Song: Hater - Korn

I had found the perfect place under the bridge for the night. Hopefully no one will see me under here and maybe I can get a few hours of sleep. I should have thought more wisely while I was out earlier and grabbed a damn coat...hell a blanket would have been even better. I toss and turn trying to keep warm but my body shivers from all the coldness. I push myself farther up into the corner hoping to get some of the wind off of me but even here it's freaking just as cold. I'm not sure how long I sleep but when I force my eyes open, I can see the morning sun peaking under the bridge.

I roll out and dust myself off as I stand up. Well my first night out on my ass wasn't so bad. I stand off to the side and pee in the grass. Once I zip my pants back up, I walk out into the street. I never thought he would actually throw me out. Hell all these years of yelling about it and beating the shit out of me every time I came home a little fucked up...he always threatened to kick my ass out...I just never believed he would. My mother always found a way around all of his madness...she was the one who kept me in that house under their roof. Hell if it wasn't for her I would have been thrown out a long time ago.

I look up as a school bus passes by and that's when it dawns on me that it must be a Monday...I should go but then again why fucking bother, I freaking hate that place. But my stomach tells me otherwise that I need to go...at least there I can eat breakfast and lunch...maybe I will even put some back for later tonight. If I'm not mistaken my mom has paid up for the remainder of the month.So that's what I do...I head to school...the other place that I hate almost as much as I hate home...wait...what home. I don't even have one of those anymore.

I walk in and go straight to the cafeteria and grab a tray. Scrambled eggs with two slices of bacon and toast along with a carton of milk...the moment the first bite hits my stomach the hunger goes away. I throw the trash away and place the tray in the bin before walking to my first class. I see some of the guys walking down the hall towards me and I try to avoid the jerks but they spot me and in seconds I am thrown into to the bathroom.

I try to fight against them and reach out to grab the sides of the stall but there are four of them...against my little ass and in seconds my head is coming in contact with the water in the bottom of the toilet. I hear one of them flushing the handle over and over. They jerk me out and water slings out everywhere. Tony shoves me against the wall. "The next time I see you even looking at me little sister you gay little fucker it will be the last time." He punches me two times in the stomach while his buddies hold me back.

When they let go I fall to the floor. Adam squats down next me and smirks, "Next time little fairy we won't be as nice." He stands back up and kicks me in the side before walking out the door.Those four have been torturing the shit out of me for the past two years.

 We all use to be friends...back in elementary school but over the years things changed drastically. Back then it wasn't that bad but ever since high school came along and that one stupid party everything changed. That party was the first time I started drinking and I over done it. I was so fucked up that I can't remember anything but there are pictures of me trying to hump everyone...even guys and I guess that's why they think I am into guys...but I'm not.

Drinking was one thing...but then I started sniffing and doing other shit. Stuff that made me really zone out and do fucked up shit. It didn't help that every time I was out hanging out with the crowd that I got wasted and once hooked up with a guy in the closet but we only kissed and I let him jerk me off...but seriously...I was wasted and when I drink I do a lot of crap that I just don't remember.

So this thing about Tony sister is a joke. Hell she would never go out with me and honestly I don't know if I want to even go out with her. And she is pretty don't get me wrong here...it's just she's not what I am into. She only came to me to ask if I could help her with her Biology Project and of course I told her that I would help her. But the thing is I did the whole thing and all I got was a thank you, not even an hug or a kiss on the cheek...hell not even a simple smile. So it kinda pissed me off and that is why I went out and got fucked up. Why I went home plastered and got my ass kicked out for good this time.

I don't bother going to the rest of my classes, instead I hang outside and wait for lunch and then make my way into the line only to grab a sack lunch and head back out the door. I walk to the park and sit down to eat and then hang out for the remainder of the day. When it gets closer to dark, I walk back to the bridge and curl up in the far corner and try to fall asleep. It's so freaking cold; it amazes me how the homeless do this...how do they get use to this and I dread when it get really cold.

For the rest of the week...I get up to the sun waking me up. There is no place to take a shower and even if I did I still have to put the same dirty clothes on. I force myself to get up and go to that god awful places only because I'm starving and each day I get my ass kicked. It doesn't matter how much I try to avoid them, they always seem to find me. Every morning I end up in the bathroom. Hell I don't even bother fighting back that way they will get in a few punches and then get bored and leave me there to dry on the floor.

On Friday night one of the football players is having a party after the game and I end up at his house because I know there will be food and booze and hell maybe I can even do a score if no one is looking. I don't belong with this crowd but I know they will all be drinking and not give a shit what I am doing. I walk in with my head down low and go straight to the kitchen. I find a bag of Cheetoes and start munching away. I grab a beer and find a corner hoping to be left alone.

 An hour or so goes by and I already had four...maybe five beers. I stand up and nearly fall over the couple that is making out beside me and that is when they spot me. "Look what we have here...you came to get your ass kicked." Tony says loud enough for others to hear.

The room goes quite...they all want to see a good fight. I start backing up closer to the back door and once I can feel the knob in my hand I smile at them. "Eat shit you mother fuckers..." I open the door and take off running.

Of course they come running after me. I jump the bushes and run for my life; I fall over several times and that is due to the buzz that I am having. I have a feeling once they catch up to me I am done for. So I run...I'm in the middle of the city and stop to look back to see them coming down the street. Holy fuck they don't ever give up. I run down the alley way and that was my mistake. I look around and it's a dead end. What the fuck. There is a black car with dark tinted windows, maybe I can hide in there but to my luck the doors are locked so I have no choice but to turn around to face them.

I'm out of breath and I hold my side from where it is now hurting from running so fast. I turn to see the four of them coming right at me. Tony jerks me up with one hand. "What did you say to me back there?"He doesn't give me time to respond as his fist comes in contact with my cheek.

 I try to stand up on my wobbly feet but when he hits me again I fall against the car. The four of them kick the fucking shit out of me and I hear my ribs crack. I slide to the ground and then curl up in a fetal position to protect them from hurting me more but they continue to pound the fucking shit out of me until they have had their fun. Once they are done...or I thought they were done...Adam unzips his pants and pisses all over me while laughing the whole time.

I wake up in the alley way with no shoes. I guess someone in the middle of the night took them. That is why I didn't want to sleep out here and why the bridge is a little safer. At least there no one can see me not unless they are really looking. I smell like shit. I smell him all over me...fucking urine...what the hell...this is how pathetic I am. I force myself to sit up, while holding my ribs...God they hurt like hell and I know one has got to be broken...hell maybe two or three. I don't know but the pain is unreal.

Once I have my back up against the building, I look around and the only thing in the alley way is a black car. I can't see if anyone is inside or not because the windows are tinted so much. I watch as two guys come out of one of the buildings. I watch as the one opens the trunk and the other places in buckets and chemicals of some kind. Once everything is in, the one closes the truck and then takes off his gloves before stopping to look at the car. There are a few dints in it and scratched to hell...even the mirror is broken along with the front lights. The other guy looks at the other and I can't hear what they are saying but they both look really pissed off.

I watch as the one guy gets in the back while the other gets in the front and starts the car. As it rolls by me...I try to look away hoping they did not see me. I feel like I have seen them before but not sure from where. I block it out of my head; I have other things to worry about...like getting my ass up off of this cold hard ground. I see the car stop at the end of the alley and then it backs up. Shit...I know they saw me. What the hell.

I force myself to stand up and I look around for a way to escape. I see the fire escape ladder and start to force my way up; my chest and side are on fire from the cracked ribs and bruising. I climb all the way to the top of the building. I look over the ledge to see if I can see anyone coming up. The car is still parked there but I don't see anyone looking.

Before I even turn back around I hear his voice behind me. "You won't die...if you jump."

I slowly turn around but it is so dark up here and all I see is a black mass in front of me. "I wasn't going to jump." I say with a shaky voice.

"Good..because from this height...you will only break a few bones and wish you were dead."

"Who the fuck are you?"

"The Cleaner...I've seen you around town a lot the past few nights. Are you the one that fucked up my car or did you see who did?"