Lisa

I just finished eating my breakfast and went out of my room to wash the dishes since it's already my turn.

As soon as I exit my room, I found my unnies cleaning the living room and Jennie unnie getting busy in the kitchen.

"What's special? Why are you guys cleaning?" I stood by the tv.

Chaeyoung stood up from sweeping the floor, "You don't know? Jungkook didn't tell you?"

My brows furrowed. Jungkook? What could that jerk possibly tell me?

Jisoo unnie nudged Chaeyoung. It seems like they're hiding something from me, "Why would Jungkook talk to Lali? You're ridiculous, chipmunk."

Chaeyoung just scratched the back of her head and smiled at me, "Anyways, why don't you just go and do the dishes?" She pushed me towards the kitchen.

I walked passed Jennie unnie who is busy cooking something.

I nudged her, "What's going on? Do we have a visitor?" I asked her.

"We do." She answered.

My brows furrowed, "This early? Who?"

She stopped stirring and suddenly faced me, "Your ex and his hyungs are coming over."

...what?!

"Why—"

I was cut off of my words when the door bell rang, making me jolt and causing the plate to slip out of my hands.

The plate broke on the tiled floor like a sand. Great... Now, I have to clean this mess right this moment.

"Lisa! Try to be careful! Our Visitors are here!" I heard Jisoo unnie scolding.

I just scoffed and and crouched down to pick up the broken pieces of the plate. At that moment, I heard the door opening and Chaeyoung's voice, welcoming BTS into our dorm.

It's not like it's their first time. They've been here so many times before. Especially when Jungkook was still courting me.

I just stayed on the floor, cleaning up the mess when another pair of veiny familiar hands started picking up the pieces of the broken plate too.

I looked up and I guessed it right.

"Stand up." I coldy told him.

"Lisa—"

"I said stand up. I don't need your help." I glared at him and took the pieces of the plate from his palm.

Jungkook furrowed his brows at me, "Is something wrong?"

Wow... The audacity of his words. He's gonna ask me what's wrong when he basically shoved that I'm nothing more than a stranger to him.

I scoffed, "Is something wrong? Really? You're going to ask me a stupid question?"

I'm trying my very best not to stab this jerk with the broken plates i have in my hands since I felt the stares of my unnies and his hyungs towards us.

They must've been enjoying the drama and chose to not meddle with our business.

"You're upset for no reason. It doesn't make any sense." Jungkook tried to grab the plate on my hands but I stood up and looked down at him.

It doesn't make any sense? Seriously? He totally lost it huh. After lying to me, now he's gonna pretend to be the victim.

I guess you want a good play, Jungkook. Sure, I'll give you one.

"Fine."

I let go of the plates and let it scatter one more time on the floor, in front of him. The plates broke and some broken pieces scratched my leg a little, causing it to bleed.

I heard my unnies gasped. Jungkook's eyes widened and so are his hyungs.

"Lisa!" Jennie looked at me wide-eyed.

I looked down at Jungkook, "You can clean this mess up. It's the least you can do to make me consider forgiving you."

I said and left him there. I walked back inside my room to find that fucking damn envelope that his company gave me.

I finally found it inside my bedside table drawer. I immediately took it and walked back out of my room, rushing my way to Jungkook.

I threw the envelope on his face.

"Take your fucking message with you. I don't need it. To tell you the truth, Jeon Jungkook..." I walked closer to him, attempting to whisper on his left ear.

I gritted my teeth in anger, "I'll never consider you as my ex. I'm not the old Lisa anymore. I'm done playing games with you. You're never a part of me. From now on..."

I leaned closer for him to hear clearer.

"Leave me the fuck alone. You're long forgotten."

Jungkook

After saying those hurtful words that will probably left a huge scar in my chest or might not heal anymore, she left me in the kitchen just like that.

I bit my lips hard, not caring until it bleeds. I just had to stop my tears. It's way better to bleed than to cry. And the pain on my lips can't compare to what I'm feeling inside right now.

I felt like dying.

"J-Jungkook, you're bleeding." Jisoo noona immediately handed me a tissue.

But I didn't took it. I was too focused staring down at the envelope that Lisa threw at my face earlier.

I crouched down and took it. I opened the envelope, taking out the paper and read it.

From:
BigHit Entertainment

Our fellow Yg Ent, we are addressing you to cooperate with us regarding the matter in Nickelodeon Mexico Nominations 2019. Jeon Jungkook of BTS has confirmed no connection in any way, romantic, friendly, or even in a casual manner does he have for Lisa of Blackpink.

We are requesting for your humble favor to give notice to your artist to stop meddling with our artist.

Again, we apologize for any discomfort.

Thank you.
...

What the fuck...

I gritted my teeth in anger. I almost crampled the paper and had the urge to punch someone.

I couldn't stop my tears anymore.

I already have too much in my plate. I already sacrificed a lot of myself into everything. And now, this?

How can BangPD betray me like this?!

I didn't waste any time and walked out of their dorm even though my hyungs are calling my name to comeback, or asking me where I'm going.

I'm going to clear my name.

I didn't care about people recognizing me but I just drove our car without manager's permission and went straight to BigHit building.

BIGHIT ENTERTAINMENT...

I rushed my way up to the highest floor, barging inside BangPD's office. Only to find him peacefully drinking his coffee.

"Oh, Jungkook! What brings you he—"

I didn't let him finish and threw the envelope on his desk like a mad dog.

But who cares? It's all his fault. I thought BangPD is an ally to me. I guess people really have to betray me, huh? This must be my karma.

"Why did you do this?" I glared at him.

He raised an eyebrow at me, "Look at you talking so disresptful to me."

"Why would I respect someone who gave out a false message using my name?!" I bursted out.

"Are you shouting at me now, Jeon Jungkook?! Do you not know where you are and who you're talking to—"

"Why would someone whom I thought could help me get better do this to me?! I trusted you, Sajangnim!" I exclaimed.

He scoffed, "You're right. You trusted me. That's why I did what I had to. That shameless ship and whatever relationship you have with that Blackpink member has been taken care of. You should be thankful."

I face palmed myself, "You don't understand! Take back the message and tell them it's not true!"

BangPD furrowed his brows at me, "Not true? Are you trying to tell me that you actually dated that Blackpink member?"

Shit...

I gulped "S-Sajangnim, you can't just release a false response with my name on it. Lisa and I are..."

"Leave me the fuck alone. You're long forgotten."

Fuck. She hates me already. She said it. She already forgot about me a long time ago. She already threw our memories away. She already...

Moved on.

"Lisa and you are what?" Sajangnim asked.

I bit my lips again, "Nothing..."

"Nothing? Barging in my office like a mad dog tells a different story, Jungkook. Do you like Lisa?" He squinted his eyes at me.

No. I don't like her. I love her. So much.

I just lowered my head. This is too frustrating. I couldn't fight for our relationship before. Even until now, I'm still powerless. I'm a useless coward jerk.

Maybe this is really our fate.

I must've committed a huge sin in my past life to get punished this painful in this lifetime.

"You're not answering me?" BangPD glared at me.

I just ignored him and walked out of his office. I went to my GCF studio and locked myself in.

I opened my computer and immediately saw Lisa on the screen. She's my desktop wallpaper. She's even my phone screen wallpaper.

I noticed the digicam on the corner of my computer table.

The one she gave as a gift to me on our last anniversary.

I took the cam and opened it. Only to find videos of me and her on our secret dates.

Those late nights I spend with her in the streets of Hongdae. Those moments when we ate our hearts to the extent at Busan and when I introduced her to my family. That one time I filmed her practicing her 'I like it like that' choreography. There were also footages of me and her just enjoying our life as a happy couple.

We sure do looked happy. We looked like were ready to risk everything for each other. We looked like nothing mattered more than being together.

Seeing this, makes me want to trade everything I have for a time travelling machine.

If I could turn back time, I could've been braver and worked harder to be able to fight for her and for us.

I could've done something to prevent things like what's happening right now.

If I wasn't coward enough, she must be right here by my side, editing our films together. Botg her Lilifilm and my Golden Closet Film.

But I couldn't turn back time. I don't have the facilities for a miracle.

All I can do now... is regret this for the rest of my life.

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I actually cried watching the video. I'm just too soft I'm sorry.
- satanya000