♪ Play the track ♪

My legs wobbled as I ran outside of his apartment, trying so hard to ignoring the pain between my legs. Every time I took a step ahead, I winced. And most funny thing I was running, running away as fast as I could. Going were my feet were taking me.

It was morning, early morning. Maybe around six, good for me not many people were around to give me judgemental looks. My hands continuously wiped those tears which were leaving profoundly.

Suddenly my footsteps came to halt along with screech of tires of a taxi. My eyes became wide as I looked around, I don't have any idea where am I, tall buildings all around me. Somehow I came in the rich area, which I am not known to.

"Are you fucking blind?" The driver of the taxi stormed out and yelled on me.

"I-I am s-sorry sir, forgive me."

"Teens this day, if you wanna die, go to Han river or something. Did you find my taxi to die on?" He yelled and turn around.

"Sir, then can you drop me to Han river?" He looked at me with shock, clearly not expecting this.

"Umm, no-"

"Then please drop to 63 Deachi-ro 19-gil, Taechra-dong, Gangnam-gu." I said I checked my back pocket of my jeans, thankfully I had my wallet with me.

"Ah, yes. Please sit inside."

I didn't say anything and sat at the passenger seat behind. He started to engine and starred to drive. Soon I broke into sobs, I immediately covered my mouth to refraining myself to let out any sound of pain but no, tears and gasps never stop leaving from my mouth. 

I never ever thought he could do that, an angel could be a devil. My heart started to ache more as my mind started to connect every single incident, every single taunt of his, every action of his.

From starting, it was crystal clear that he want nothing but his revenge, but how could I know he was Mr. D. How could I know his intentions which was hidden?

"We are here kid," the driver said, making me wipe my tears. I climbed down the taxi hand him some wons.

"Will that be enough?" I asked him although words were baring coming out of my mouth.

"More than enough, here's the change."

"Thank you sir," with this he drive away, making the view in front of me clear.

There he was, leaning on hood of his car. Wearing the see through white T-shirt he was wearing earlier along with his black jeans. Palms rubbing with each other and shivering. Cold smoke was forming as he was breathing.

Why he is here? What he is doing here in this cold weather wearing close to nothing cloth?

Hundreds of questions started to pop in my mind, my heart beat again escalated. Why he effect me this much even after I was nothing but a source to refill his ego?

"Yejin,"

Our red swollen eyes met, he turned around and looked at me with a huge relief and faint hope. A hope that I will listen to his lies and excuses again, I will forgive him but no, I have to stay stronger.

How many times I will allow him to break me, to make me a fool? This have to end. It hurts, every harsh word I spat on him hurt the core of me. But I have no choice, I can't let him play with me.

I sighed and crossed the street and passed away from him making him hold my wrist.

"Yejin, I am not asking for more. Just listen to me. You told me your side of the story now let me tell you mine."

"What? Were you had abusive parent? Were you had pressure? Were you suffering from dyslexia?" I spat on him.

"N-no b-"

"That's it, you can leave."

"You think you were the only one who was hurt?" He said which made me halt.

"Do think you didn't ripped my heart? Do think I would have never cried my heart out? Do think you were the only victim?"

"Ever think till what extend you broke me? Little do you know what had you did, little do you." His voice broke, his cold hands held my shoulders and turned me around making me face to face with him. His teary eyes broke me, never in my life I thought I will see him trying his best not to broke in sobs, he was crying because of me.

And you are crying because of him.

A voice inside me spoke.

"Do think only I was the one who hurt you? If think like that stop because this is only half of the story which is known to you." He
said as he cupped my cheek. Cold smoke forming from his breath his my face, his face was so close to me. My heart was beating so fast as if it will burst out of my ribcage. His touch was giving me goosebumps, how can I try to hate him when he still have  effect on me like this.

My eyes never leaved his face nor I have audacity to speak anything. He looked at me, and came close, closer than he was before. Slowly leaning in, in a heartbeat his cold, pale and dry lips came in contact with mine.

His eye shut closed and I saw a single tear rolled down, which he was trying to hold. His other hand wrapped around my was it bring me closer to him. Instantly I put my hands on his chest. His body was cold, ice cold.

His were eyes was close and lips were moving along with his. My body and heart was tempting to forget all and snaking my arms around his torso while kissing him back. But my mind was determined, although all my determination was shaking.

He soon stopped kissing me as he felt me still. He closed his eyes as more tears fell from his eyes, which make my legs wobble. He enter wined his hand which was on my cheek with my, a broken and almost inaudible whisper left from his mouth.

"Please kiss me back,"

This was a cue of breaking my determination into pieces. I was about to pull him into a kiss, but he beat me. Again his lips were on mine, moving softly like before. But this time I closed my eyes and pull him closer as my one hand went through his hair while kissing him back.

As if the time has been stopped, and everyone one in this world has been stopped. Just me and him, and this is our last kiss, our kiss of life. His cold lips were moving along with mine, slowly and softly leisurely.

People tend to have their dream kiss under rainfall, full of warmth, love and romance but here I was kissing him under snowfall, full of cold, sadness and pain.

This kiss was different that all other we shared before. It was slow, cold, painful and last. Soon he backed away, but he was still close. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him. Now he wasn't try to hold back his tears.

"Please don't leave me, if you will leave then I will be shatter." He breathed as he cupped my cheek and wiped my tear which unknowingly left from my eye.

"But I am already shattered, and there is nothing left for to be stayed. All I have left with is a broken heart."

"Please Yejin,"

"You were right, I was stupid. Stupid for loving even thought I knew,"

"K-knew what?" he choked out after a moment of silence.

"I knew that we had nothing, we weren't meant to be together. I always wondered what had I ever done for to receive this much loathe, humiliation and pain. Everything I used to cry and asked myself how to make you love me back, how to make you see me as I used to see you, with adoration and love.

Little I would have known I was only a refill to your manly ego which hurt in past, I was just your revenge, all your 'I hate you' were so true till core. Little I would have known, loving you would be a loosing game. I would have give up you a long time ago.
It would be as hard as now, but I would have been hurt less." I said as tears streamed from my eyes.
We both were in tears.

"Please, I regret every bad thing I did to you, after knowing the truth. I know I had no right to ask this b-but please forgive me. I am sorry-"

"Here," I cut his sentence as I removed my jacket and put it on his shoulder. He was shivering, his tears were started to turn into frost and his lips were turning purple. He looked at me as I backed away.

"Hope it makes you warm, although it cheap and not up to your standards like me. I can assure it will provided you heat same as those expensive one."

"Yej-"

"Now you got what to want, right? I hope we won't have any interaction again. Just six months more and you'll graduate,then you won't be seeing a whore like me. And I, I will always remember what you thought me and this goodbye, goodbye kiss. Thank you."

I turned around and start walking inside my apartment.

"Yejin! Please don't, don't leave like this." I can heard his footstep running behind me.

"Jimin, just go away."

"I except that it was all revenge at first but then-"

"Stop it, would you?"

"No, I can't. I can't lose you again."

I hastily climbed up the stairs, I had no entry left in my body to face him any longer.

Just two more floor more, I can heard him yelling and climbing behind me. I reached at sixth floor and enter the passcode of my house. It beep opened and I immediately enter in my house shutting the door closed.

My legs gave up and I fall down, crouching. Once again tears started to fall out of my eyes. He was hanging and ringing door bell, begging me to opened the door and listen him, but I don't wanna. I don't wanna fall deeper then I am already.

Ultimately the banging was stopped, I wiped my tears. He really left, I felt relieved but soon I heard him.

"Yejin, you know I am not leaving any sooner, not until you know all you must know before taking any decision you will regret in future, like me."

"I was used to be-" He started but I soon cut him.

"Jimin, if you ever loved me give me time and space. I want to be alone and far away from you. I- I want to be with myself and think about ever mistake I committed, one was falling for you.

So I beg you to leave me, alone."

I broke down as I completed my sentence. I heard the shuffling outside and soon after a completely deafening silence.

He left, leaving me all alone with my thought and myself.

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A/N

As I said earlier, I have a mood to write something highly angst. Hope it wasn't too overdramatic.

Still more to come.

One questions, do this book ever made your cry, at any point?

I love the kiss scene btw, it was so good? And romantic?

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