Since I had met Adrian a couple of weeks before, my nights had been hunted by dreams about him. About our time together, in a past that I wish was long forgotten.

I walked like a zombie most part of the day, unable to sleep, eat, train, be a leader like I was supposed to be. That was tearing me apart, and I didn't know what to do to fix that.

"Maybe you should go back," I heard Abe say. We were both sitting in my office, discussing something about the pack's younger ones. I can't say I know what we were talking about, for I wasn't really paying attention. Somehow, my mind was always somewhere else. My beta seemed to notice.

"Where?" I asked, still distracted, looking at the window. The weather was getting colder, and soon there would be snow again. Just then I turned my head and stared at him. It didn't take long for me to realize what he was talking about. "What would I do there?"

"Be with your mate. It's a terrible fate to be apart from the one you love. I can't imagine it," he said and bit his tongue as soon as he did, after seeing my angry face. "N-not that I have a mate. I wouldn't know."

"My mate doesn't want me." I clenched my fist so hard I felt my nails piercing through my skin. Who would want me? A witch and a werewolf at the same time? Even if I wasn't practicing my magic anymore, it was still inside me. And wolves... Well, they didn't like what they couldn't understand, what they couldn't rip with their claws. Magic was one of those things.

"It seemed to me that it was the opposite..." Abe's voice lowered down at each word.

I took a deep breath, releasing my fingers. "Get out." My nostrils inflated. He stared at me for a minute, not seeming to understand what I wanted. "Get out now!" I shouted.

Abe got up immediately and left me alone in the office.

My hands grabbed the side of the wooden table and turned it, throwing it right into the wall next to me. It broke with a loud crash, and everything that was on the wall, mostly books, fell to the floor. I screamed more and brasher. No one heard, or no one had the courage to ask me what I wanted. Probably knew that if they did, they'd end up with a bite.

I needed to see him. How did I manage to survive his absence the first time? Because I was there, alive and fine, there had to be something I had done at the time to forget about him, and I had to find out what it was otherwise I wouldn't be able to keep going.

Frowning, the realization came to me. I didn't forget about him back then, just had a lot in my mind. I had just been turned into a wolf, and I was gathering werewolves to join me. It kept me bust, it kept me from thinking about Adrian. But there was nothing I could do this time, except for one thing... I could forget about him for good. I still had magic inside me, after all.

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