Taehyung

"Baby... If I had any idea, I could've told you. He hasn't even come out of his room since last night." I told Jennie over the phone.

He kept asking me to talk to Jungkook and ask him why they broke up. I was so shocked when I found that out from Jennie.

So that explains why he hasn't come out of his room. But this is just so sudden. Knowing Jungkook, everything that comes out of his mouth is Lisa and Lisa only.

His whole world revolved around her. If not second, it's either his parents or the music.

"Tell that coconut head that I will bust him open if he doesn't explain himself to Lisa." Jennie growled.

"Calm down. I'll go try and talk to him." I said.

"You better. Or you'll be busted too." She spat.

My eyes widened, "What?! But—"

She ended the call, not even saying i love you or even just a simple goodbye. :'(

I heaved a sigh in defeat as I gather my  body up and went straight to Namjoon Hyung's room. Well, I don't really think that Jungkook listens to me. I'm not even confident in giving advices since I, myself, needs one too.

"Hyung." I opened the door to his room and found him writing, probably composing.

"Oh, tae tae?" He gave me a smile.

"Are you busy?" I asked him.

"No. Do you need something?" He asked.

I walked inside his room and closed the door behind me. I looked at him seriously as I heave a deep sigh before sitting on his bed.

"Jungkook and Lisa... they broke up." I started. And as expected, Namjoon hyung's eyes widened.

"What? Since when?" He turned all of his attention to me and let his pen go.

"Last night. Jennie just told me." I answered.

Namjoon heaved a deep sigh of disappointment as he face palm himself. He pauses for a moment, trying to process what I had just told him.

"Talk to him, hyung. He hasn't come out of his room since last night. He skipped meals too." I said to Namjoon hyung.

He nodded, "I will." He stood up and finally left his room to talk to our maknae.

Jungkook

My phone is continuesly ringing. It has 104 missed calls from Bambam. He probably heard the news already.

I stayed unbothered in my seat as I play Overwatch on my computer to help me escape from the cruel reality.

I need a distraction. A big one. Or else I won't be able to last anymore.

My phone finally stopped ringing. I took it, and checked the messages. I found Bambam ranting on the 97liner groupchat.

I opened it.

'97LINER HOT DUDES
you and 6 others are online...

Bammie
Yah! Jeon Jungkook!
Answer my calls you
fucking rabbit!

YugYummy
Whoa, what's happening?

Bammie
Yah! Don't fucking leave
me on seen! Answer my
calls!

THE8
Bam, what's the tea?

MingCute
He's mad. Mad.

EunwoopsYoAss
What did you do this
time to piss his dabs,
Kook?

Bammie
I trusted you, Jeon Jungkook.

Jaejae
I think I know what's
going on here. 😏

YugYummy
Spill it, Jaehyun.

THE8
Probably about Lisa...

Bammie
I hope you're regretting
now. Because I am too.
For introducing her to
you, dickhead.

EunwoopsYoAss
That's a little rude, Bam.

Jaejae
Don't tell me...

YugYummy
What? @Jaejae???

THE8
Stop cutting off your
sentences Jaehyun and
get to the fucking point.

Jaejae
You guys are just too oblivious
to realize the real tea here.

EunwoopsYoAss
My nickname here sounds
so nice to do with u, Jaehyun.

Jaejae
I WAS JUST SAYING THAT
MAYBE JUNGKOOK AND
THE EVER PERFECT AND
REINCARNATION OF
GODDESS APHRODITE
BROKE UP. DUMBOS.

YugYummy
What?!

EunwoopsYoAss
Shut up... I mean, are you
serious? Bambam am I
seeing this right?

Bammie
Ask the genius.

THE8
Mingyu's smiling.

Jaejae
Bruh... @MingCute nows
not really the time to smile.

MingCute
I wasn't smiling.

THE8 (sent a photo.)

If that ain't called a smile
I don't know what it is.

YugYummy
eXpOSeD

You went offline.
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I nearly broke my phone from holding it and gripping it too much.

She's mine.

But I couldn't say it or even type it since I don't have the rights anymore. I fucking messed up everything.

I'm sure she's crying alone in her room, locking herself up, skipping meals, asking herself why I broke up with her.

If only I could tell her.

Tell her how much I missed her that night. How much I wanted to run away with her that night. How much... I love her and how much it'll cost me if she leaves me.

But I guess I'm just the coward in this story.

I'm the stupid, messed up, undeserving boyfriend for her.

I didn't even know I was already crying when I saw my keyboard glistened because of my tears.

A knock came by my door, knocking my senses back to reality. I immediately wiped my tears away and didn't answer the person knocking on my door.

I don't want to talk to anyone right now.

"Jungkook, it's me." I heard Namjoon hyung by the door.

I immediately stood up and opened the door for him, knowing that he's probably got the best advices to give me other than Suga hyung.

He stood there by my door step, looking at me with pure disappointment and of course, he seemed to already found out about it too.

"Can we talk?" He asked in a calm manner.

I opened my door wider to give him the sign to come in and have a talk. He sat on the edge of my bed as I settled back on my swivel chair to continue playing on my computer.

"I know you're not fine." Namjoon hyung started.

I held back tears to stay unbothered as possible and concentrated on my game.

"And I know you love her." He continued.

My hands automatically froze from playing the game, my system immediately was consumed by her again.

"You won't just break up with her that easily." Namjoon hyung said.

I pursed my lips and lowered my head as tears slowly started to build up in my eyes.

"Now, tell me. What's your reason, Kook?" I felt his arm on my shoulder.

I didn't answer. Instead, I covered my face with my palm to hide my pathetic coward self from the shit I just made.

I felt Namjoon hyung patting my back as I sob, "Let it all out. If you don't want to tell me or if something is holding you back, it's okay."

"But when it gets too much, I'm here. You also have five other brothers who are willing to help you out." He ruffled my hair.

"I love her, hyung." I said in between my sobs as I looked up to him.

He smiled, "I know, Kook. I know."

But I couldn't even do anything. I didn't even give myself a chance to fight for our relationship. I was overpowered by fear.

I was fucking scared and felt like a coward, until now.

I'm going to punish myself for this. I'm gonna let myself regret, hurt, for what I've done to her.

"Kook, our tour's gonna start next week. I hope that's enough time to help you prepare and concentrate." He said again.

I slowly nodded and wiped away my tears.

"Everything's gonna be alright. You're gonna be alright." He patted my back.

"Lisa's gonna be alright." He assured me again.

I hate to think about her getting herself blamed and hurt because of me.

"I know."

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Still hurts writing this...
- satanya000

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