Avni's pov

Standing in shower,Washing my sorrows.Then realised that my inner turmoil is much worst,as compared to my physical pain.

Then I thought that I will try to stay on the guided path.But my demons were much stronger then my hope.
The darkness was dominating
My new found hope of light.

I saw the blood dripping from my body which was the output of self harming stunt that I performed but then I analysed that this pain was equal to pleasure as it made me realise that I belong to darkness.

I am a sin child and I should know my identity very well.

I guess I should run away from this light as it will again give me hope and then push me into the valley of evils from where I won't be able to comeback.

Yes I should run away.

Pov ends.

Avni was sitting under the shower and was travelling in her own thoughts. Her point of views regarding herself again changed.

Her eyes were red, blood was dripping from her body. The last 2 days have created a havoc in her life. Remembering that incident that took place during one of her visit to counsellor send shivers down her spine.

( Flashback - Italics.)

She was leading an amazing life. She was the happiest soul on the earth as she was finding herself again from the lanes of darkness and all credit goes to her Prakash dad and her newly found love Neil. Though she thought that she should stay away from Neil but she can't deny her feelings for him especially after his sweet gestures towards her. She remember how Neil wasn't able to accompany her in her recent counselling session that took place 2 days before due to an important meeting so Prakash decided to go along with her.

A smile crept on her face when she feels the genuine concern they both have for her. They both are the most precious and pure soul she have ever discovered in her life.

Neil kissed her on her cheeks for assuring her that she will be fine. Like always he motivated her.

She placed her shivering hand on her right cheek while closing her eyes. She was feeling him and her body was shivering due to the cold water treatment she was giving to herself. A satisfied smile was lingering on her face.

She went for counselling session with Prakash and he was trying to make her feel good. He was making her laugh and was giving her advices just like Ashish.

She kept kept her hand on her heart as she want his fatherly affection forever. She don't want to loose it. She want to become a spoil child who is spoiled due to her father's love and affection.

They were waiting for her turn when she excused herself as she wanted to go to washroom. She wasn't knowing that she will regret going there as the biggest villain of her life was there waiting for her.

She was shivering badly and started pulling her hairs harshly, tears were flowing from her eyes and she snuggles more into herself as if protecting herself from the cruel world.

A guy was following her and when she sensed something wrong she turns and within no time that guy pinned her against the wall and placed his palm on her mouth, thus preventing her to speak further. Her eyes was showing fear while his eyes was showing lust for her. He squeezed her waist thus making her wince in pain but she was unable to speak due to his tight grip on her mouth.

Avni took the blade and rubbed it harshly against her waist and her gaze was following the path with which her blood was flowing from her body and was hitting the ground.

Avni - ( weak voice ) You have to clean my dirt for that you need to flow.

She was shivering under his horrible touch while he was smirking seeing her condition. "YOU FORGOT YOUR IDENTITY AVNI SO I NEED TO MAKE YOU REMEMBER YOUR REAL IDENTITY. YOU ARE A SIN CHILD. NEVER FORGET THAT." Came a voice from behind, it was a familiar voice and she didn't want to listen that voice again but her past would never let her stay in peace.

Avni fall down on floor, crying her heart out, the pain that she was feeling was not less then a dagger piercing her continuously. She was playing with herself since two days, her blood was like a toy for her and her emotions were like a hell for her.

She wants to end her life but at the same time she wasn't that strong. Ashish, Ayesha, Prakash and Neil, these four people were the reason why she didn't want to punish her self to death.

Then a thought injected her skull like an anesthesia. Her brain became numb, her sensory nerves weren't giving her sensations of pain that sharp blade was causing her, her brain show no mercy on her when she was torturing herself. Though her heart tried to stop her but she wasn't in her senses to listen to the screams of her heart.

The chains around her tightened and now she don't want to break those chains. If she can't kill herself in one go then she will kill herself every minute by burning in the hell of emotions and torturing herself with endless pains and wounds.

Dayavanti Mehta, the only word that came into her mind after listening her grandmother's voice. The guy left her with such a force that she fell on the floor and Dayavanti was smirking seeing her condition.

Dayavanti - You belong here Avni. ( pointing towards the floor.)

Avni caressed the floor as if trying to face some kind of reality. She felt as if she's a dust practical and she deserves to be on floor.

Dayavanti - Always remember you are a sin child. An unlucky person.

Avni - I am a sin child.. I am unlucky .. ( tears flowing down from her eyes.)

Dayavanti - I was trying to make you face your reality that Prakash and Neil were trying to hide from you and see today I got a perfect chance. You are the destructor of my home. You are the bad omen. My son lost his life due to you and you killed your mother as well. You are a trash. Always remember that.

Avni - I killed my parents, I am trash. I deserve hell not heaven. ( She said in a weak voice still lying on the wet floor and tears were flowing down from her eyes continuously.)

Dayavanti - Do you even remember that you slept with so many boys for fulfilling your drugs requirements. ( laughs ). Poor Neil, how can he look after you Avni ? You love him. Well you do. I know very well as I listened your confession at your mother's grave and saw your sweet moment with Neil. I wondered how he hugged you when you don't even deserve to be his slave. ( laughs ).

Avni - Neil don't deserve me. He should treat me like a garbage and throw me out from his life. ( crying bitterly.)

Dayavanti - Now you can satisfy the needs of my bodyguard as well. ( smirks)

Dayavanti - ( to her bodyguard) go and enjoy with her.

He proceeds towards Avni but Avni runs from there.

Avni - No I don't want to do it .. please don't ..

She closes her eyes and ears and ran from the bathroom as if trying to escape from that jerk.

She drapped herself in the blanket and cried bitterly.

Avni - ( while crying ) don't do it please don't do. I can't.. please leave me .. please.

In hall

Neil - That's what counsellor told me.

Prakash- Even I found her behaviour weird and I tried my level best to find the reason behind her odd behaviour but I wasn't able to do so.

Neil - I will do something. Don't worry dad.

Avni came outside her room and was covered in a full sleeved top in order to hide her wounds. She went towards stairs and felt drowsy. Her head was spinning and she took her first step but she fainted and lost her balance due to which she fell down from the stairs.

Everything happened in a Nick of time. Prakash and Neil saw the entire scenario and became shocked. They ran towards Avni and took her in their embrace.

Neil - ( while crying and taking her in his arms) please Avni open your eyes. I can't loose you. Please get up. Please get up for me. I love you dammit please get up.

Prakash was also crying but somehow composed himself and called ambulance.

( It was very difficult for me to write this update as I can't imagine Avni in this condition and now I am cursing my brain for giving me this idea. Trust me I will make everything fine very soon.)

( I want to make one thing clear that Avni is not raped in the flashback. Before that guy can do anything she ran away from there.)

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