( A/N: Long ass chapter with approximately 5K words )

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His eyes were red, not due to alcohol but because of anger, his both hands were on waist, his leg between my legs. My eyes went wide as I realized how close he was, and how our position was.

"You have fucking audacity to tell me to stay out of your life! You fucking came in my life back! I didn't. You fucking came again and ruin it! I was doing alright, I was forgetting you, I was trying to be happy again, try to be self confident again but no, you have to purpose me! You fucking made me crazy again! You snatched my heart again, my peace, my sleep my everything! Now I am again in love with and I can't fucking get over it no matter how much ignore you or sleep with other I can't fall out in love with you!

When ever I am doing some thing, my mind wanders in your thoughts, even when I with someone else, I only think about you! Why? Just why I can get over you. And now look at you, have audacity to tell to stay out of your life, tell me you fall out of love. Have any idea what you did to me? No, how could you yet I still love you!"

His chest heaved up and down after he done yelling on me. My heart was racing, the only thing I could understand was he said he love me. The words I wanted to heard for so long, buy then why?

"I-i don't get it-"

"How will you get it, do you have any idea what I have suffered from? I suffered so much for you, in hope you will love me but no, you loved someone else. Who was extremely handsome, charming, cute, sexy and fit?

Tell where is now? Did he dumped you? Or you left him? Tell me Yejin!" 

"What are you talking about Jimin, I don't-"

"Liar," he scoffed.

"Jimin try-"

"I shouldn't have been a gentleman. You literally squished me under your foot and walked away. You broke me, in pieces yet I love you. And now when I am again head over heels for you, you're leaving me?"

"No-"

"Fuck you, I won't let that happen again." With this he pushed against the door and smashed his lips on mine catching me of guard. His teeth clashed with mine started to move hungrily. I froze, my brain stopped functioning and heart stopped beating.

His hands snaked around waist and he harshly pulled me towards him resulting our body mixed, I can feel his hot body against mine.

As if it was instinct, I wrapped my both hands around his nape bringing him closer, my mind was screaming to be strong and pushed him away but my heart was wanting more. I closed my eyes and started to his him back, moving along with his soft plum lips. I can taste bitter alcohol, nevertheless his lips were sweet like cotton candy.

All resolution and promise which I made with myself threw off out my window. All I just wanted to do was to kiss him. My heart was beating fast, as if it will explode. My legs started to wobble and my grip on his nape grew stronger.

His tongue traced my lower lips, and I recalled the moment when we first kissed. I opened my lips and his hot tongue enter in my mouth, dominantly fighting with my tongue, playing with it.

Soon he detached himself from me, panting. His lips were swollen and thin layer of sweat bead were formed on his forehead. The temperature was hotter then before, my surrounding turn hot, extremely hot.

"Did he kissed you like this too? Were you a whore for him too?" My heart, which was feeling giddy some moments before sank. Why did he said that.

"No Jimin what are saying, you're drunk."

"Drunk? I wasn't drunk three years ago?"

"T-three years ago-" my breath hitched as he buried his face in crook of my neck. His hot breath fanning against my skin, giving me goosebumps. My eyes closed as he started to stuck delicate skin of my neck. A yelp left from my mouth as he harsh nibbled it. But he didn't stop there, he kept sucking and nibbling at multiple places.

"J-Jimin-" I instating covered my mouth as low moan escaped from my mouth. He stopped doing it and looked into my eyes, smirking at me. He removed my hands from my mouth and again started to make hickies on my neck.

"Jump." He mumbled against my neck.

"W-what?"

"I said jump or I am carrying you in bridal style." I immediately jumped and wrapped my legs around him.  His again shoved me against the door and kissed me. It was slower and messier then before.

I gasped, slightly as I fell something poking between my legs. I soon realized it was his dick, my cheek turn more red. Another moan left from my mouth as he started to move his hips slowly against my clothed womanhood. He deattached his lips from mine and look me into my eyes, my eyes closed and my head fall back as his speed increased. Another moan left from my mouth, the foreign sensation it to good.

"You're inner whore is showing darling, look at you, you can able to open your eyes." He said as he was again marking me.

"You have too many clothes on, need to remove them."

"Let's take this to bedroom, shall we?"

I wanted to say no but the sensations, his kisses, the was he gave me hickies, they were so good. I want more. My mind was alerting me to stop before something happened you rewind back.

He was drunk, the way his legs were wobbling while going to his room, the way his lips were sloppily moving against mine, he was completely drunk and he was making me intoxicated.

I was here to end things, to say him good bye, to let him go but now here I was, kissing him back with so much ferocity and hunger. If somebody would tell me yesterday that tomorrow I would be making out with Jimin while going to his bedroom, I would laugh on their face.

My mind was mess, half of mind was screaming me to tell him to stop and another part of me was trying to decipher the meaning of his words, but nothing was making sense except his confession.

He said he love me, then why hurt me? Why trying to suppress those feeling by hurting me, ignoring me and sleeping with other, probably with his Hana. I don't get his most of words. He makes no sense.

He again broke the kiss as he opened the door, his eyes piercing into mine giving me shivers. He walked to his bed and gently laid me down and hovered me. His lips again captured mine as his hands started to wanders on my body. His hands traces my curves and fumbled with hem of sweater making me moan during the kiss. He broke the kiss again and hastily removed my jacket and throwing it away somewhere. He fumbled with hem of my sweater before removing, he looked into my eyes. His deep brows orbs asking for permission.

"Yes," I breathed out. He didn't waste a single second before tugging it away from top. Now I was just in my spaghetti strap top.

"Too many clothes," he groaned.

"Fuck, I will buy you another one." He said as he immediately tore apart it making me gasp. The cold air hit my naked, I mean almost naked body giving me goosebumps. My heart was thumping inside my ribcage threatening to jump out of it.

He fumbled with button belt of my jeans but soon opened it along with button and zipper, he swept away and throw it long with pile of my clothes.

Now I was just wearing my simple white undergarments. It was ugly, I was feeling ashamed, my body was not in good proportion at all. My hands covered my upper areas but he stopped it.

"If you try to be innocent one more time I am going to fuck you hard, hard enough you can't be able to walk for days."

His words gave me chills, and unidentified chills which somehow excited me.

"I wasn't trying to be innocent."

"Oh, I know. Don't behave like you haven't fucked with him. Every time you behave like sweet innocent girl, I want to ripped opened your clothes and fuck your brains out so next time you don't put any facade on."

"No-" he again kissed me, in order to shut me. I nevertheless replied to his kisses. His one hand crept in my hair and second behind my back and skillfully unclasped my bra.

As if it was instinct, I covered his eyes making him groan in disappointment.

"That's it, prepare for not been able to walk." He growled, which was so sexy. He captured both of my hands in his one hand and pin it on top of me. His eyes ranked from top to bottom.

"So damn beautiful." His statement made me blush, he never called me beautiful. He was drunk, that's why he is saying that. A thought came in my mind, he is drunk. I am some how taking advantage of him.

I moaned as I felt his tongue circling around my nipple of right breast.

"J-Jimin,"

"Yes, moan for me."

"Jimin, s-stop." I moaned out, and he immediately stopped. He looked into my eyes. My eyes were were showing hint of uneasiness which he saw too. I covered my chest and looked away from him.

"If you want me to stop, I'll stop. Tell me before I can't control myself."

I bites my lips, looking directly into his eyes.

"You're drunk, I am not."

"Well I can still fuck you, it is not about me but about you. Should I continue or not?" He slurred.

"Stop."

He instantly backed away, and crouched down to give me my sweater, but stopped in midway after listening me further.

"Don't stop." I know he won't remembered anything tomorrow, but I want him. I want to feel his lips, his kisses and him.

He immediately pushed me down, hovered me again started to kiss me, he started to placed small kisses at my jaw, neck and started go down to valley of my breast.

String of low moans were releasing from my mouth whenever he sucked my skin. He started to massage my left breasts while nibbling my right nipple. My hand flew in his hair, gripping it tightly.

Our eyes made contact, he was looking so seductive with latching my left breast into his mouth. A low moan escaped from my mouth. He started to place small kisses down to my stomach and stop just below the strap of my under ware.

I titled a bit up, on my elbows as he stop doing all action. As soon as did his eyes met with mine, while keeping an eye contact he slide my under ware down by biting the strap between his teeth.

It was most sexist thing I even seen. Now I was totally naked and vulnerable under him. Never in life I would have think of doing this, this thing with Jimin. But look, here I am wanting more.

He stood on his knees and removed swift removed his
T-shirt, exposing his upper body. I gulped, milky white skin, which was liking so soft but his rock had abs were telling something else. My eye widen a little as I saw a tattoo on his right side. A tattoo which spell 'Nevermind'.
Scratch the thing I said before, this was most sexist thing I ever seen.

"Wanna touch me?" He broke my trance. He was smirking, he knows he effected me a lot. However I remained silent. He grabbed my hand and traced it on his abs, I was right. His skin was soft, and his abs were rock hard. I again felt a shiver through out my body.

"Back to business baby." He said as he part away my knees. I instantly blushed as his eyes racked my womanhood. He bend down and started to place light kisses on my thighs, sucking it along side making me moan.

I felt his one finger, entering in me making my eyes wide.

"Ji-Jimin wait what are y-you doing!?" I exclaimed as I grabbed his hand to stop him, making him groan.

"Can you fucking see you what I am doing? Don't pretend you don't know-"

"I don't know-"

"Fucking stop! If I hear you uttering any single word beside my name, I will stop!"

"Am I clear?" He asked in which I nodded in agreement making him smirk.

"Smart girl. Now lay back." He slowly starred to move his finger which was in making me jolt, his finger immediately hit my g-spot making me moan.

"Tch, I found it already. You're no fun." He taunted as his speed, his finger hit my spot perfectly. As his finger sped up, the wet sound increased making me blush.

"My my, can you hear this, you're so wet and dripping. Such a  whore." He taunt as he interested another finger making me wince.

But soon that slight pain disappeared by pleasure. I became moaning mess, my legs started to tremble and my back arched. I started to moved because of the pleasure I was receiving. He put his hand my tight in order to make me stay on one place.

"Jimin,"

"Hmmm,"

"J-ah Jimin." I felt something coming, as if some thing passed through my whole body. My eyes widen as I feel liquid running through my womanhood. Did I just p-

My thoughts interrupt by Jimin's another sarcastic chuckle.

"Did you just came on my fingers?" He asked in amusement. His head dip down
between my legs, again making my eyes wide.

"Jimin!" My hands flew in his hair and tugged them in order to stop them, but he didn't. He hold my hand and goes further.

Suddenly I felt his tongue lapping my womanhood. It made me close my eyes instantly. He entered in tongue in me, which I found too much weird yet so good. His tongue going in and out of me making me a moaning mess again. My hand again clutch his hair tightly making him groan. His groaning sent vibration to it, resulting I let out a long sinful moan.

His finger started to rub my clit, fast and rough, my whole body jolt up due to unfamiliar feeling. I felt something hot sensation running through my veins of my body. I again felt myself near, the knot in my lower stomach start to get tighter.

I gripped bedsheets with my left hand and right on was still griping his black hair, tugging them occasionally.

"Jimin," I can't hold any longer, but I can't do that when he is there right?

"Jimin," I again moaned tugging his hair upwards.

"Just cum in mouth." He mumbled and I let it go. I moaned, loudly and shamelessly. I came in his mouth, and he licked me clean again. He got up on his knees. His lips were glossy, must be due to that. He was smirking like he had achieve something.

He again kissed me, my face churned in disgust as he was between my legs few moment ago. I can taste myself too, something sweet. I really don't like that. He broke the kissed and panted.

"Undress me."

"Huh, huh?"

"Gosh, you such a turn o-"

Before he can say anything, I start to unbuckle his belt and slide down his jeans. He took matter in his hand and discard I down. He was just in his black briefs. His huge bulge was evident, making me gulp.

Not giving any shit yo my express he slide down his brief. His dick sprung out and hit his pelvis making him groan. My eyes went wide when I saw his size. My throat went dried, I won't be able to walk for weeks.

He again hovers me, directly looking into my eyes, I gulped as how his eyes was filled with lust. He gave pump to his length and aligned it on my entrance. I moaned as I feel his tip on my entrance.

"Sensitive? Are we." He teased me as he rubbed his tip on my clit. My hands immediately help his shoulder but he didn't stop.

My grip on his shoulder tighten and my mouth hung opened as his thrust his hip, entering his length fully inside me in one go.

His face was buried deep inside my crook, he let out a boyish moan as he enter in me. I clawed his back as tears streamed out of my eyes. He didn't knew I was virgin?

As if the pain was nothing he started to move, harshly. He went out completely and again insert in me fully making me jolt up in pain. I let out a scream of pain making him jolt up. His eyebrow creased, looking at me in worried.

"S-slow down, give me time."

"What? His dick was that much small that you need time to adjust on my dick?" He laughed as he wiped my tears, immediately stopping his action down below.

"Jimin, I don't understand what are you implying every time?" I choked on my sobs, he wiped more tears which came out of my eyes.

"You still don't get it, don't you? Either you're really dumb or just pretending to be dumb."

"I am-"

"I was Mr. D,"

This one sentence was enough to put everything on place. My breath hitched as he confessed. As if it was a missing piece of jigsaw, making a picture perfect and complete.

Now it was all clear to me, his rejection, his humiliation, his words which I can never understand, every action and every word.

"What? It hits you hard?" His voice again bring me back to earth. He started to move his hips, making me wince. It immediately close my eyes as it again hit my g-spot. My eyes remained closed as I don't want tears to flow out.

"Look at me, look into my eyes when I make you cum."

I opened my glossy eyes and looked at him, his expression again turned into worry and he wiped the tears away.

"It is still hurting? Should I stop?"

"No, don't stop."

"I can-"

"Just don't stop, please." I gritted my teeth making him continued his action. He again kiss me, I again replied him, my heart beating faster, and paining as all incident flashed in my mind.

His speed increased, making my mouth hung low.

"Look me in my eyes."

I opened my eyes and see disheveled state of him. Lips swollen and parted, sweaty for head, black hair sticking on his it. He was moaning, low yet high pitched moans were flowing from his mouth.

"I am close," he informed.

My head fall deeper into the pillow as I also feel myself getting near.

"Such a whore, can't even look me in my eyes when I am fucking you."

This make me opened my eyes and I look directly into his eyes, no matter who much it was begging to rolled behind. I bite my lips hard as I felt myself near.

"I am close."

"Me too, I want you to cum before me alright."

"Y-yeah."

"Cum, now." I relaxed my muscles and cum all over his dick making him groan. He kept thrusting in me until I let out my high. When I was finally done he removed and pumped him length for few time until his cum shoot on my stomach.

He fall beside me, panting heavily. The room was hot, smelling of sex. Nothing but our panting was heard.

I turn around, back facing him. I tried to stand up but no, my while body was aching specially my womanhood.

"Said so, you will not able to walk, but did I went to hard." He asked, how dare he?

I didn't replied him and pretended to sleep. He scouted beside me pulled me closer towards his body, backing me. Soon I can feel his breath getting even indicating he slept.

I grab his hand and pushed him away from me, I pushed his body till edge of the bed where I can have a safe distanced between us. I took my pillow and put it between me and him.

My hand flew into my hair and I tugged my locks as tears stared fell from eyes. How can I just- I just don't get it. I broke into silent sobs, I can't even crisis with myself.

He was Mr. D all along. Now I get it why I deserved all this, now I get why rejected me, made his errand girl, humiliated me. I stopped crying when I heard him shifting.

I looked beside me, he was still sleeping. He was looking like Angel, how can he look like an Angel when he is a pure Devil?

I want to get out from here, so bad but I can move my lower part. Now it hurts even more recalling every single thing, his arguments, his taunts, his yelling everything make sense now.

I closed my eyes and and tried to forget all, hoping it was just one my nightmares.

***

Jimin's point of view

I woke up with sound of my annoying alarm clock, I groaned as I extended to pick it up threw it across the room. It collied with floor and stopped ringing. I tossed and again tried to sleep but it didn't work.

Finally I opened my eyes, I sat up holding my head which was throbbing. I shouldn't have drink that much last night. I became stiffed as I felt someone presence beside me. I turned around just to see Yejin, how was looking down to hand while fiddling them. Her eyes met mine, red and swollen. My eyes trailed on her body, which was covered in my duvet, but her neck and jaw which wasn't was full of red and purple hickies.

My eyes went wide as I recalled memories of last night. I- we had sex, did force on her? Oh my God, what have I done?

"Yejin-" she stopped me by raising her hand.

"No need, just one question. Can I ask?" Her voice was different, so bitter and cold.

"Yes,"

"Is you revenge is over? Or still want something more from me Mr. D?"

Her words were like someone threw a brick- no a wall on me. She knew? How did she knew?

"You confessed last night,"

"Look Yejin-"

"Please give me my answer, am I free or not? Nevertheless your answer won't effect my decision, just asking."

"No it is not like that-"

"Then what is it?"

"Look, I- I don't want any revenge at all,"

In reply she raised her eyebrow questioning my statement.

"I would have believed you if I haven't seen your clip of bribing someone to make famous on social media with the clip of your rejecting me, with your own hastag, #Rejection. Would have believed you if I didn't saw you smirking menacingly after he went away.

Again my eyes widen, when did she saw that.

"When did-?"

"It doesn't matter Mr. Park. I would be talking my leave, hope you will not bother me again."

My eyebrow creased as on her words.

"No, you can't leave me-"

My sentence got cut as my head snapped at left and heat crept on my my right cheek. I cupped my stinging cheek and look at her who was on verge of crying, her teeth gritted as her she clutch the duvet toward her body.

"Now what left? You even fucked me! You got your revenge as you said. Your thrones pierced my heart many time, now nothing left! I can never believe you can fall this low!" Tears streamed on her face, which all red.

"Ever tried to wonder why I rejected you?"

"Because I was ugly-"

"God damn fucking stop! My only reason to reject was my own problem. Do you have any idea? Answer me Jimin!"

"N-no,"

"I am dyslexic! I have dyslexia. And I have a father who expect me to score hundred out hundred. Who want me ace in study no matter how! He consider me as worthless piece of trash. A father who wants me ace with student like you, who are good in everything! A father who won't even consider me sending to a special school, a school for children like me or even keep a tutor me for. A father who would lock me up bathroom of score less, burn my painting and mentally torture me every time he visit me!

And you, at that time you proposed me I was solely focusing on studies! I wanted to make him happy. I want him to prove my worth. I can't afford any distractions, I tried to decline you but no, you were so persistent.

And do you the funniest thing of all? The person I said was in love was you. When I first saw you, I remember the date, clearly. The date of my downfall, 13 January. I didn't know who you were, what was your name, or how rich you were.

I just fucking fell for you! Not knowing you were Mr. D. Later I got to know your were rich, I am not a materialistic whore. I suppressed my crush for you for three years, but at last I proposed you? Why because I knew it was your last year here. If I didn't sum up now, then I will let you go forever.

And look what I got!"

She was taking deep breaths after yelling in me. Her statement struck me up like lighting. My eyes became wide as realization struck me hard.

I was the person she was talking about.

"I was virgin," she whispered.

My eyes again went wide, I remembered how I was behaving, what I did to her.

"I never kissed anyone before, never had sex before. Just letting you know, I regret last night. I regret many things last night. I regret proposing you, I regret begging you for another chance, I regret letting you use me, moreover, I regret loving you."

Her words hits like arrows, many arrows all together hit my heart, passing through it.

"No Yejin, please listen to me-" I tried to move closer to her but she backed away making me stop in my tracks.

"Don't you dare to touch me!"

"Baby give me a ch-"

"Baby? Sorry I am not your baby. I clearly remembered I am a materialistic whore."

"No, you're not Yejin. Please listen to me-"

"Stop it Jimin, I am fed up all this. That was what you wanted right? You got your revenge. That's it, you still got Hana."

"Please, listen to-"

"No, thank you. I would be leaving."

With this she tried to get up from bed, but can't.

"Let me help-"

"No, get lost. Stay away from me."

Her words broke my heart, this was she feel everyday when I cut her off?

With many difficulty she stood up and walked where her discarded cloth was. She picked her clothes and started walked away.

I immediately wore my boxer and went towards her, and back hugged her in order to stop her.

"Yejin, please don't go. Just listen to me-"

"Leave me alone Park Jimin," she said as tried to get out of my grip.

"Please, I love you."

"Nice joke, now let me go."

"No-"

"Leave me alone!" She screamed
as he tried to get out of my grip.

"Yejin, just listen me once-"

"If I will listen to your lies and excuses I know I will come back to you again, and Jimin please I beg you to leave me. I don't think so I can handle it more, I am a human too." She wailed, she again broke into sobs which break my heart again. Her condition was because of me.

"Please," she choked. I hugged her more to tightly, my tears started wet her shoulder. It churned my heart seeing her like this.

I never knew this will break her, break her to this extend. I regret, I regret all. I wished I just have accepted her proposal that day. We would have been happy, not like this broken, broke into crumbles.

"Jimin, I hate you, I hate you so much." She whispered making my heart beat faster. She never said this.

My grip from her waist immediately loosen, she moved away from me.

"Hope you don't spread news of me being dyslexic on whole school. Don't do that of you have ounce of humanity left." She said and walked out of my room.

I fall on my knees and broke in sobs, I regret all after knowing the reality. The phase she was going through that time, my breath escalated as I remembered the times I taunted her regarding her studies, the way I made her question her own confidence, the time when she tell me stop because it was breaking her heart.

This was she feel every time? This feels like some stabbed my heart, burned my lungs and choking me till death.

I heard a loud bang outside, she left. She left, I again let her go again. This time she hates me, a girl who was head over heel for me just a day ago now hates me. She regret loving me, never thought a day will come where she will leave me.

I wish I hadn't done all this.

***

A/N

Lovely (with Khalid) by Billie Eilish.

I felt horny while writing in the beginning, and cried while writing the end part.

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I said, regret is most dangerous punishment.

They both regret, one loving an second doing this.

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