As I was crying my heart out my phone ringed. I wiped my tears and took it from my back pocket. It was Sungo's mother call.

My eyes widen, she must have known that I was not at home. I nevertheless received the call.

"H-Hello,"

"Yejin, oh god Yejin. I was so scared."

"Why aunty?"

"Why didn't you told me your staying at daughter in law's house?"

"Daughter in law?" My eyebrow creased. Jimin? Their daughter in law? That doesn't sound so good.

"Oh mother for god sake Yoora is not your daughter in law! She is just my friend!" I could heard faint yelling of frustrated Sungo. Oh, he must have tell his mother that I was at Yoora's.

"Yeah, I was sacred that you left house. But Sungo told me you were at Yoora's house. Next time just inform me okay?"

"Yes aunty."

"I called you that I have put your food at refrigerator. I have put various varieties."

"Oh, sorry aunty. You must have cooked specially for me. I must be a burden on you-"

"No, no, no. Don't say like that. You are just like my daughter."

"Thank you," my eyes again become wet.

"No need for that. And one more thing Yejin."

"Your father, he is coming back. He called me saying he's coming back this week. He was asking about your progress and behaviour. I-I tell her behaviour is fine, still I don't know about your academic progress so, I didn't talked about it much. You scored well right?"

"I-I scored C in mock test, but end semester result is yet to come."

"I don't get it what this asshole man want from you! You're at least passing your exam!"

"Wow mom, you sound sexy while cussing in public at airport, look how people are giving you sexy stares. Dad is lucky man."

"I will look more sexy when I will beat you in front of this people with my slipper. Shut up." She scolded her son and return back to me.

"Yejin, you take care of yourself. No matter how much poison he spit don't take it on hearts and mind. He is a sick bastard, obsessed with your perfection, got it?"

"Yes aunty."

"An- okay Yejin, it is time to go. Yoora's family is here and  boarding pass announcement has been made. Love you darling."

"Yes aunty. Love you too, have a happy vacation.".

"Mom, don't cut the call. I wanna talk to Yebean."

"I will slap you hard if you ever call her that, hear."

"Hello?"

"Yeah Sungo."

"Are you fucking out of your mind? You were at Jimin's place for whole night? My mother asked for you and I have to made story. Now Yoora is here, hope and pray that she won't ask about you to her parent, I had message Yoora beforehand though."

"I hope so,"

"Why are you sounding so down? What were you doing at that asshole house?" He whispered yelled.

"I-I actually, we were studying- yeah we were studying."

"You we're studying? After exam? During holiday? For whole night? Nice. Now tell me what actually you doing? Did he made you do some work?"

We were actually fucking, fighting and crying.

"Actually we were had a movie night, nothing else."

"You sure? Because I don't think he is a person who would-"

"No, we were just fucking watching movie nothing else." I gritted.

"Woah, woah, woah slow down tiger. You on your month?"

"Hang up the call before I kill you."

"Okay, my flight is here anyways. Bye and take care, Yebean." He snickered and hung up the call.
I sighed, one major problem wasn't enough for me that my father is coming back. Why he coming again? And when only when my result is coming, god have mercy on me.

I crouched up and put my head on my knees. I smell like him, just like him. Lavenders and cinnamons, such a sweet and perfect combination. A smell which used to love but now I not anymore. I stood up and walked to the bathroom. I removed my sweater, clasped my bra and slide down my jeans along with panties. I turned on the shower and stand under it before setting its temperature.

"You deserve this Yejin! You deserve every bad thing in thus world! Gosh! You really don't know how much I hate you!"

"Love me? Nice joke. Tell me what you love in me? My face? My body? My wealth? My fame?
Little you achieve your goal Yejin.

You were a nobody before you proposed me. And look at you now, everyone knows you. Now since you had done some makeover, everyone wants you too! So please I request you stop using me as a ladder. I can't do this! I can't handle this!"

"Oh, I should stop? Is poor Yejin is hurting? You should thought about the aftermaths and outcome before hurting others.

And I believe what ever I said about you is really true."

"Right! Hana was a way better fuck than you. I shouldn't give you that chance. I was happy with Hana, at least you were not in my life again."

"Because you're nothing but a trouble for me! I was happy before you came. I living my life happily but you can't see that so you proposed me and turn my life upside down. Thank you very much Yejin. Now again my life is under your control!

Fuck you and your love! Go and fool someone else! I don't needs your fake love again!"

"Breaking hearts is also a sin."

"Stop checking out boys."

"What? Chatting with boys is not studying."

Again my eyes teared as I recalled his harsh word for nth time. Why it has to be him? Why I had to fall in love with him? But to be honest, it was partly my fault as well.

Loving him even after he was treating me like a tissue, hoping for him to love back, hoping to see him as mine was a mistake.

I laughed, a bitter chuckle escaped from mouth while tears wear mixing with shower water. I was a fool, many people tried to stop me saying we won't end up well but I was determined one day he will fall form me. But look how density has played its card.

The thing is now, how will I hate him. He has just use me to fulfill his revenge yet my heart was churning when I was pushing him away, clenching when I saw him crying.

How mad I have became in love that I can't hate him even after he has done so much to me. He has made me vulnerable shit for him.

***

My train of thoughts get interrupted as someone knocked on the door.

Who could it be?

I looked down, and sighed. I was surrounded by painting, many sketches and couple of paintings. This was my remedy, my way of removing all thoughts from my mind, all unwanted thought and people.

"Coming," I yelled as I picked up all sketches and painting and put then in my room's balcony. I hastily washed my hand and ran to the door to open it. My smile fell as I saw someone o wasn't expecting soon.

"Are you gonna just look me like that or will move aside?"

"Ah, sorry dad. Welcome home."

"Hmm,"

He flopped on the sofa and loosen his tie. I gave him a glass of water which he gulped in one go.

"How was your trip dad? It was the longest you have been."

"It was good,"

"What about you? Did you learnt cooking? Studied well?"

"I am still learning cooking?"

"Good," I sighed as he didn't notice the time of my words.

"How was your exam?"

Worst, just like you.

"It was awesome."

"How much are excepting from yourself?"

"I am expecting that I will ace!" I said with fake enthusiasm.

"How much percent?"

"97%?"

"Why not 100? You must score at least 100% in this exam. You studied right? Then you should score full."

My lips were in tight line, yeah. Why not 101%? He always want to know about my studies and my academic progress. Never ever he have asked about me, how am I? What is going in my life? How I am coping up? Never ever this man has cared about me.

"Yes dad,"

"And, what about your mock test result?"

"Yeah, we got it."

"How much you scored?" He asked with an eye raised. My heart started to beat wild from fear. He is again again going to yell on me, he will again humiliate me for being who am I. He will again lock me up in bathroom.

"Why are you so quite? Answer me Yejin."

"I-I scored C."

Silence.

"You again scored C!?" He stood up and walked towards me where I was standing. A yelp left from my mouth in fear.

"Even after studying of day and night you and your pathetic ass scored C?" His yelling roared in whole room.

"Bring your result!"

I hastily walked to my room and  brought the result, he was still standing there. Breathing heavily.

"You scored 40% in total Yejin? It means 13.34% in each subject as per as average? You can even get ace in mock test how will you ace in mid semester?"

"You are such a disgrace, can't even top in simple 33 marks test? How pathetic and stubborn you are? Shame on you Yejin. Look how my colleagues children are acing! Can't you do that! Where goes all your hard work of day and night?"

"You should have died with you pathetic mother, at least I would have been free from a cancer like child like you! Do and die someone-"

"Study! Study! Study! Every time study! You have to fucking study! Make you proud and do all fucking shit! You accept me to study 24/7 and the truth is whenever I study all letter started to dance in front of me! I don't get anything! And you expect me to ace in study with student who have money, tutor and mind!

Where as my dyslexic ass can't cope up with them! I try my hardest to make you proud and happy but you ain't satisfy! You want me to score 100%!" I yelled on him, tears flowing out my eyes. They are now familiar to cry tears.

"Dad, tell me what you expect from me? What do take me as? Have you ever in your life seen me as a daughter? Or just a robot to score those fucking mark which you can achieve in your life-"

My sentence got cut as he slapped me hard on my cheek. Heat spread across my cheek and it started to sting badly. I looked at him with wide eyes, it was the first touch he ever have physically harmed me.

"You were just a mistake, just like your mother. It was a good thing she died due to brain hemorrhage. I don't want you in the beginning, but she was persistent to have you. And look, she gave born to disable like you.
You are just a weight on my shoulder and I will see you like this until my last breath."

"You never loved us? All you see me as just a weight of your shoulder?"

"Yes! Do a favour on me and die." He huffed and stormed to his room and bang closed the door. I fell on the floor, and started to cry again.

Am I that much pathetic that no one wants me? No one loves me? No one wants me in their life?  Every see me as burden? Weight? Why am like this?

His words hurts badly, I always stood in front of him having determination of not hearing his poison at all but at last he always make me cry, make me worth my own existence every time.

It was better if I wasn't even born at first place. Then everything would have been
fine.

***
A/N

Sorry for another late update! Just a filler but I promise I will post again, soon and more angst thing.

Her father is asshole.

An I personally don't have any problem with Yejin except she fucked Jimin :)

It is 1:04 am BTW and my battery percentage is 15%.

(jawline sharper then the blade)