Song: What if the storm ends- Snow Patrol

"Atticus...Earth to Atticus...what is going on in that head of yours?" She tries to get my attention as she rubs her soft sweet hand through my hair and then climbs on top of me. Her lips are so soft, almost velvety and taste like her cherry lip gloss. I let her tongue invade my mouth and then I spring to life waking up whatever trance I am in. "There you are...where were you?"

I kiss her back and then glare into her amazing blue eyes. I don't dare tell her everything that I am really thinking. I so need to tell her about the other night but I just don't have the heart to break hers. "Sorry...I just have a lot going on in my mind right now...with you leaving in the morning and all."

"You promised you would come visit me...you will won't you?" She kisses me again planting her lush lips against mine.

"Yes...I will find a way." I told her I would do everything I possible could to come see her in New York.

"Take me...make love to me Atticus. It's our last night together...give me something to remember you by." She runs her hands down my chest and then back up. When she goes back down she unbuttons my jeans and then unzips my zipper. Her hand pulls out my shaft and she looks up and me with this crazy greedy smile before going down on me. I feel my eyes roll in the back of my head. It's not the first time she has gone down on me...this is something that we have been doing. Her doing me...me doing her...we just haven't gone all the way with each other. I keep holding back afraid of the monster that might come out of me and then she will hate me for what I am. She stops to look up at me and then sits up and kisses my lips again. "Please...you know you want this just as much as I do."

"Fine." I shake my head and get out of the car. I go around to the trunk and pull out the blanket that I have been carrying around for this soul purpose and place in on the ground next to the car. We are in the middle of some open field, far away from everyone. She stands there looking at me with those wanting eyes. I have seen that look before and tonight I just don't feel like holding back any longer.

I step closer to her and slowly take off her shirt and then I unfasten her bra. Her breast are so perky and my hand gravitates towards them. I suck on one while pulling up on her mini shirt to find my way to her panties. I watch her reaction and she is all smiles. I slowly pull her panties off along with her skirt...she is standing there in the moonlight like a goddess, my sweet angel.

I strip out of my clothes. I quickly dive in my pocket for the packet and open it with my teeth then slide on the condom only because there is no way I'm having a kid right now. In seconds my hands are all over her and I pull her down to the blanket. I want all of her...I have always wanted all of her. I can't stop myself.I am close to entering her when she screams out.

"Wait...that hurts...Atticus...slow down."

I am so use to be with women that have already had sex that I didn't even know that doing this could hurt. I look at her and wait for the go. She blinks a few times and then nods. I slowly enter her and a moan escapes her lips, so sweet that I am already wanting to go but tell myself to hold it off.

I'm very cautious at first but then she is grabbing my back and pulling me into her and I go harder...forcing myself deep inside of her. She keeps yelling and screaming for me to stop but then right after tell me she wants more and I give it to her...all of it. I'm I my own world and when feel my release it is only then that I look down and see her crying. "Ahhh...shit...did I hurt you...Oh...God...I'm sorry...I would never..."

"I'm fine...it was just really intense." She wipes a stray tear from her cheek.

I lean in and kiss the remainder of her tears. "Baby...please forgive me...I would never hurt you intentionally."

"I know...I'm fine...I promise."

When I stand up there is blood all over the blanket and I start to panic. "Oh...fuck..I did hurt you didn't I...you sure you are ok...I'm..."

She looks down and sees the blood but shrugs it off. "It's my first time...I hear girls bleed their first time...hey no worries...I'm ok...all right." She takes the blanket and rubs of the rest of the blood between her legs and then rolls the blanket up. I toss it back in the trunk to get rid of later.

I drive her back home. On the way I glance over at her and she has her eyes closed...softly sleeping. When I pull up, I wake her up. "Hey...we are here...sleepyhead."

She looks up at me and smiles. "I will never forget you."

"I hope not." I get out and go around to open the door for her. I hold out my hand and she takes it. When she is next to me she kisses me again. "You sure you are ok...I never meant to hurt you?"

"Atticus...stop...I'm fine. By the way you were amazing...I thought you would have been just as nervous as me but you knew what you were doing. What do they teach boys how to make love to girls like that?"

"What?" I start to laugh like where in the hell did that come from.

"That was your first time too...right. I mean we have been putting this off for months now...waiting for each other...that perfect moment."

My eyes cast the ground and then anywhere but directly at her. She shoves me hard. "Atticus...tell me that was your first time too."

"I...I..."

She gets all defensive and pissed off. I see the look in her eyes...the hurt. "When...who was she...I want to know. Was we together at the time or before me? Tell me dammit!" I try to embrace her and she shoves me hard. "No...tell me...I want to know the truth."

"There was only one time." I lie through my teeth; there have been several girls since that first time but I can't tell her that. "Look...my boss threw a party for me for my eightieth birthday and he took me to this club...there he had a woman take me to the back room. Sara it was only the one time...believe me there is no one I would want to be with other than you. Sara look at me...I only want you."

Her eyes cast downward and I give her a minute to collect her thoughts. "Did you enjoy it...with her I mean...did you?"

"Sara...it wasn't like that. Dammit...I was scared alright...I shook like a leaf...with you I felt safe. I felt like I could be myself with you."

She wraps her arms around me and I feel the tension leave her body. She kisses me again. "You need to tell this boss of yours that you are taken...and not to hire any more women to seduce you while I'm gone."

"That I will." I kiss her again. I know she is not happy about the whole fact that I was with someone else but I hope that she really can get over the fact that...that is in the past. I don't ever plan on being with anyone else but her.

 I don't want her to go but I finally let her go. I watch her walk into the house. When she gets to the door she turns and blows me a kiss. I go back to the car and when I get in I see headlights behind me blaring...blinding the shit out of me. I start up the car and take off. However the car behind me follows me. I push the pedal to go faster and then turn on several roads to lose the guys ass but he continues to follow me. Whoever it is wants a good ass kicking. I look up and the lights are gone.

 I guess I lost him but then seconds later the lights come back on and the truck is ramming into the back of the car. What the hell. I swerve on the road, almost losing control of the car but quickly get it going straight again. He continues to come at me and when the tires hit the grass the right way I spin around several times. I look up to see headlights coming right at me. He rams into the side of the car. I feel the metal come around my body...pinning me in.

 I fight with the stupid seatbelt and the damn thing is stuck. Lights flash around me and I see figures walking over towards me. I see the ball bats in their hands. I can't make out a face yet until Tony steps close to me and starts laughing. "Now what are you going to do?" He swings the bat into his hand like he is some badass with it.He takes the bat and slams it hard against the windshield...glass goes flying and I close my eyes. He is not alone. His other friends start banging the shit out of the car...yes the mint perfect condition Corvette...my baby...his baby.

I fight with the damn seatbelt but it doesn't budge. So help me the moment I get out of here he is dead right along with the rest of them. I pull the knife out of my pocket and slice the belt off of me. As I am trying to climb out I feel a wack up against my back. It only pisses me off. In the process of getting out, my leg has a massive sharp pain but I block it out. I climb all the way out but then I fall to the ground in seconds.

Each one of them beat the fucking daylights out of me. I spit out blood onto the ground and try to force myself back up. Tony walks over and grabs me by the back of the head and holds it up so that I can see his eyes. "I told you to stay away from my sister. You think you are a bad ass because you started working out and growing a set of balls...you are nothing. We are done here...the next time I will kill you."

I spit blood out on his shoes and smirk back at him. "I will be waiting."

His foot comes up and kicks the shit out of me. I fall hard to the ground and they do another round on me before taking off. I should get up...I should but I can't feel anything.