll just update you when I can." I assured him.

"You better." He chuckled.

"Well, I have to go now. Bye!" I bid my farewell.

"Thanks for your time, Lis. Bye." And we ended the call.

Mingyu is a really nice guy. He's  basically Jungkook's total opposite. Not that I'm comparing but aside from Bambam and Jungkook, Mingyu is the third guy I'm closest with. And I'd be lying if I said I don't find him attractive.

He's stinking hot.

But he's a nice friend. Yeah, a friend. I feel comfortable around him just like Bambam. We also share a lot of the same interests. And I can say that we have this brother-sister relationship.

Jennie unnie suddenly pat my shoulder as I get my hair done in the dressing room. The countdown just finished and Kill this Love MV is finally released to the world.

"Can't believe you cut your hair short." Jennie unnie said as she stared at my reflection in the vanity mirror.

I smiled at her, "Me too."

"You were so desperate to grow your hair long when we debuted. And now you cut your hair just like that." Chaeyoung came in next.

"Women with broken hearts really does befriend scissors, huh?" Jennie unnie chuckled at me.

I giggled, "Well, it actually took me a lot of courage to cut my hair short. I guess, I got stronger now."

"You did, Lali. If I was Jungkook, I'll probably come crawling back to you." Chaeyoung said.

I just shook my head amusingly.

Sure, I already accepted the fact that he's gone. He cheated. And he left me. I already accepted that reality and I'm on the process of recovering and collecting myself back to pieces.

But of course, a part of me still misses him.

"Where's Jisoo noona?" I asked the two.

"She's talking to Jin oppa over the phone." Chaeyoung answered.

"Why?" I furrowed my brows.

"She's probably getting scolded for getting half naked in the MV." Chaeyoung snorted.

"Oh, here comes another scolding." Jennie raised her phone and showed us her phone screen that showed Kim Taehyung's caller ID.

"Why would he scold you?" I asked her.

"I dunno." She shrugged her shoulders amd went off to talk to Taehyung oppa.

"I wish Jimin will call too." Chaeyoung muttered under her breath but I heard her anyway.

"You two were just talking over the phone a while ago—"

I was cut off when Chaeyoung's phone rang. She took and a wide smile immediately made its ways to her lips as her cheeks turned red.

"I guess my prayers have been answered. Ciao!" She waved and left me alone in the dressing room to talk to her boyfriend.

Boyfriend.

It's sounds so nice to have but it's the biggest lie of all. Sure, it's fun to have one. It's kinda refreshing and probably the best moment of your life. But that's just all for a play. It's the exact definition of scam.

I still believe in love. Just... not the same as before. It just takes the right person to make you feel it.

But I guess mine was wrong. I chose the wrong person.

I suddenly jolted when my phone vibrated. I took it from my pocket to see the caller ID.

And I nearly dropped my phone. Why didn't I deleted it or even renamed it?!

MY KOOKIE 💛✨
calling...

And why is he calling me?!

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Tbh, I ship Gyulisa more than Liskook. Seriously, I ship Mingyu and Lisa more. It's just that, Liskook is more popular so...
- satanya000

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