Holt in Horse form ^^

Caleb POV 

"How do you feel now that Holt is talking to you again?" Vince asked. 

"I feel… conflicted. He didn't feel wanted or loved and I have no idea what I did to make him feel that way. I grounded him but he should still know I love him right?" I asked. 

"He's a teenager, no kid feels loved when they're punished. It's like your heart sinks and you have a pit in your stomach." Eric sighed. 

"Is that how you felt with your mom?" Nathan asked him. 

"Honestly, yea. My dad was the only one who knew I was gay and accepted me. Anytime she caught me watching porn she'd lock me in the cellar of our house and not feed me for a week. She did other things but I'll spare you the details." He said biting his lip. Vince hugged him into his body as he rubbed his back gently and Eric closed his eyes, just enjoying the show of affection from his mate.

We were all in bed just talking and having a lazy day when we looked over at Adin groaning in pain and I saw the bed was wet under them.

"Shit!" We all jumped out of bed and I rushed Adin to the pack hospital. 

"Dr. Baldwin!" I called out.

He came rushing out of his office.

"Adin's in labor." Dr. Baldwin said, rushing them to a room. I knew that but whatever. 

I was just waiting for my mates when they came in and Vince tossed me my jeans and Seth handed me a shirt and my shoes and a pair of socks. I was so focused on Adin I didn't realize I was only in my boxer briefs and no shoes. 

"Thanks my loves." I kissed them and got dressed. 

When I was dressed we all went back to the room and there was our mate smiling weakly. 

"How are you feeling?" I asked, holding their hand. 

"Tired, one of the little buggers didn't want to come out." Adin chuckled and I watched as our mates went to see our babies. 

"Which three out of the seven names did you pick?" I asked.

"Alvin, Calvin, and Odin." I nodded. 

"What are their full names? Whose last name did you go with?" Seth asked. 

"Blackstone." Adin smiled. 

"The first crib is Odin Cal Blackstone, in the middle is Calvin Mason Blackstone, and lastly is Alvin Hunter Blackstone." We all looked at our babies. They're so freaking cute. 

"Are you hungry babe?" I asked Adin. 

"I could eat." They nodded. 

Honestly, none of us ate since breakfast and it was nearing almost four in the afternoon. 

"Ok, we'll be back in a bit." We kissed Adin and went home to make food. 

When we finished making lunch we walked back over. 

When we walked in they were on the phone."Here you go, babe." 

"Holt I'll talk to you later we love you." Adin said hanging up. 

"How's he doing?" I asked. 

"He's needing pain pills less often. I called and told him I went into labor and we just got to talking. He's finally telling Kase about his womb and testicles being damaged in the assault." Adin sighed

It's been a week now since Holt woke up and he's been avoiding the topic of being infertile with Kase. 

He's afraid Kase will reject him or leave him but I talked to Kase about what-ifs and he's ok with adopting as long as the kids look like him and Holt which I could understand. 

If he can't have biological children, he at least wants the children he adopts to look like him and Holt.

"Kase is such an amazing guy, to sacrifice his dreams for his mate. They're going to go far in life… hopefully further than we did and learn from everyone's mistakes." Adin looked away and I held their hand. 

Whatever we went through is in the past. 

"Adin we love and forgive you. We've all forgiven our mates through the generations. They've all deserved it because they busted their asses to prove they loved their mate." I said and my other mates agreed. 

"I just can't help it. I was selfish and just really messed up and I hope our kids learn from that." He's right. We have to do better and hope our kids do better than we did. 

"I will talk to him later when I go visit. Baine wants to go over the trail with us and I want to talk to Ronnie about Holt's recovery now that he has the metal plate and what the next move is." I said.

"Sounds good." Adin said. 

After we ate we just spent time together as we were but this time we were being distracted by our new babies. 

Three new beautiful healthy boys that are going to be a handful, I can already tell. 

Holt POV

"Hey Stallion." Kase said walking into my hospital room.

"Hey, Hercules." I kissed him. 

"How's the pain?" He asked.

"Manageable, they give me morphine every so often." I smile playing with my fingers.

"My Papa Adin went into labor." I tried to distract him.

He looked at me and studied me. 

I was really dreading this conversation. 

He sat at the foot of my bed still looking at me. 

"What's wrong stallion?" He asked and I told him everything.

“What do you mean we can’t have biological kids?!” I bit my lip as he half yelled. 

“The extent of my injuries… they messed up my testicles and womb, Hercules.” I looked down. 

“Stallion, look at me.” Kase said softly.

I looked up at him and my eyes were burning from tears.

“As much as it was my dream to have biological kids, I have seen the good in adopting. We can give a child or children a loving home. I told Caleb I'd be ok with it as long as they looked like us and maybe even then I'll be jealous of other people but I love you and I'll learn to love them. You just have to give me some time. Our new families may not be our biological families but I wouldn’t give them up ever. I love Darrold and Nash and I see the way you look at Caleb and your other dads. If I had to be mad at someone it would be my ex-friends. They tried to hurt us but they only brought us closer. I love you with all I have dammit. I still find you extremely sexy whether you believe me or not. I want to be with you and only you." I want to believe him but how can I when I can't even look at myself without hating my body? 

The thought of no longer being able to have kids or orgasm makes me want to die and never come out of hiding. 

"How are we going to make love if I can't orgasm?" I asked. 

He sighed. 

"We'll figure it out. Let's just focus on the trial and getting you through therapy. I'm only seventeen and you're only sixteen. We have time to figure it out and do what we can to get you better. I love you stallion." He kissed me. 

"I love you too Hercules." I sighed and he crawled into the hospital bed along with me. 

We didn't know we passed out until Ronnie was waking me up. 

"Mmm?" I groaned

"Wake up, time to take your pain pill and eat. If you refuse any more food we'll be forced to give you a feeding tube." I sighed. 

"Is my dad coming today?" I asked. 

"He will later, now, eat up." Ronnie said. 

"So what are the names of your brothers?" Kase asked when Ronnie finished looking over my vitals and making sure everything was alright. 

"Odin Cal Blackstone, Calvin Mason Blackstone, and Alvin Hunter Blackstone." I said.

"They're such perfect names." Kase smiled and I can see that look in his eyes. 

"I'm sorry I'm damaged." I looked out the window of the room. 

"Stallion, you're not damaged… I told you just give me time, ok? Can you do that for me?" I nodded silently as he wiped me tears. He may say one thing but how he feels, what I can feel from our bond is the want to have children of our own and I am broken, I can't give him what he truly desires. 

"I love you until the end of time." He said kissing my lips. 

We were so lost in each other we didn't hear the door open. 

"Oh, I'm sorry." Baine said looking away. 

"I thought your dad would have been here by now. I know your mama Adin just gave birth so they'll be bonding with the babies." Kase and I chuckled. 

"Baine you're rambling again." We all laughed. He tends to ramble constantly. 

"Oops, sorry. I don't know what I'd do if someone didn't tell me, it just happens." He chuckled nervously. 

"It's fine, I met your husband briefly by the way. He's a pretty cool guy." I said. 

"He's a pain in my ass but I love him." He smiled. 

"We can see that. He showed me several pictures of your family and witnessed how stubborn he can be." Baine and I laughed. 

"That's my hunny buns." He chuckled.

We were talking about anything and everything at this point and didn't realize dad had come in. 

"Well aren't you guys getting cozy and friendly?" Dad smirked. 

"Giovanni was talking to my surgeon before I went in and so we just got to talking." I said blushing. 

"Is that true Kase?" Dad asked him. 

"It is." He chuckled. 

When we all calmed down it was time to get serious. 

"What's the good news?" Dad asked Baine.

"The trial is in two weeks. Holt still has therapy and much healing to do so I made it so he can be healed at least sixty-five percent." Baine said. 

"Is that all?" Dad asked. 

"Well yeah, there isn't much to say until the trial." He said. 

Dad groaned. 

"That sucks." He pouted. He's such a child. 

After dad was finished being a child he showed us pictures of the triplets and we just talked about random stuff. 

I listened as Kase kept asking dad and Baine questions about their pregnant mates and children. I listened to his tone and read his expressions when he would reply and even though he said he will be fine with adopting, there is no denying that he wants biological children in his future, a dream I can never make come true for him.