Instead of going to work today, I called in sick saying that I had a terrible backache and needed a few days to recuperate. If Soran Devione was truly who I thought he was, then it would be best if I got back in contact with my inner being.

She was everything that I was not which was why I severed all ties I had with her. The things she, perhaps I should say we, did together was leading us down a path of self destruction and eternal misery.

Senait also has an inner being like mine within her, but what scares me is that their relationship is the direct opposite of the one I have with my inner.

While Senait was at school, I was desperately trying to get my inner self to talk to me. Her anger towards me didn't make it any easier as I felt her fire burning down my insides. Her rage almost becoming unbearable, nearly forcing me to cut the connection.

My head flung up to the ceiling as I tried to bite down the screams. I dug my finger nails into the carpet trying to stay strong and endure the pain because I knew that this is what she wanted. For me to feel her anger and hatred for what I did years ago.

Flashes of the great fire of our home appeared in my head and pictures of Senait's father. The look of disappointment in his eyes. 

Tears streamed down my cheeks and I knew she was satisfied. She succeeded in her plan to break my barrier. The memories I had worked so hard to keep away had now resurfaced and it felt like I was being splashed in lava.

The pain of rejection, being an outcast and the hurt I would soon come to know when my daughter finds out the truth. 

"So you finally decided to stop being a coward and face me," her voice echoed in my head. The pain evident as her voice cracked a little. "Took you long enough to realize that you can't hide forever and that your burden will always weigh you down."

I didn't have to respond because we both knew she was right. No matter where I run to or what kind of life I live, I will always be the same person. One can't run from their true identity because their shadow always follows them.

"I need your help," I said, fearing for what she might say. She wasn't the forgiving type and could hold a grudge like no one can.

She cackled like a maniac. "Of course you do! Why else would you mend the broken bond when you knew that everything you worked so hard for would all go down the drain?" I didn't respond. "Because I'm the only person that hasn't shunned you although that's what you did to me."

I sighed. This was getting me nowhere and Senait would soon come home. I wouldn't want her to find me in this state because I lied and told her I no longer had an inner.

"I'm truly sorry and I do regret everything I've done in the past but I really need your help with this," I began. "Only you can tell me why this Devione wolf has taken an interest in me."

She went quiet. I could no longer feel her presence and my body returned to its calm state. I got up from my lotus pose, doing a little stretch to help ease my tense muscles. I had now lost all hope of finding out more about the mysterious Soran Devione.

I heard the front door being opened before my hearing Senait's voice calling for me. A light smile making its way onto my face as I went to the living room.

"How was school, sugar plum?" I asked her, while taking her school bag from her. She seemed to be in a happy mood today. 

"It was good because I don't have any homework," she cheered. "That means we can spend more time together before you have to get back to work."

I smiled at her. She seemed so happy and bubbly that I also felt her happiness and forgot all about my worries. She always knew how to cheer me up even when she isn't even aware that she is.

"What do you want to do today then?" I asked. Her eyes immediately lighting up at my question.

"Let's bake cookies. My teacher gave us some today but they tasted like dirt compared to yours," she giggled. 

I laughed while nodding. "Okay then. Go change and we'll bake your favourite cookies."

So that is exactly what we did for the entire evening. We made a lot of cookies, had a flour fight and made a mess in the kitchen. When the cookies were all done baking, we had a contest to see which one of us could finish cleaning our half of the kitchen.

When we were all cleaned up and could no longer fit any more cookies into our stomachs, it was time for us to go to bed. I read Senait a bedtime story and then headed to my room.

I changed into some comfortable sleepwear and got into my bed. Pulling the covers over my body, I was ready to fall asleep when I felt my inner self stirring within me. Something was troubling her and that worried me.

"It can't be." " The moon must have made a mistake." "He is not going to like this."

I couldn't hear everything she was saying but the bits I could understand had shivers rattling down my spine. 

"What is it?" I asked her, dying to know what could have made her so frantic.

"It would be best if you found out for yourself, after all, this would've never happened if you didn't abandon us."