Lisa

It's been almost a week since BTS sunbaenims went to the dorm. They didn't came back after my sudden action towards Jungkook.

Jungkook never contacted me or even heard a news about him either. That's what I wanted in the first place.

But why do I feel anxious? Worried? Nervous?

"Lisa? Are you okay?"

I jolted in surprise when Jennie unnie suddenly appeared beside me. I smiled at her.

"Yeah." I answered.

She sighed, "You're about to meet blinks but you're thinking about him."

"I wasn't. I was thinking about the next song." I lied while chuckling.

"Yeah, okay. Well, goodluck to us! Fighting!" She pinched my cheeks and ran towards her spot for the introduction.

We're here in Japan for our KCon together with other kpop groups. Seventeen, Apink, Everglow, Monsta X and others are going to perform with us.

And now I'm standing on the platform where Blinks will see us. Our song, D4 started as an introduction.

That's when I realized I'm going to enjoy KCon like Coachella. I braced myself as the platform slowly getting lifted.

This is it. The stage is the only place where I can forget everything and think about myself, my group, and my fans.

Nothing else matters.

7:12pm...

We just finished changing our clothes and finished our performance a few minutes ago.

I turned around from the vanity mirror and saw my unnies typing on their phones. Must be their boyfriends.

I sighed as I watch them blush from time to time and giggled like Mickey Mouse who got tickled by Bugsbunny or something.

These shameless hoes...

"I'm going to the bathroom!" I spat.

I left the dressing room and was about to go to the bathroom when I saw Mingyu's tall figure running towards me in the narrow hallway.

Look at that Giant.

"Hey!" He greeted me with a smile.

I smiled back, "Hey."

"You slayed the songs out there." He complimented.

"Look who's talking." I chuckled at him.

He giggled, "I just got excited."

"Why?"

He bit his lips and suddenly reached for my hands, "When you performed a while ago, you seemed like the Lisa whom everyone fell in love with 3 years ago."

I furrowed my brows at him, "What are you saying?"

"You didn't know? Your Boombayah era, didn't you receive any numbers from Bambam?" He asked.

"I don't remember any. But I remember Bambam telling me to focus on my career." I shrugged my shoulders.

He chuckled, "You got such a good friend, Lalisa."

I furrowed my brows, "Bambam? That evil princess? What do you mean?"

"Well, Bambam always ranted how stressful having you as a bestfriend. He got loads of numbers written in tissues in his hands in every award show just to give them to you. So many male idols admired you back then. And now they're even more, knowing that you and Jungkook broke up." He explained.

Oh...

Am I dumb for not knowing? I mean, I didn't really care about guys before. I was a rookie for pete's sake. I was a hundred and one percent careful.

Until Jungkook came.

"R-Really? I don't know if I wanted to hear that." I smiled awkwardly.

"I'm one of them, Lisa. I was one of them. From the very beginning, your pre debut. I was there watching you." He suddenly confessed.

I froze. What the hell is happening now? What nonsense is he saying? He sounds like Jungkook when that rabbit confessed to me.

Don't tell me...

"Lisa?"

Jungkook

I don't know why I'm still here inside the van with Taehyung when I obviously know what went wrong a week ago.

We're on our way to the KCon because Taehyung said he needed to recharge and see Jennie noona before our Osaka Tour tomorrow.

He dragged me with him and told me to settle things with Lisa.

But that woman was about to kill me a week ago! If I face her now, I'll only get rejected... again.

I don't want to interfere with her anymore. It just hurts more seeing her sad because of. I'd rather stay at home and regret until I'm satisfied.

"We're here!"

Me and Taehyung got off the van and went inside the VIP route towards the dressing room. As we walk down the hallway, I saw two familiar figures standing by the corridor.

We walked closer towards them until I saw Lisa facing Mingyu while they hold hands.

I clenched my fist.

Deal with it, Jungkook. This is all your fault anyways. Atone for it.

"Lisa~aa!" Taehyung interrupted the two in their lovey-dovey.

My eyes met Lisa but I immediately looked away. I can't bare to see her reaction seeing me like this. I have to stay focused and unaffected.

I don't want to bother her anymore.

"Oppa!" Lisa greeted back at him.

My eyes went in contact with Mingyu but he ended up avoiding my gaze and clearing his throat as if he committed a sin against me.

"Have you seen Jennie?" Taehyung asked her.

"Oh she's inside, Oppa." Lisa answered while pointing at the door behind her.

"Thanks! By the way, I watched you guys perform live. You did well!" Taehyung patted her shoulders.

Lisa smiled back, "Thanks oppa!"

"Let's go, Jk." Taehyung spat and I nodded as a response.

We continued walking but I felt Lisa's glued gaze towards me as we walk closer to her.

"Jung—"

I walked passed her before she could even finish saying my name.

I'm an idiot. I know.

I walked faster until me and Taehyung finally arrived inside the dressing room. Taehyung and Jennie immediately hugged each other as soon as we entered.

"Kookie!" Chaeyoung called for me and patted at the empty seat beside her.

I walked and sat beside her in the couch. I'm sure she's gonna just gonna talk how Jimin and her are the strongest couple among us.

"Where's Jimin?" Chaeyoung asked me as soon as I sat beside her.

"Resting." I shrugged my shoulders.

Chaeyoung nodded, "He must be tired, huh?"

"Well yeah. We just arrived. Don't worry, he'll probably find a way to meet you tonight." I assured her.

"Really? Thank you!" Chaeyoung giggled.

Was Lisa this happy when we were together too? Or was I too boring? Maybe I was? But I wasn't too busy when it comes to her. But we didn't meet that often before. Maybe I really wasn't fun to be with?

"Jungkook."

I jolted when I felt Chaeyoung's hand on my shoulder. I looked at her in confusion.

"You're spacing out. Are you okay?" She asked.

I nodded almost immediately, "Yeah, I'm fine." I let out a small smile.

Chaeyoung seemed to not buy it and was about to say something when Lisa suddenly entered the room.

Our eyes immediately met like an auto generated computer programmed for that purpose.

"Lali!" Chaeyoung jumped out of her seat and went to hug Lisa.

Lisa hugged her back but kept on stealing glances from me. Why is she looking at me like that?

Because she still hates you, dumbass. My subconsciousness whispered.

"Hyung, I'll wait for you outside." I told Taehyung and walked past Lisa again, leaving the dressing room.

As soon as I closed the door, I let out a deep sigh of relief.

Godness, she still have this strong effect on me. I'm still so fucking deeply drowning in love with her, I could die.

I shut my eyes close in stupidity, "She doesn't love you anymore. Wake up, idiot."

I leaned on a wall along the hallway and stared down at my balenciaga shoes.

These shoes we're actually bought in London together with another pair. I bought the other pair for Lisa so we can have the same model of shoes. But I never saw her wear it.

Maybe she didn't like it.

"Hey, Jungkook." A familiar voice called me.

I looked up and saw Mingyu looking at me from a meter away. I furrowed my brows in confusion.

"Hey." I greeted back, coldly.

"Can we talk?" He asked as he leaned on the wall beside me.

I chuckled, "We're already talking."

"It's about Lisa." He dropped the ice immediately.

I tilted my head, "What about her?"

He turned to face me, "I'm going to court her."

I froze, "W-Why are you telling me this?"

Mingyu scoffed, "You're her ex, Jungkook. I'm here to ask for your approval. I don't want to feel guilty and all when we meet. I want everything to go smoothly and come clean."

I pursed my lips, not wanting to answer him or even give him my blessing. But he's probably thinking about my fake relationship with Eunha and taking it as a sign that I don't love Lisa anymore.

But even if hell opens, I won't give him my blessing.

I just let out a small sigh and was about to walk away when he poke again.

"Besides, she already said Yes."

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Can they just go back together and stop hurting each other??? This is too much for my heart 😭💔
- satanya000