Thursday, 4:00 am

me: Hey

I know you're reading this

And I know you said you won't reply

But you never said I shouldn't text you

So 

Hey

How are you

I guess you're okay

I just want to let you know that I'm okay too

Yeah

So 

Um

Bye.

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Taehyung kept reading the messages over and over until his phone stopped dinging with them. He took a few moments before he started typing...

"Okay? Do you think I'd be okay? Well, let me tell you then. Yes, I'm okay physically but in my head, I'm not okay. It was hard before you, but it's harder now. Because I know that there is someone in this world who understands me, loves me and I'm just a coward who can't let go of these... probably unreal fears and just go to her and tell her that I love her and let everything out. I just wish I could tell you everything that happens to me everyday, things that break me into pieces, all this frustration, this suffocation... but... I can't. What's the use anyway? You can't do anything for me, and they'll just make you sad. So I guess...I'm staying away..."

And then he pressed delete.

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She received no reply.