Song: How to dance in time- Blue October

I follow them all the way back to her apartment. Comes to find out he stays the fucking night. I am so pissed off that I can't think straight. I go back to the Club and find the guys. I drink one glass after another and when I can't see straight I stumble to the back room and fuck the hell out of one of the girls. It's more of a hate fuck, I guess you could say because I don't give a shit if I even hurt the girl or not I just wanted to fuck it all out of my system...seeing her with that dick weed.

The guys had to help me back to the hotel. I sleep in and when I do get up, I have a massive hang over. Zane  hands me a drink. "Here this will help. Get your shit together we should be leaving in the next hour or so."

It's not the type of drink I prefer however it will help me get over the way that I feel. "I can't go back...not now. I have to know what the hell she is doing with that guy." I run my hands through my hair before glancing at my phone to see if she has even bothered to text me back. Of course nothing and why should there be...I'm sure she is lying up in bed with that asshole.

He shakes his head like I got to out of my mind but then he surprises me. "Fine then...I will give you a few weeks to get your shit together...if I don't see you by the end of the month don't bother coming back. I can always train a new guy."I'm shocked that he put it that way...like he can just train another guy, replace me like I'm nothing. I don't bother saying a thing though because honestly I don't see him doing giving up on me that easily.

I stay in and take a shower and then head out for the day. I follow her around more but I make sure that she doesn't see me. I wait a day before bumping into her on the street. She is shocked to see me. "Oh...my God...Atticus...you are here...in...in New York. What are you doing here?" She acts all surprised while wrapping her arms around me. Her sweet aroma surrounds me and I feel at home with her.

"Taking a small break. So how have you been doing?" I try to make simple conversation but hope to catch her off guard...maybe even give a hint that she was with someone else.

"Uhm....busy with...with school and all. Oh wow...I can't believe you are here." She says it like I caught her in the act of doing something she shouldn't be doing. I watch her reaction as she glances around us, pulling the lose strands away from her face. "Are you hungry...there is this coolest little café on the corner." She grabs my arm placing hers in mine.

"Sure...I'm starving."We walk down to the corner and find a table outside in the open fresh air. She keeps looking around as if looking for someone else.

"So you haven't been replying to my text lately...guess you been really busy." I look up at her and watch her posture change and she keeps blinking and looking all around us as if trying to void the topic.

"Yes. Well with school and I started a job and then my cousin moved down so I...I just been really busy. Anyway, crazy question..." She licks her lips and the bites the bottom lip before changing the subject. "I know you don't like my brother but he is still missing." Her hand covers her mouth. "My parents haven't seen or heard from him in months...do you happen to know anything about that?" She looks a little heartbroken as she reaches out and touches my hand." My parents and I are really worried...Atticus...you haven't heard anything have you?"

I twirl her hand around and now her hand is under mine. I lightly tap and massage the top of her hand. "Why would I know anything about your brother; you know I hate him."

She pulls away from me while taking a sip of her drink. "I know...it's just...I was hoping maybe you knew something. I mean you are always out and about and that boss of yours...you really haven't heard anyone talking about him?"

I reach over and touch her hand again. "No I haven't...sorry I wish I could help you." I put that night in the farthest part in the back on my mind under a lock and key. I will never tell anyone about that night. I change the subjects. "So this cousin...is it a girl or a guy?" My hand tightens around her hand.

She smiles back with a fake smile this time; she almost looks scared in that moment. "A guy...why does it matter."

"It doesn't I was just asking. Does he live here as well?" I press on.

"He moved here a few weeks ago. So how long are you staying?" She changes the subject yet again like she just doesn't want me to find out something.

"Just the rest of the week I have to leave out on Friday. Maybe you could introduce me to this cousin of yours."

"Maybe...but he also has school and works and we will see. I hate that you can only stay the week...bummer...well I should show you around." She stands up and jerks my hand in her direction and we take off down the street. I let her point out different buildings and give me the scoop of the town. She doesn't really want me to go back to her place so we go to the hotel where I am staying.

 Damn she is fine...nothing like the other girls that I have been with. I slowly dance with her on the balcony. I hold her close to me and swirl her around. I watch her face light up and then I lean in and touch her soft lips. She closes her eyes the moment our lips touch and I feel that she is still mine. My hands glide down to her shirt and slowly pull it off. I toss it to the floor and then remove her bra. I let her take my shirt off and then we are pulling on each other's jeans, finally managing to jerk them off and slinging them to the side as well. I run my hand through her hair and grip the back of her neck pulling her closer into me. I start kissing her cheek and then down to her neck, lifting her up in one quick motion. She doesn't pull away from me. She wants this just as much as I do. I carry her over to the bed and lay her down. I climb on top of her and continue to kiss all over her soft velvety sooth skin. She is like a Goddess.

I make my way down to her sweet spot and take her with my tongue. I love the way she moans out and the way she grabs the back of my head wanting more. I look up at her with a smile. "Tell me you want me baby....tell me you want me."

"I want you Atticus...God I have missed you so much." She pulls me into her and god I love the way her lips meet with mine.I kiss her again before entering her. I don't fuck her...I make sweet passionate love to her so that she will never forget this moment hoping that she will never want to leave me. Hoping that whoever the other guys is...is actually just a guy and nothing for me to worry about.

A part of me hoped that she would just leave and come back with me leaving all this behind but I knew she would never leave this place for now. I let her lay on my chest afterwards and she silently falls asleep in my arms.

The next day she makes arrangements to spend the day with me. "What about school...you can't miss a day."

She stands on her tip- toes and wraps hers arms around me. "It's just one day. I can make it up. Now do you want to see more of the city or stay here in bed all day?" She starts to dance with only a robe on and I watch as she teases me dropping the one side so that I can see her naked shoulder underneath.

"Can we do both?" I smile and take a step closer to her. I take one hand and push the robe farther down to expose her breast. Within seconds I grab her breast and lean in to kiss the nipple before placing it in my mouth and sucking it. She immediately wraps her hands around my neck.

"Guess we are staying in." She laughs.

And we do. We go another round and I watch as her body twitches and jerks in my hold. I always make sure she goes. I want to always be able to please her.

 Afterwards she is all out of breath. "God...how do you always manage to do that to me?"I just smile and kiss her cheek before climbing out of bed. "Where are you going?" She asks.

"To take a shower...and you are coming with me." I pull her up and then throw her naked body over my shoulder caring her to the bathroom. I turn on the water and once it is hot enough we both get in and take a shower. We clean each other off and then once done dry each other as well. Then we go into town.

 Not once does she mention the guy from the other night so I assume that he was just the cousin. I do catch her texting and I assume it is to him. "Who do you keep texting to?"

"Sorry." She puts the phone away. "Brantley was just seeing how I was doing."

"Brantley...uh...the so called cousin." I lower my eyes at her daring her to tell me the truth without just coming out and asking her.

She rolls her eyes at me. "He is just a cousin Atticus...just drop it." She shakes her head and looks away from me.

"And I have not yet to meet this guy; are you keeping me from meeting him?"

"No...he has just been really busy with school and work."I should press on but I drop it. I hate getting into arguments and I for sure don't want to raise my voice or lay a hand on her. My step-father use to beat the shit out of my mom and I can't be like him, so I drop the subject for now.

When Friday comes we say our goodbyes but I don't really leave. I want to watch her to see if she is telling the truth about this guy or not. I follow her for the next two weeks. A few times he is with her and they are always holding hands. There were even a few times I swear he kissed the side of her cheek. I stay back in the shadows and watch. I should just come right out and confront the two but I'm waiting for the right time.

Then there she is...god she is fucking beautiful. She has her hair pinned up in some kind of twist and a few strands fall loosely around her face. I watch as she comes out of the apartment in a formal dress and he walks up to her in a tux. He grabs a hold of her hand and brings it to his lips. As soon as she starts laughing with excitement he leans in and kisses her right on the lips. I know in that moment this is more than just be cousins. She has been lying this whole time. I follow them downtown to an Opera house. I followed right on in behind them. I waited till he got up in the middle of the play and followed him out. I made sure that I bumped right into him.

"Oh...sorry man, please forgive me I'm a little clumsy." I say in a low growl.

"It's alright no problem. I needed to get out of there. These chicks they all love these things; me on the other hand I would rather be back at home watching the game or fucking...you know what I mean." He lets out a laugh. "How about you?"

"I don't mind too much. So you here with your wife, uh." I ask to see what he has to say.

"Oh...no...I'm not married; just out with my girl. Hell...I thought about asking her though. How about yourself?"

"Same...I have wanted to ask her to marry me but not sure she will say yes."

He turns and grabs a towel to dry off his hands. "Well I guess I better get back she will be worried that I got lost."

"I think she will be alright. You want to grab drink at the bar...hell it's not like you care to watch that shit anyway right?"

He looks down at his watch. "Sure what the hell...why not. I can spare a few more minutes."

We go into the bar and have a drink. He just doesn't know that I put a little something in his. He goes to stand up after the second drink and is a little off balance. "Here let me help you man." I stand up and help him up. We walk outside. We are at the side of the building and I don't know what comes over me but I have him in a choke hold and I am strangling the life out of him. I want him to disappear. I hate thinking of him with my girl.

I happen to look up when I hear a small scream coming down the alley way. "Atticus...what the hell are you doing?" She screams out and I know in that moment she knows that I did the same to her fucking dickhead brother. If I can kill this guy, I can kill anyone.

"What does it look like?" I say in a low tone with a growl and finish him off letting his body fall to the ground beside me feet. I don't bother looking down at him because my eyes are focused on her...and the shadow behind her.

I already know it is him. I don't know how he knew I would be here but he does. He knows everything. I knew what was about to take place. I knew in that moment that this is our last goodbye. He will never let her live to tell what just happened.

"Atticus...I swear we were only friends...please don't do this. Atticus please...look at me. Is this what happened to Tony...did you kill him...his friends?" When I don't say anything she knows and I see the horror in her eyes. "How could you..."

"How could you...you said he was your cousin yet you let him kiss you, touch you...and your fucking brother...nobody gives a fuck about him."

A few more tears come out and she looks down shaking her head like she just can't deal with any of this. "I do...Atticus..."

I watch as he places his hands around her beautiful neck. Her eyes go wide and she looks so frightened in that moment. I see the fear as she glances back over at me wanting me to help her from this. When she sees that I don't move towards her another tear slowly slides down her cheek. The knife glistens in the moonlight over head and I just stand there in silence...watching the one I love fade to darkness.

Ashton pulls up next to him and gets out of the car to open up the truck. He walks over and grabs the guy that I just killed and tosses him in the back. I walk over to her lifeless body and hold her in my arms. I pick her up and carry her over to the back of the car. Her body rest in my arms right up next to my chest. The scent of her coconut shampoo overwhelms me as I feel  it surrounds all around me. I hesitate for a second while I look down at her resting state and then plant a kiss on her lips one last time. I put her body in carefully on top of the guy.

Zane slams the trunk door and looks over at me. I have nothing to say a part of me is still in shock. Did all of that just happened...wait...my love...she is gone. I feel his hand on my shoulder. "Don't worry about it...I will take care of everything. Come home now...where you belong."