Calum,

So this is the last message I will ever write to you.

No, I'm not going to send it.

This one's for me.

So Calum. Our nonexistent story was literally a crazy rollercoaster ride.

When you first rejected me, I was so crushed. You made me feel worthless and unwanted and ugly and it hurt. Alot.

You have no idea what I had to go through at school. Seeing you. It hurt. Seeing your friends watch me with a judgmental look, that hurt. Seeing you be happy with other girls. Seeing you kiss another girl.

That really hurt.

But you know what, I liked the pain.

I enjoyed the pain.

The pain helped me.

It helped me understand how worthless I was.

It helped me understand how horrible and ugly I was.

It helped me understand how bad I really was.

It helped me understand how you weren't worthy of me.

You made me feel ugly and worthless and horrible and you weren't worthy of me.

Then you go and tell me that you did like me the whole time but because you're such a pussy and you so desperately wanted to be popular, you could never admit it.

Because I'm such a downgrade and dating me would embarrass you greatly.

How pathetic.

I deserve someone so much better.

Someone who isn't so embarrassed to tell me he loves me.

Someone who doesn't make me feel bad about myself.

Someone unlike you.

And that made me feel so good about myself.

Rejecting you made me feel so good about myself.

But here's the truth; I don't hate you.

I love you, Calum. I probably always will.

But you're not good enough for me.

So yes, you hurt me Calum.

But you also made me feel better about myself.

You taught me to love myself and my flaws.

And yes, I've had my heart broken.

But I've come out stronger than ever.

So thank you Calum, thank you for making me happy.

I'll never forget it.

from the girls who's now happy and content with her life and herself.

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DRAFT DELETED.

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THE END.